YIPEEE!
Cleared 3 papers.
2 more to go.

Well... It's a really bad idea to have a one week break between papers.
cause you have no mood to study...
AT ALL
Just hope I don't flunk my PF1103 and LAT1201.


年少时候谁没有梦
无意之中你将心愿透漏
就在你生日地时候
我将小小口琴送
最难忘记你地笑容
How I wish there is someone that I can sing this song to
Pathetically.

I am very tempted to post something very very personal here.
but without this being password protected.
there is still a risk the person would chance upon this post.
so... I shall hold the post till I start a word press account after my papers
I am still thinking of the web design.
And if I still remembers then what am I about to post today...

爱是愚人的国度
...
爱是自娱自乐演出

I feel like a nun these few days...
I haven't step out of jurong since saturday.
5days counting down to my first paper...
I can't wait for it to finish and enjoy my 3 months holidays.
Not gonna blog about my plans here because most likely I won't be completing anyone of them.
No point.

Hmm...
I think I studied too much for A-levels
that I am now very reluctant to study...
Although I did not step out of Jurong
I was watching shows at home instead of preparing for my exams.
No exam stress felt
and I am pretty worried about this ignorance.
Staring at the same page of notes for hours with nothing going in
this is bad man.
then.
I want to pull my pathetic CAP up.
not studying. I think i am pulling my CAP down instead.

Going back to stare at economics after lunch.
I want to either maintain or improve...
please don't deprove...

Anyways, I have this urge to start a word press account.
Should I?
Should I not?
We will see then.

Abit of relaxing to do. Listen to some music. Stephanie Sun's new album is not bad.
Try listening 愚人的国度 and 空口言.
I am very lazy to post youtube vedios here.
But I think both MVs are nice to watch =D

加油吧大家！


‘读读读读读到书好想吐好想哭
怕怕怕怕怕老是背书好白痴
你你你你你只会说你要第一
我就快要发扬巅峰’
-会读书 （林俊杰）

Just one moment of weakness.





能不能在哭一下下
把记忆彻底的分化
刚哭完我就会回家
眼泪我会提自己擦

I don't know how to comfort someone... I don't know if I did the right thing... but I felt kinda bad after that... cause I am of difference with the person I was 'back-stabbing'... So telling her about him is like telling her about me.... Fine. I know you don't know what the hell I am gabbling about :(


Feeling kind of NUAH these days thanks to some food poisoning... I was suppose to start on an asshole lab report like last week but procrastinated till thurs to do it. Yet, thurs I wasn't feeling well enough to even watch a 2.2hr movie without running to the toilet. Friday was typically spent sleeping at home. Literally. I think I have never slept as much as last friday. My sat is usually burnt because of work. So, it wasn't until today that I started on my lab report only to find how much of a horror it was. 88pages report... how on earth is 3 people going to finish by 1st april?! Well... we are able to finish it with sub standard quality maybe? Adding to it... my ssb report is still not finalised :(( Team mate just called to point out one BIG problem about another team mate which was evident to me on day one of our project. But me being me, always chose to ignore what others can't see. Selfish, ain't I? Now, I am eating my own rotten fruits. Well... who to blame? Following week is gonna be one hellish week.

Even though the stress is coming in now, it's still me to blame because all these could have been done smoothly and without any problems if I had planned my time well and not waste it on lazing arounf at home or even stare into my computer day in day out without doing any productive stuff. Who to blame? Myself again.

While I was having a temper with the 88pages report, I went onto the youtube (forever my fav site) and scouted on you-know-who and thought I should put this up. I couldn't stop laughing...



He should pay a fortune to buy this back... Haha :) The next one is pretty long and hence not recommended to watch unless you are super free.



He never fails to brighten up my day. Why oh why.... I wonder...

There are times in one's life that you find that you are aimless. Your life becomes such a routine that you don't even need to think or plan about where you are going next, cause you are going nowwhere. That's what I am feeling now. :(

I need to re-ignite my passion for something, there are so many things that I want to try yet I don't have the courage to. I act as though I am happy with my current status but deep down I am not, Tan Bei Yi wants a more fruitful life than the one she is currently in.

I need to be more determine to finish a task. I always leave things hanging because my thoughts drifted away. I never get things complete.

I need to find my goal in life, because it would be my north star to success. I don't want to be an aimless wanderer.

I hate to be alone, yet I don't take the first step. I act as though I am Chirppy dosen't mean thats me. I am just a lady who lack confidence, who have no interest in anything, who thinks she failed the world.

I know complaining with no actions does no good. I have been asked, is this a fact or a psychological problem. I myself know it's the latter, but I don't know how to change.

I hate to feel inferior to people yet I want to be humble. Contradicting. How I wish I had just half of HIS confidence. How I wish...

"When I am weak, then I am strong. 我脆弱却不退缩."

Changes.

Keeping a social life in Uni is hard.
Maybe I didn't make an effort to do that
but...
It's also maybe I don't want to do that...
The people I hang out with last Sem is already very small.
A trip overseas for the whole dec makes things worst.

School started before I even had a chance to breathe
and I found out how alone I am without the Hall and coursemates.
I chose to take modules different from theirs
and because of our timetables, tutorials slots are also different.
I can't see sustainability in this friendship.
It's something like a touch and go.
A hi-bye.

Changes.

Have I changed?
No idea.
Success is a matter of Strategy and Habits.
You cannot bring your old habits into a new environment.
Association is also very important.
Mix with the right people.
Recently, I have been bombed down with life triggers I would say.
Some words that people say that would inspire you to work towards your goals.
Negativity is a pattern, you cannot eliminate negativity but you can displace them.
You are born to win but conditioned to fail.
No one can make you upset unless they get your permission
People don't know how much you care until you show them.
Later, tomorrow and yesterday means never

I hope I have changed to a better person.
I hope I will change to a better person.
变化。

"I do not fear the man who does 10,000 different kick but I fear the man who does the same kick 10,000 times." -Bruce lee.

People, it's time to change. :)
Love.

Do you have dreams?
When you were 5, what are your dreams?
When you were 10, what are your dreams?
When you are 20, what would be your dreams?
When you are forty, what dreams would you have left?

People shrink their dreams to meet reality.
So do I.
I don't have a strong dream.
When I was 10, I dreamt of being a marine biologist.
But my mum said, you will not have rice to eat.
When I was 14, I dreamt of being a Interpol investigator/FBI.
But my grades told me, you are not observant enough.
When I was 16, I dreamt of being a physiotherapist.
But my parents said, please don't waste your time.
When I was 18, my dream was to be a construction project manager.
No one opposed to that. But I did recieve opposition when I chosed SDE over FASS.
Now I am 19, what's my dream?
Simple.
To lead a live of freedom.

Financial Freedom
Illness freedom
Freed from family problems
All kinds of freedom

Do you know what's the root cause of all problems?
MONEY

Money can cause all evil. It can break a family apart
It can cause people lose their lives cause they couldn't afford their medical expenses
It can cause people to live in poverty

But money dosen't drop from the sky.
I strongly believe in "Nothing ventured, nothing gain"

Without sowing, you won't reap.

有钱可以似鬼推磨
Heard of this before?
I might be money minded
But I know what money can do for all of us
Who dosen't like money?
You need money to realise your dreams no matter how small it is.
Your dreams might be just getting a well-paid job. You still need money to get a degree at least.
You need money to support your daily expenses.
Please don't tell me you food and housing dropped from the sky or god gave it to you.
If you are a filial child
You need money to support your parents such that they can retire and enjoy life instead of bringing back money to feed you and in return you complained that they don't care about you.

Something I have come across towards the end of last year might change me into someone you have never known, but I did not and will not regret.

Someone told me this today.
"If you did not make a concious decision to live a life of greatness, you have made the decision to be poor"

I am too niave....
So niave that I think I can be called STUPID.
I think I trust people too easily...
I get cheated too easily...

You came to ask HOW.
I explained to you.
Yet, you don't understand.
I offered you a reference.
I am not sympathetic because you are not doing well
everyone has their strengths and weakness in various subjects
I understand this.
So, I am helping you because I treat you as a friend.

A friend should help others when they need it.
So, I offered what I can for you.
My own work.
For REFERENCE.

That's a very open topic.
You can simply talk anything under the sun.
I sent you my work to let you see how I did it.
NOT FOR YOU TO COPY.

I wrote about electricity.
You talked about electricity.
I am fine with that.
Someone else out there would also be doing electricity.

BUT.
Why on earth is our application similar?!
Do you know how betrayed I felt when I saw your document?
Do you know how betrayed I felt when I saw your message?
All I felt at that moment was ANGER.

It came to me...
You came to ask for my help.
I did.
You said to trust you that you won't copy.
You just want see how things are done.
I did.

And in return for this favor
I open the document to see a similar report.
My one week of hardwork
became your report?
Your two days work?

You can talk about anything.
Even if its electricity
You can talk about something else.
Electricity has so many application
When I open the document
The topic of research is the same
The application is also about the same
At that moment
All I think of is...
我太天真了...

Do you know that a trust is broken here?
A trust takes 10years to build and one day to tear.
How do you expect me to trust you anymore?
Betrayal is all I feel now.

Maybe I misunderstood you
But I am sure that's not the case.
This is not the first time.
One assignment
we sent each other ours answers to compare.
And when you sent yours 2 days after we sent you.
I realised... Why are some of my answers in yours answers too?
I decided that it's ok. Those answers are quite standard.
This time.
I think it went over...
too over...
Unless you tell me that you are already thinking of doing static electricity from day 1
I have nothing to say
just that we think alike
but I know that's not the case.
You don't know what to do.
You asked me
I said electricity.
And the next thing i know
You are doing electricity too
and the next thing I know
we are both doing static electricity.

I really don't understand why did you do this to me.
But from today on
don't expect me to send you anything for reference.

From today on. Reference in my dictionary is the same as copying of ideas.

We might fall out after this event.
But currently
I don't care.
I don't need someone like you.
Someone who breaks trust.
Someone I trusted so much.

I will not be so niave anymore...

Recently, I've been listening to some old song by JJ Lin. Just post a few songs here.
I still don't know why I like him so so so so much... :X


Now that She's Gone. I find this song very touching... Maybe cause I took one module on visualization in design and technology, I can visualize damn clearly the scenes of this song --> My imaginary scenes. LOL... Actually not related at all... That asshole module has nothing to do with visualization in design and tech...


Trapped.

This is one song that I always liked. And so... It shall be put here so I will not go youtube and search it then end up watching other things...zzz...

OOHHHH!!! FINALS ARE COMING!!! I AM FEELING IT! THE STRESS.... oopppsss...

Anyways... For people who are feel depressed about issues... Don't have the thought of ending life. Recently I watched a show (fake one) and there is this quote the death girl always say

"不要轻易呼唤死亡 你想变成石头吗？"

"我是奈何桥的守护者 只有在你渡不过的时候 我才会变成死神"

So people... THINK TWICE... think twice...

I am SUPPOSED to draw my 59 figures like NOW. Instead, I came to BLOG. One of the 9 PMBOK processes, TIME MANAGEMENT.

Why am I in project and facilities management when I can't even manage my own life? LOL.

Anyway, I am living the the heart of a tornado. A tornado destroys everything in its path and the safest place to be is to be in its heart. My friends are stressed up by sucky mid terms and upcoming end term and projects. It's a PHEW that I have FINALLY cleared my PF1102 project and got shoot big time by the teacher. Yet, I am not feeling stressed up at all (that's why I am blogging instead of drawing!) I think I am going to DIE for end sems. Oopss...

I think I aim too high for me to even reach it's TIP. But what's the purpose of life without a AIM? AIMS are supposed to be unreachable. If you can reach it, it's not an aim. I think I heard it from Adam Khoo course I suppose. I am aiming for a First Class (too high, too high for the situation now) but looks like it's just a dream that will never come true? AIMS should be set high to be unreacheable BUT it must have the illusion that it is reachable so that we don't feel dejected everytime.

Ohhh.... and for the last post, it's Que Sera NOT Que SARAH.... LOL. I feel like banging my head on the wall.

Anyways, GAMBATTE to all. NUS for End term, NTU for MID terms and your end term in DEC.

Life past in a flash, cherish it.

Once I recieved a letter to SMG labels. And it wrote, "Only a dead man has seen the end of war." Every moment of live, we are in a survival war. Only when you die, you see the end. :)

Quitters never win, Winners never quit.

I am proud to be a EMP-er =D

Great spirit or mediocre mind. Which one are you?

Yesterday there was this supposely inspirational talk at Eusoff formal dinner. While... I think I have a mediocre mind. That's why I wasn't listening to the talk. Anyways, today morning over breakfast, I don't know why our talk went into academic grades. But we where talking about this girl who had to S/U one of her A- module to sustain a 5.0 CAP.

So I commented that that is a damn stupid thing to do. Getting 5.0 CAP and 4.5 CAP, it's still a first class hounors. Then I said, getting Bs you still can get a second class hons which is relatively good and evelyn agreed. And Yanting said, satisfying which what you currently have and not moving forward is a thought of a mediocre mind. I said I would be satisfied with getting Bs which I think it's relatively a good grade (provided you see how scary the bell-curve of that module is) and Yanting rebutted. You got you B because of moderation. Which means, half of the cohort is better that you, what is there to feel satisfied about? It's not the grades, you can be getting 27/30 which is obviously an A but get a B because of the bell curve. You yourself is contented with the 27 marks, but as compared to the cohort, you are lousy, half of the cohort own you.

And then I was wondering, why the hell is there a bell curve here?! Competitiveness... Why does the education system wants to achieve by being such acedamic oriented? The country looks at grades, the society looks at grades, you look at grades, everyone looks at grades, but who knows how much effort you had put in, how good your results are supposed to be. This place leaves no room for error. One mistake and out you go.

I am hitting the bare minimum on the B bell curve, but I am contented, cause I am getting the results I wanted, but not the grades....Hiaz... maybe I have a mediocre mind. I don't belong here...

Recently, Ms Chua posted something on facebook:

"Que Sarah, sarah, whatever will be will be, the future not ours to see, what will be will be."

Self protection is often necessary, especially when you are all alone.

Psychological walls are easy to build but difficult to tear. 8 months of recuperation, the walls are up in just 2months. Why? I want to protect myself. Protect myself from the harm, the pain that others will give to me.

I never wanted a strong bond between people because I am afraid that you will leave one day... Away from me, to lead your own life. I want to protect myself from this pain.

I never wanted to risk because I am afraid of the consequences if all fails. I am protecting myself form harm.

I never wanted to talk first because I am afraid of your first impression on me. I am protecting myself.

I never wanted to express myself because I am afraid that you will hate who I really am. I am just protecting myself from harm.

Psychological walls are build for a reason. My reason. To protect myself. I need no effort to build walls, but I need tremendous amount of effort to tear down the walls... Why on earth am I letting the walls up again? Am I prepared for a war that I have to lock all gates?

I am just afraid where my threshold lies. I have a bad feeling that if things exceeds threshold, I LOSE EVERYTHING... EVERYTHING

我已经习惯了
改不了了
为什么你们要这样对我
你们知不知道我有多难受
明明是朋友
为什么我种觉得格格不入

不是我要把心墙拉起
是逼不得已

拜托你们不要再伤害我了

一个又一个 排队等缘分
前面丢后面捡
捡到的变恋人丢的变路人

走了一个忘了一个才懂眼泪对自己最残忍

Why should I feel down because of you.
I am not going to torture myself.
All because of you...

Give me time...
I will get it over with...
This sucks...

I want to learn to draw a line between like and love...
I thought I know...
But now...
I realise...
I DON'T...

SCREW IT.

我没有说谎 请别以为你有多难忘

Have you ever felt this sense of empty that will make you feel outcasted?? I am feeling this right now... but I can't pin point the reason...

I am not outcasted... but I suddenly feel tired to even say a single word or talk to you... I suddenly feel I couldn't take it anymore... I suddenly get an emotional wave that I myself don't understand...

I am down today... Luckily there Universal Studio today... which made me feel a little bit better as I get to see Cheryl and Hsier... :))) and this is the first time to universal studio, I think the rides are just so so... the mummy ride which many say is suppose to be the most exciting one... I think ok only leh....

Adding this one... I am down for two day in one week since I step into UNI... This shall not continue... I am not going to emo at one corner like what I did back then... I tried... But I think I am just not a social person... I suppose I don't leave a good impression for people :(

Why can't you share your problems with me?
Why can't you just talk more to me?
Why do you influence my thoughts?
Why do I care so much about you?
Can you please tell me the answer?

为什么我只有单恋和暗恋的分而没有恋爱的分？

I smiled and say goodbye to you and from the moment I turn, the smile faded into a string of curse....

I can't help but blog about how pissed I am an hour ago such that I am thinking about how to blog about my pissness in the bathroom...

Let me tell you what the **** happened just now.... I was suppose to go for IFG netball today, we are scheduled for match at 7 and 8. So I packed my happy went down to the netball courts. And in the end I came back to Eusoff without a single bead of sweat. Why? Cause I didn't play a single match. We played 8 quarters for god sake and I play none? I know my skills are lousy to the core... But shouldn't you guys at least let me play a quarter??? So much for me going to all their trainings... I only missed the last training which i suppose is the most crucial training yesterday and I felt as though I am a lost sheep neglected by the farmer... No one talked to me, no one care about me... their players are so damn tired after 8 quarters and they still insist on putting them in when Camillie and Me was sitting down there not playing any single game... If you have no intention to put us in, please inform us so that we wouldn't have to waste our time looking at your lousy skills! And what pissed me off the most is that I turned up for their trainings when no freshmen came.... I seriously don understand what's wrong with their negligence to me... just because I didn't turn up for training yesterday? FUCK OFF! At first all I wanted was the IFG tee.... then after a few trainings, I felt that yes I want to play for SDE... and this is what I got for being so enthu? THANKS ALOT! I REALLY APPRECIATE IT!!

Even now I still feel damn pissed off... Thinking if I shall turn up tml... Cause I really wanna play :(

And today... I found out how small the world is.... I saw someone that I didn't think I would see again... I thought after JVS netball, our paths would never cross again... then while we were playing Bizad... I was looking at the GS and look turn into stare and then OMG! SHE LOOK DAMN FAMILIAR!!! then next moment.... OMFG! she is adeline.... and her shooting is omg de good lahx... for the last quater, she shot 10 goals in 7mins.... damn good... seriously... Had a short talk with her :))

There is a dark angel in me saying... SERVE YOU RIGHT SDE, FOR NOT WINNING....

Ahem... Yesterday's informal dinner for EMP is damn nice.... Looks like I got a cool and fun team to work with :) I am damn excited about going to LAOS now... but pretty horrified that it's a three weeks trip.... afterall, i haven been to a third world country... and when I go... I am going for full 3 weeks!!! Anyway.. I am still excited... be it the planning... the pre event and event itself.... I am really looking forward to it.... and I think I am damn lucky to be in... cause there is like damn little freshmen... I wonder what makes me stand out from the other 60plus people and be the 22 ones going to Laos.... and the idea of spending my 19th Birthday in LAOS excites me even more!!!! =DDDDD OMG! I can't contain my excitement!!!!!

I decided to withdraw from Eusoff Sports Management Commitee... Cause I have been saying I need to get my piorities right.... I think school, work and EMP is enough for me to juggle at this point of time... I no need another Eusoff SCM to bomb me down.... I hope I made the right choice... I hope with all my might I wouldn't regret from withdrawing from SCM...

It has been one month since school started for me... But it felt as though school started for years... Let me see what I have now in hand to do... Hmm.... Two projects, one term paper, 2 assignments. Yupx.... and two mid term test coming up...

Current status?
Haven't start a single shit of revision. I seriously don't believe that I am that busy that I don't have time to sit down and study.... I strongly believe that it's because of time management. My time management is damn bad... So what am I doing about it? Nothing. Maybe it's cause I am too tired such that the moment I hit the bed, I slept through to morning. People with insomia could try staying in hall. You wouldn't have problems sleeping, I guarantee. Well... and I need alot of sleep... Nights at Eusoff is so happening that you seriously cannot study at night. So it's only left with the days. I have long breaks between lesson which is like nice hour to mug... but... I don't know what the hell I am doing...

Wed is suppose to be my free day... and ya... I did study... But some how or another, someone or something will happen in eusoff and I cannot study anymore... Hiaz...

I must learn to get my piorities right.

PF1102 is fun... but why do I get such a rigid as a wall tutor? Hmm...
ST1131 is already boring enough... Why do I get a even boring and robot teacher? I actually shaded many disagrees in her evaluation sheet :X
PC1326 is boring and crazy.. but why do I get a good tutor?
GEK1527 has a good lecturer... But why do I always fall asleep in his lecture??
PF1101 is ____ can't use a word to decribe...

Complains, complains and more complains... When would I learn to look into the root of the problem and stop complaining?

Off to Dinner... I am in Project EMP to Laos... Happy about getting in... Sad that I don't know a single soul there :( Anyway... make friends... Introvert is not an excuse...

YOG has officially ended with hugs and kisses and new friends found. One bad thing about being a bike marshal is that all you see is the athelete ZOOM past you even before you take a good look at their faces... So yanting was like commenting this this this person is damn cute... then I was like... I only had time to identify their countries... Anyway... Jap won the women's and New Zealand won the males. Team Relay (yes there is such thing), America won. I think the team relay is pretty crap actually...

There is a total of 3 race days and on the first which is the women's competition, the volunteer system was so damn screwed up that the bike marshals are still at the carpark waiting for the leader when the YOuths arrived... and by the time we are deployed... The atheletes are already warming up.... second day and third was better, but we got depolyed at 7 when the race only starts at 9... so I was so damn bored that I sang JJ's album from No.1 to No.7 and played sudoku. Somehow I think yanting's job as a manual timing staff is more fun... at least can see handsome guys can...

Then there's a crash during the female games that cause Singapore to came in last :( and Clara Wong cycled 3km with a punctured wheel from the crash... cause the nearest wheel station is like 3km away... and according to Yanting, when she changed from bike to run... the 27th runner has already come back... and mind you... there is like only 30 ppl competing :( Jap won and the girl is damn pretty... and really got the high school look... Hmm... if you realised... most of the athelete for this YOG don't look like thier age...

Then the guys... I donno what position did Scott Ang get... but one of the last... nothing much about the guys... but Arron Barclay is already in the lead during cycling... so I wasn't suprise that he won though... hahaa.... and kevin macdowell is cool...

Team relay was yesterday... the team relay went like that.... the best two males and females of Asia forms Asia team 1 and then best two males and females in Europe forms Europe team 1.... so everyone was divided into continent... competitor who does not get into their continents team cause their timing is too bad forms the world team (psst... both Singaporean are in the World Team). So the race went like that... I think it's pretty crap cause you don't need the race to start to know that which continents will be in the lead.... So... the race started... by the time the second player cycled, there are gaps all over the place... Usually they come in packs... like one pack... then half a min later the second pack... but this relay... it's many many small packs... and America, Oceania, Europe and Asia was leading in the first pack... Wah... the jap girl is really pro man... she is taking the lead... maybe a half second lead only lahx... but Asia was already lagging from the first bid. By the time the third player comes to the bike course, it's only left with America, Oceania and Europe competing... Aisa? Now where to be found. I think Asia's 3rd leg is not very good... cause according to Yanting, the jap lady came in first.... then by the time the 4th player cycle past... America OWNED the game... Oceania's last leg happen to be Arron Barclay... but too large a distance to catch up though... sad... and so... let's get back... WHERE ON EARTH IS SINGAPORE? Last... cannot blame... They already lost in the first leg... :( Scott Ang was the last leg... and you know wad... he cycled past me as though he is leisure cycling lahx... I got a nice look at him... The everyone waited for him seh... so dua pai! Then yanting told me that she can actually understand why this happens lahx... it's like half the competitors already changed from bike to run and he is still waiting at the start point waiting for the third leg to come back... OMG... if it's me I would also sian diao one lolx....

So YOG ended nice... I enjoyed although I had problems waking up at 4am in the morning and the food is not so nice.... but... I really enjoyed it...

And thanks to YOG, I haven attended any of my PF1102: Fundamentals of project management..... Thanks arh... my foundation is going to be rotten... and I think I am pretty hard working to even attend lecture after my duty... haha... also cause I also donno wad to do in the hostel... so just go chit chat lolx... Not that I have listened to any lectures till now... now I understand why my seniors said there is no need to atten lecture... cause the lecturer is like talking to himself and you can just walk out in front of his eyes... but i feel guilty not listening and then today's stats I was trying to make sense out of what the lect is saying... but I don understand... siao liao... tut no need do lerx....

Staying in Eusoff Hall is so damn FUN!!! But to ex lerx... My house dosen't print notes for god sake... I almost got a heart attack when I got the bills... OMG.... and they are like increasing the price next sem can... if they lower the price maybe I might consider staying... cause it's reallt fun and full of activities everyday.... I haven't been in my room at nights before 11 cause the hall is very happening having Inter-block games... Since last monday...I had Handball, volleyball and netball matches.... :) and you get to eat and chit chat with people... FUN FUN FUN!!! But too ex... I can't pay that much for fun... and I concluded that staying is hostel although fun... you don get to study.... I don listen in lecture, I don revise in my room... am I like getting myself ready to get kick out of PFM??? and I although I don believe this came out of Yanting's mouth... but she said staying in hall made her realise the importance of studying... maybe cause I still dosen't have any exams or tut... I don't feel the stress she is having now...

Ok... this is like a damn long post... cause too much happend this week... imagine. Monday- YOG woke up at 4am and then at night opening ceremony until 9plus. Tues- Handball game till 11. Wed- Volleyball game till 11. Thurs- YOG at 4am, handball game till 11. Fri-Netball till 11. This is fun and full of life... but at the same time... it get kill from the lack of sleep... I am so damn glad that I had wed free. I slept through wed... like a dead lock... Poor Yanting... i bet she is damn tired... she said staying in hall is like a never ending camp... You lack sleep everyday... But I told her... After YOG and IBG... you can experience peace and sleep... =D

Maybe I haven't been schooling for like full 8 months.... That's why it's pretty hard to adapt to current schooling.... :(

My timetable sucks I agree... But since I am staying in a hostel, it dosen't matter to me if I have like 4 hours intervals between lessons... Cause I can simply go back my room and slack... and my friends too... just come in and chit chat and slack...

But the feeling of school has started is abit... I don't know how to put it into words... but it feels like BOOMS and everything fell down on your shoulders... not a burden... it's just something that takes some time to relief bahx... or maybe I got myself into too much commitments... YOG is taking up quite abit of my time as well as sleep... I personally think that first lects are not really impt lahx... and uni lect are very likely to be webcasted... So no worries... but I don't know where my worry lies... good thing tut haven't start yet...

Eusoff hall is fun... I just had my IBG tryout yesterday... tried handball, FLOORBALL, netball and volleyball.... hahaa... long time since I play sports though.... one good thing about staying in a hostel is that you can always find sports kahkis... I am pretty suprised that my block has quite a number of past netballers... :) YEAH! we will win the IBG... haha...

I am tiredddddd =( from YOG actually.... took an half hour power nap this afternoon before going to class... if not by now I might just be on my bed lerx lolx.... hahaa... Missed the Eusoff Bash at Butter Fac cause I am too shag and dowan go spoil atmosphere lahx... tml still have to wake up early.... for YOG....

haiz... hope everything will smooth sail after my volunteering work ends...

Trying to struggle between school, work and life.... why can't they compromise?

I always wanted to put up a post... but I am just too busy... What am I dong for the past few weeks? Hmm... I can't remember... your friend here has really bad memory... Maybe that's why she couldn't survive Singapore education... HOHOHO!

Hmm... I donno where to start... So I shall start with the most recent one... Yesterday was NUS ANNUAL RAG DAY and also some YOG torch relay thingy day... I SERIOUSLY CAN'T BELIEVE SDE LOST RAG!!! Ours is really damn nice... wait till my senior uploads the videos and pics... i will post it up here... even seiyu and yanting says it's nice.... But i didn't stay for full RAG though... cause I gotta rush off for work... :( anyway... I think I can watch it on youtube anyway.... HIHO HIHO ALL THE WAY WE GO! School of Med did quite well too... their dance esp cheerleading is superb... You really couldn't believe those would be our future DOCS.... OMG! Faints... too bad they didn't win... BUT I SERIOUSLY HAVE NO IDEA WHY DID SCI WIN MAN! Their float is like... dance so-so only... Our dance might not be as nice as some but our float is REALLY nice... and our costumes are cute... imagine herseys, kinder suprise, kitkats, snickers, M&Ns and ferrero roche dancing... HAHAHAa.... Anyway.... sad...

Hmm.... what else happened over the pass few weeks... Flag was fun though... maybe cause it's my first time... hahaaaa.... but the fun is ruined by me needing to fill two cans one belonging to SDE while the other belonging to Eusoff... Anyway people... I am staying the a hostel... feel free to drop by to slack... provided i must be in lahx... ahhaaaaa.... Now packing to 'move house' on national day... HAHAA....

Oh... and I managed to plan a 4day week.... so my wed is free... any souls wanna ask me out... WED is a good day... cause I would be working on sats and sunday is most likely gonna be study and tut day :)

If you really wanna know what i am up to the past few weeks... facebook seems to be a good place.... I am really sorry if your feeds are like flooded with my pics... OMG... don lose your appitete though... it's gonna stop... hahaaa....

Kudos...

I have to say this...

I LOVE GIER!

I think they are the greatest group of people I have known :) They are take initiatives, they bond very well and they are a very very nice bunch of people... and just recently... I found out that there are many rich kids in my OG.... Muahahaaa.... Veron should know about this cause I was damn excited when I talk about it over the phone yesterday...

But... Horrer strikes with every outing I go with them... First outing I went, Melody told me she is changing from PFM to RE... My room matteeee!!!! Then 2nd outing I went, Meldoy told me she CHANGED to RE... Then 3rd outing I went, Chrystal (the last lady in PFM, cause we only have 3 ladies in PFM) said she want to change to RE too!!! OMG! Why everyone going RE... Make until I wanna go RE also...

Rah... But I wanna blog about happy memories with GIER....

Yesterday I went for QET (which totally sux... I bet I will flunk like crazy if they mark the GP way... Cause I don even know which one is my SA and which one is my OA) then after that we went to Melody's house for GIER annual sports day... And for the Nth time, I took ZhengHao's car to Yishun with Shernice. Then while waiting for a type punture merz to reach NorthPoint, we ate swensens...Then after that we took YingXiang Merz to Melody's house... Short but damn shuang trip... first time I take Mercedes Benz can... Although I know nuts about car... I do know that Merz is damn ex... Then we played Bball at Melody's house... wah... Damn long never play ball, the grip also not there liaox... Ball keep kena tap away by esther... Maybe I am too used to playing Netball that I am not used to people tapping away the ball from my grip (cause this is a foul in Netball), so Esther keep tapping away my ball that I feel damn irritated for one moment, I played rough... Hiaz... Hope she is not offended or anything... Then switch to tennis... although I have played tennis numerous times... I still can play tennis... Aiyah... arm no strength lahx... haha... Then after that went to stone in the function room... play our fav game, murderer... and the new version of murderer... Maybe not new to some... but new to me lahx...

While we ate dinner... I found out that Chrystal is transferring to RE also =C... Our OG only got 4 PFM souls... Then now left only 2 if Chrystal is transferring... The Peter (PFM) say g0 RE better... So... A PFM senior is telling me to go RE.... WHY? So darren was saying RE is very broad-based curiculum can work in bank and ya-da ya-da... So I listen already also think RE not bad... Then for one moment I really thought I chose the wrong course to study lehx... is like why would someone in PFM tell you to go RE? Ok... maybe he don like... who know... so, I was fretting the whole night if I should transfer too... and till now... still no conclusion... damn sian...

Every career has competition... Just like Project and Facilities Management and Civil Engineering is competing against each other. Real Estate although able to work in banks competes with Biz finance who would be a better choice for employers. Real Estate can study about valuation of land, how to make the land more worth the money so can PFM. PFM manages the entire project (which don't you think it's damn cool to like tell people, I managed the project of the building of IR or some mega construction project? ok... maybe it's only cool for me...) while RE is only part of the project... I don't know why is there a issue against PFM?

I don't want to let people influence my choice that easily now... Just like what XueShuang said... When you made to choice to put PFM as your first choice, you have already weigh out its pros and cons, you thought about the future prospect clearly and made the choice which at that time, you think was right... So no point regretting you made the right or wrong choice... because you can't see the future... Maybe you study PFM and then turn out to have a sucessful career, would you like turn back and say... oh that time I made the correct and wonderful choice... or you transfer to RE and ended up in some ulu place, are you going to say... I shouldn't have transferred back then... You won't... Because the past dosen't know the future...

如果时间可以倒流我现在所拥有的一切都不会那么-珍贵
我无法预知未来所以我得相信我现在所做的决定