Ah.... The holidays ended... Sadded Sia... Haiz... Anyway, I spent my holiday stupidly... didn't go out at all except for the genting trip... diaoz... I stayed at home to finish up the holidays assignments that I have gave up do lerx... Cause I spend too much time doing it... My Chem tutorial, 12 questions, I use 3 hours to finish it... and another one I use the whole day! God... Then maths on average also 3 hrs and hell lots of careless mistakes... it's a good thing the teacher provided us with the ans or I bet I would have hell lots of corrections to do... Econs is mainly essay and I gave us doing cause I can't differentiate the quantity demand/supply and demand/supply... whatever lahx... and the case studies de questions all so ulu one... and bio essay I didn't even bother to touch... cause I hate essays... anyway, my homework is done by referring entirely on my lecture note... I couldn't do it myself!!! Fine... My friend said that I got all the best teachers in the school for every subject... do hope they can help me... >.<>

Friday went JP lib to do hw... and then went to this fashion to look for jasmine... She is going to buy a laptop!!! Wht the... it's like the whole class has a laptop lerx lolx... and I still done have... Sianed... well... actually is I lazy to go look for it lahx... My mum wanted to buy me one... But I told her if she never buy me a laptop, she must pay for my hp and buy me a nitendo DS lite... Haha... but my ideal laptop my have microsoft word (vry vry impt), Han Shen, internet connection. that's all I want... but all this you have to install yourslef one right? So I could simply just get any laptops... -_-''' But I wonder if my house internet is wireless one lehx... if not must attach another line lolx... I asked Jasmine if it's possible to appeal to poly now... She said should be can... So I am wondering... Haiz...

I bought a show back from Malaysia... It's titled "One Litre Of Tears". I know the show is a very old one... But I haven't watched it... I finished it yesterday... It was indeed touching... But I didn't know why I only shed a few drops of tears... And my sis was like, those lovey doevy shows you cry like tap water then this touching show you only drop a few tears... I was like I also donno why... But I really pei fu the girl... Her case was detiorating very fast... 10 years after the sickness, she died... But she wrote a diary... I wonder... If I was her, would I even bother to live? Would I smile to accept the fact? Would write a diary even if my hands were out of control? I doubt so... I am not that great...

I should have listen to Ms Chua back then... she is the only teacher who told me not to go JC wheras other teacher say go JC... Why didn't I listen? Shouldn't my mentor be the one who understands me most? Who knows where's my limit? Why did I listen to those teacher who may not even know me? Why did I listen to my mum about going to JC is the best way? Why? Why didn't I listen to my dad about going to poly? Okie... this is sounding emo...

I finished watching Dou Niu Yao Bu Yao lerx!!! It's super nice... although it's draggy... But I like the way they shen li si bie and come back together again... And I am watching Yuan Lai Wo Bu Shuai also... ^-^ not a good show actually... But I am watching it because of the cast... Lol... Cause they are starring JJ LIN!!! btw, tml S-POP Huarray got him sia!!! And coming Sat he is going to IMM for Autograph Session!!! 4 p.m!!! Anyone intrested to go??? Hello!!! Fine... From what I know, no one shares the same idol as me... You know why JJ always write songs that is not down to earth or towards the future? Eg. No. 89757, The Killer, Westside, Metamophorsis, 2nd Heaven... This is because he wants people to cherish the present... Whatever... I see alot of -_-'''
I am going off to prepare for school tml... Guess what... I haven't bought my tie... not my fault though... It's there's no stock!

I try not to regret my decision but this is torturous.
I try not to push the blame to others but I can't.
I try to be optimisstic about things but in some way or another I see it the other way round.
I try to be happy about where I am now but I know I still have a long way.
All I wish is everyone could stand by me.

Which ever road I choose to take in the future, I hope everyone understands.

Yu-oh! I am back from Genting!! Well... I came back yesterday night lahx... The trip was boring enough lolx... The rides at the theme park is so not fun and there is like so many ppl lahx... Malaysians cause they are also having holidays... Well... I prefer to go CDAYL lolx...

Took the lousy bus on saturday night and it took up 7 1/2 hrs to reacher genting lahx... So slow right? By right, we should only take aout 6hrs... and the bus climb the hill is like tortise like that lolx... But the good thing is the whole bus (24 seater) only got 5 passenger... So we get to put our lagguage behind lolx... And I thought the custom would jam like nothing lolx... and when we reached there, guess what... There is typically no one lolx... Diaoz... I was alittle shocked... Cause before we took off the driver siad that the day before which is friday, the custom is so jamed that it took the ppl 4hrs to clear lolx... and we clear both customs in 10mins... We took the 2nd link and there is like totally no car in the whole causeway link lol.. so we alight at the malaysia custom, the police is like waiting for us lolx... Thanks to someone lahx, the tourism rate to malaysia dropped drastically...

The reached genting about 5 in the morning... took the check in number and tour around first world lolx... Then genting is like so cold now lolx... about 16 degrees andvery misty... super nice lolx... the scenery... After that we ate breakfast, go arcade anf play bowling until about 1 like that then check in to hotel... and sleep! Until about 5 plus... then we wanted to go watch movies but the massgaing seats all booked lerx.. so we just shop around and go tatooing while my mum went casino... Watched CSI Miami in the hotel... lolx... Next day went theme park but the morning is like heavy mist lolx... so alot of rides cannot play... but after that okie ler lahx... And I took space shot for the first time in my life and it's super scary... Ok... I am timid.... Cause it's misty so when the machine went to the top, you totally cannot see anything and it's like so high lolx... And it dropped! And for 5 secs, i thought I was dead... Phew... And I couldn't even scream out lolx... But it's fun in some way... and it feels like suicide too me... :x Well... I took the ride once only lahx... I felt really jelly lahx.... Then played go kart... and you have to sign some xie yi shu lahx... And it's in malay... is like I don understand!!! But anyway, I just sign it lahx... then they give instructions also in malay and they ask in malay who don understand malay... so do they expect us to understand what the hell he is talking... anyway... I just hop on the car and drive off lolx... PLayed corkscrew also... that one is the thrillest one lerx... PLayed flying coaster too... but you have to pay extra to play that... but that one is also very fun.... Then at night we watch 10,000 BC... sit on the massaging chair... it's so comfortable lolx!!! And The show is quite nice but I couldn't focus on it cause I am too cold... kaoz... the cinema person donno how to think one lehx... outside so cold ler the theather still blast the air con!!!

Whatever... Anyway... My last day at genting I just went bowling and aracde and check-out... ate the choco fountian and you will know and you would know how cold genting is... the mashmellow dipp in choco and I open after one min I bought ( the thingy is xian zhuo xian mai one) and the choco already harden... I was having a good time scraping the chocolate... Took the lousy bus down again and it's slower lahx... one hump the bus have to stop and then go through the hump and I was laughing all the way down cause our bus took off at 2.15 and the bus that took off the 3 over took us half-way... super funny lolx... Then the custom is also empty lolx... clear it in 5 mins and I reached home at about 10... Yipee...

Today went back to school for a 'first aid course' and I learn to banage an ijured head which I did like did it like some idiot lolx... but the chairperson of CDC treated us macs!! And The saddest thing is I saw the west-zone camper break camp!!! I wanna go!!! Hiaz.... Anyway... Actually wanted to go lib do homework after that but no one accom me so I went home and I slept throughout the whole afternoon and woke up at 5 just nice to watch YLBFB lolx... Then after that I did my chem tutorial and guess how much time I used for 10 questions??? 3 hr!!! God~ I am going to be so darn dead... After this I planning to wrap up of bio essay which I think it's going to take me about 2 hrs or so lahx... Good luck to me... Sleeping at one... Tml planing to do maths... and I think I am not going for the make0up lesson cause the teacher is only taking one hr to do binomial and partial frac which also means she would fly and I have enough of rushing through syllabus last week... so I think I would figure it out myself... dotz... Whatever...

I wanna join squash!!! But I don think I would get pass the trail lolx... sianed...

Why did I choose JC over poly???
Can I appeal to poly now???

My Life 一直在等待 空荡的口袋
想在里面放 一份爱
Why 总是被打败 真的好无奈
其实我 实实在在 不管帅不帅

想要找回来 自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢 大声说出来
期待 期待你发现我的爱
无所不在 我自然而然的关怀
你的存在 心灵感应的方向我一眼就看出来
是因为爱
我猜 你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯 越靠近越明白
不要走开幸福的开始 就是放手去爱

Eh... No link... Fine... The first two sentence sounds emo...

It's the march holidays!!! Yeah~ Yeah~ Yeah~ YEAH!!! But looking at the pile of work given, I think my holidays are half gone... Sigh... But I am still going to go for my hoilday in Malaysia Genting tml! Yeah~ I heard wad? Genting again??? Well... Not my choice... I dowan to go either... I wanna go CDAYL!!! Sadded lehx... I really want to be a part lol... but thanks to this trip lahx... and I must just wish myself good luck for tml... cause I would surely be stucked at the custom for a super duper long time lolx... Thanks so someone lahx.. Not to mention the name... Then I only coming back on tues... and I wish by then, the process is faster... Then wed going back to school for the first-aid something one...

Yah... I joined the CDC as second CCA and I am trying all ways to get into CDYAL missing the clash to my holidays and frm what I know... this is now a way is to be the SCDF lolx... first aid... but I not first aid skills... so must go for the 'course' but not confirm get in lahx... cause alot of J2 taking up... and I planning to take that as a 2nd CCA cause as I always said, I want a sports CCA and I hope I do get selected for the squash trail cause I didn't go for the tennis trail today... cause I was having a CDC meeting and after the meeting, I am late lerx... so abit don dare go into the tennis courts... and all I see are guys lah... then netball I think I am not in the team (lousy skills) cause I was not informed of training although i know there's training today... lol... But I promised myself to be committed to both CCA kkz... Anyway, CDC is a slacker CCA... and so it's okie to take up another one lahx... build portfolio :x... but I do wanna get into the SPF lahx... but they say only selected pupils... if I get in, I think I will really having to juggle school work and CCA very well or I will be prepared to get retained... Choy.... touch wood... I wanna get exempted on k!

Then thurs going back again for maths make-up lesson for partial fraction and binomial... although the teacher talking is hypnotism and the lecture is optional, but I still choose to go lahx... it beats cracking my head at home looking at complicated and biggg fractions... well... I flip through and saw hell lots of fractions... mati sia... the rest of the holidays I prepare to finish up all my tutorials and start muggin! Not time to slacK!!! but hohx... JJ is a slack school lahx... I can only think of playing in school sia... Thanks to the camp I think.... well... I myself is to blame lahx... Then I need to holis to catch up with school work cause I have hell no idea what the teacher is teaching!!!
Econs- Lecturer is boring... lecture hall air-con super cool so good place to sleep... and if you sleep, you don't listen and you don listen, you don understand!!! And worse is I missed first month...
Bio- Currently the subject I am coping but I didn't know there is so much hell stuff in our cell... the notes is about cells and its 24 pages thick... yeah...
Chem- Lecturer is on the jet plane rushing off to who knows where... her lecture is so darn fast that I didn't catch anything she said and I can't see what the hell she is writing (fine... it's my eyesight problem) and I don understand the whole hell about half equations and redox!!!
Maths- We are now at Sigma and I am not done with AP and GP... Wth... The lecturer is talking alien and I don understand what the crap she is talking about... Maths sux... I am starting wonder how the hell did I aced my maths man... well... maybe my mind got rusty cause it's not working for about 2 months... going to do some brain teaser to 'lubricate' my mind and make it work again... maths...
So, if you think I am coping... please tell me... That will be a comfort man... So I planning to spend the rest of my holidays which is only 3 days doing tutorials (homework) which is about a moutain high??? Average of 2 to 3 per subject... What the hell.... as well as brush up and catch up!!!

Please tell me why did I choose JC??? I think I am bonkers... -_-''' I sound so emo...

Hello~ I am back in action! Wootz... whatever... Just came back from school... well not really lahx... took a bath and watch yu bai lahx... Today's CCA day for the J1... And I joined squash!!! God... I think I got influenced by jonathan... cause I think he would be so cool playing squash!!! AHHHH!!! Whatever... Actually I wanted to join tennis but I couldn't find the booth lahx... so I was like... forget it... But I planning to turn up for their training on friday... but the thing is tennis is for guys... I am like wondering if they accept girls... Sobs... and theres alot of ppl join squash lahx.. so I think there would be a trail... sianed... sure kena kicked out one lolx... cannot even see the ball... Diaoz... Kkz... Then I saw sijie earlier the day and she say there's a netball trail... although I said I don't wanna play netball anymore... but I just can't resist the temptation!!! After I left my name for squash... went to look for tennis booth... but still cannot find... so went to look for volleyball booth... also cannot find... then we gave up and went to the track there and saw volleyball training at the bb court... then we cannot cut across the field cause ppl there training... so we just walk the detour lolx... and went past the netball court and saw them playing court game... and I can't resist the tempatation to play and I haven't touch the ball for like so long lahx... so we got stucked there and played... played two games lahx... first game I played GD and my stamina is really SHIT lolx.... I run like 5 mins and then got so tired lahx... Diaoz.... And my defense skills is really down to the bottom lerx lolx... whatever lahx... then 2nd game huimin wanted to play GS and wanted me to play GA... I was like you sure??? But I played lahx... and I found that my shooting skills has improved!!! Wootz... I think I am just plain lucky lahx... Whatever... After that we stop halfway cause of lighting lolx... and the Fairfield Med netballer was like asking us you guys play shooter one arhx? We were like... no... then they so shorck lahx... Whatever... Not intending to join netball anyway... but I can't resist it!!! Tennis is my first choice if I ever found the booth and they accept girls... then followed by squash and after that is volleyball... then my dad was like suan me lolx... he say... you join tennis arh? Can run anot? Normally call you go jog you like wanna die like that... Then volleyball was... you can jump anot? Volleyball need to jump very high one lehx... WTH.... Whatever lahx... Although I like sports but I am never good at it... And I am really trying to master one... Maybe I am plain lazy lahx...

Then my mass lectures has started and I almost sleep durin most of the lessons cause I don understand a single thing!!! Regret never attend first month in any JC... Sobs.... Maths sounds alien to me... then Chem there lecturer is going faster than a rocket... 1hr lesson, she can cover the whole of mole, equation and all the whatever shit that I don really understand... And she was like you all go home read yourself... Econs the lecturer is simply boring and the things he is talking about is simply common sense lahx... like eg. If the price of this product rises, the quantity demand will fall.... Diao.... This one I think my bro also know lahx...so nan mian will sleep one lahx.... but the thing is like you must know how to apply lahx... so the lecturer got ask some questions lolx... but I got all wrong exp for one... so actually, I need to buck up on my econs too... although it's basically common sense... bio till now I am still understanding it cause they are main doing cells lahx... and more details like what ribosomes and chromatin all this lahx... And you won't believe what my fav sub now... it's GP... the paper that I thought I am going to fail like SHIT for all test!! Fine... Cause the lecturer is much more intresting than other lectures lahx... And chinese is really chicken feet lolx... Cheng yu like ban tu er fei, bu yi er fei, bu zi liang li.... you know... pri school one... but still got a few I donno lahx... then still got yan yu... but it's quite easy to understand lahx... =D

This is getting boring... Heard that we are getting our testi and cert on may... and it's like so so so so so so long lahx... But I hope we can do a class gathering that day... miss my classmates... Haiz... And NgeeAnn poly is 4C dominated... alot of ppl going there... Whatever lahx... before I forget again... Jasmine... here's the vedio you requested... it's super lousy... don't say I never warn you.... :))



How was it??? Haha.... I am lacking of pics lahx... that's the problem...

Well... I have found the article on STOMP.... but the o2 ppl are not inside... I think they are the OGLs lahx... Rehearsing the camp activities cause it's posted on 23 feb and at that time we haven't even start our orientation camp yet... Maybe I would surf for more again another time... Haha...

The article wrote this:
What Bugs Me...

"JC STUDENTS KEEP WASTING WATER!!!"

A STOMPer is concerned that the students of this junior college are wasting water, as they are seen, on many occasions, involved in activities which involve the use of water.nahkm888 told STOMP in the email sent today (Feb 23):"On many occasions I have seen JJC students enaging in activities that waste precious water. "Almost a regular student activity, not once but many times a year. "Why is JJC allowing such activities in school? "Is this the correct value we are instilling in our students on our precious water?

Well? What's your view? Mine is that they just donno how to enjoy... it's not like we are wasting water... The track and synthetic grass is really hot because of the sun... Even they spray water it dosen't help lahx... I went barefooted on the track and it's still so darn hot that I have to jump on it and run to the person who is spraying the water lolx... Another things is maybe the person who took down this is jealous lahx... Cause he or she couldn't join in the fun... Haha.... jk...

Back to the topic I wanna blog about.... I was lucky today that I wasn't suaku enough to go the Angela's autograph session lahx... She cancelled her trip her due to health problems and I didn't know!! KKz... so I said I was lucky not go bugis lahx... or I would be wondering why no ppl one?? Diaox... I am slow... fine...

And schools really starting tml... Abit sian leh... Have to chiong lerx... somemore I am at disadvantage cause I didn't attend any JC in my first two months and the teachers are tipically rushing through syllabus so fast that I caught nothing lahx... and now that I haven;t bought all my notes except of chem lolx... how would I know what the hell the lecturers are talking about??? Especially econs and bio.... and I heard that bio is a very tough subject to study and I know I really sucks at gentics in secondary bio and now a level bio is simply all genetics and DNA... gosh~ I am now wondering when my notes is going to come... and blame that lousy book shop of my school lahx... what crap notes they also don have... what stupid book shop is that lolx... then I still thinking of surfing through my promos with good test and SPA results lolx... talking about SPA... it's starting after march holidays!!! and it's counted in A levels!!! Oh no!! And one more thing... I also donno why I took bio instead of physics lolx... well... JJ love Chem so much that they would SURE be chem in your combi... so it's either physics or bio... not triple science cause the max you can take is 4H2 and 2H2 is being taken by maths and Chem and you must have a contrasting subject (arts in my case) so you only left with one H2 and you will choose between bio and physic (for my case of combi lahx you can choose like 2 sci and two arts or whatever one lahx) and I heard that physics is better that bio!!! Haiz... and I wanted the scholarship of the physiotherapy... which is after A levels, you got NAnyang Poly study the dip in physiotherapy (which is the one I wanted to take but it's only for A level holders!!! Grrrr~) and one year at some uni in australlia and they cover for you school fees and even give you allowance lolx... which means that my mum wouln't have to pay... but their piority is given to those who took physics.... AHHHH!!! Sooooo sad lahx... Sian.... But I know where my limits are lahx... I really sucks at physics except for nuclear physics which I really love alot... those with calculation and all those machines, turning here and there donno what inertia... all this I yi qiao bu tong... so thats the reason why I took bio instead of physics... But now it seems to be that where I wanna go requires physics (as piority) and I am starting to wonder what the hell can I do with bio???? Eh... Research??? Doctor is mainly chem lahx... engineering is physic... and bio is such a hard topic... Eh... Kkz... I cannot turn back time and change my choice right?? So I might as well not grumble and pia bio lolx... hope I do get the scholarship to the physiotherapy ^-^ that was one of my ambitionssss if you don't know... haha... but I still very much want to be an investigator.... but I know my analysing skill is a noobtus lahx... so maybe bio can help i my observation and analysing skilll.... Well... it sounds like zi wo an wei lehx.... and the bad things is... I donno the way to be an investigator or CID in the police department!!! Anyone know the way??? please tell me...

And I am going to be sooo busy in school that I think I am going to reach home at 7 or 8 everyday and I have to revise and perpare for tutorial and test I donno what time am I going to get sleep... diaoz... KKz... let's count... I have IDP, SDP, NYAA (Still thinking whether to join but it helps build up the port folio!!!), OGL, CCA, 4H2 (letting off at 4.30 almost daily).... AHHHH!!! I have to manage my time!!! But I know I can do it...

Because... having confidence is half the battle won! (ps. got it from yida's blog) haha... but it's in my planner also lahx... dotx... JJ Lin is coming to singapore soon! Yeah! And I think I am changing blogskin again... -_-''' Cause I found a few kawaii blogskins... but I am still taking out time lolx...

Oh... and Jas... I WILL put up the vedio next post... sorry! :x