Dear blog,

I am here to revive you.... Dead for so long sehx.... No mood to blog and clogged up with stuffs... Just had my bio test 1 hr ago... and I can say I would flunk the paper. I tok kok throughout the paper lahx... Give reasons why antibiotics has no effects on Syphilis... Guess what I wrote... has resistance against the antibotic, so antibiotics has no effect... Lame... Kkz... It's better than leaving it blank right... I think Ms ooi would go bonkers... *Shrugs* But I still want to pass the paper!!! Sobs...

And I decided not to go to the Grad nite... Had other plans which is not suitable to be written here now in case some ppl sees it and I had a birthday to celebrate... Of course there are more personal reasons but I don't think its going to be good to write it here... SS asked me... Honestly, do you want to go? He thought I didn't want to go because Jas is not going.... That not the case! I am not a sheep afterall... I want to go because we could take pics... it's our last year and then me, not very socialble and photogenic... I think I won't be able to get any pics... and a class photo is enough of memories... And of course I would miss out the fun but there are alot more reasons for me not to go... One is the allocation of tables... I don't want to get into such big trouble and fight about the tables and stuff and there are ppl who are so 'kind'... I apprecaited that... But I am not going... And to purchase the tickets now is too early... I have no feel of the Grad night atmosphere and don't feel like going... Maybe I would regret but for now... I know I won't.... Cause I have lots of reasons not to go... :)

Things are really getting out of hand this few days... although most of it has nothing to do with it... Conflicts in the class worsen due to a small misunderstanding made up by some kind soul.... Classmates getting stressed up about stuff and you know what... we are teenagers and for me... A concious me tells me that my grades are plunging.... It's time to work hard... But my body is far too lazy... It's tiring now... Don't feel like taking the O's.... The adam khoo workshop did a little motivation to me... But only for a few days... and it motivated some of my friends that they are now stress up by school work... Scary... Isn't it? Now I could see how weak humans are... how weak my mentality is... How unmotivated am I... how lost am I...

Engulfed In Maddness... Jyt_Derx

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