Last day of disaterous 2008

Ask if I regretted going into JC, I would say yes. Junior College is just not right for me... O-levels result was plain luck... But I do understand why I chose JC over poly then... Several reasons... A lost bet, teacher's encouragement and also... the most important of all... I am afraid that I chose the wrong course... The one that wasn't meant to be...

But if you ask if I regretted going to JJ, I would say no. I know people will be shocked, but yes, I did not regret. JJ is great I would say. Although academic wise we are not there, but life is made better in JJ than other JC, I can bet on that. The activities planned, the chance they give to each student... were great. I was happy that I didn't appeal for AC then although there is like almost 0% I would get in anyway....

Reflections of 2008. JC life sucks big time, promos sux but ironically I got a bursary... Life is simply, eat sleep study eat sleep study... Next year? Or rather tomorrow? study study STUDY... and I think after A's all my notes has became kiam cai...

2009 resolutions? Shall start with the more difficult one...

• World Peace. Hope that next year I won't open the papers and see people dying due to terrorism attacks in middle east and India.
• Health: Scandals are no longer present. No more tainted milk, chocolate and what ever you can thing of.
• Financial Crisis: World-wide fall in stocks crashed many hopes and dreams. Next year we will make a good turn.
• Education: Hope I pass A-levels with flying colours and cope well with J2.
• Friends: Maintain the friendship I have with 7! I don't want history to repeat itself.
• Family & Friends: Stay happy and cheerful forever.
• Someone: To be more sensitive to it's surroundings (Not to say the person is a him or her... so just call the person it.)
• Myself: What goes around comes around.

Hope these things do come true :) Although point one is barely achievable :)

范逸臣-無樂不作.Mp3 -

That's all folks...
Say goodbye to 2008~

This Chirstmas
8A Ann Siang Road
A.R.K House
22nd December 2008
3pm-5pm...





For people who are wondering why I am going around asking where the hell is Ann Siang Road... This is the reason... The launch of Smudge... The colour of freedom... You know... I am so darn tempted to buy this shirt... But the cost... hmm... 69.90... Haiz... I don't print money you see...

Okie... I watched Twilight last thursday... OMG~ Twilight owns me! I think that's the best movie I watched this year... I suppose... Hmm... The dashed to buy the book after the movie... but too bad... I couldn't get the original version :( so I took the movie version instead... the girls are saying that Edward is nice-looking but I feels like something about his face features is very wrong and indeed he look really like a vampire... haha... I think I like the dad Carlisle more :D I like the character Alice though after a reading marathon for 4 days and my parents saying that I am mad... hmm... The way she takes things peacefully... I suppose and her powers to see the future... But I must admit that Edward leaves me a very good impression in both the book and movie and I could really visualize his looks... well... sort of made biased by the guy who acted Edward... haha... But bella gives me the impression of a very weak girl which dosen't really tally with her character of dating a vampire... anyway... don't want to be a spoiler here but I think people who pass by here had read the book lahx... haha... I am wanting for more... I think I am swarming down orchard soon to get the other 3 books at one go... I don't want to make anymore trip to that mega town... :(

Anyway... before the movie, I was with Veron at Fareast and I finally dare to walk into the shop... it's really damn scary lahx... so dark and ulu... But I went in anyway and saw this... I think a vest... (Well... what do you call the sleevless jacket???) that I swore I saw derrick wearing to yu bai but it's red... erm... I thought the vest was cool... but the price was cooler... hmm... 115 bucks for god sake! I don;t own a bank! Anyway, the shop assistant was friendly and gave us the name card... went to check out the website and found a few nice clothes... Don't even bother to buy cause they are either sold out (no restocks) or too expensive... yah...

Tee=69, Jacket= 115~155, Caps= 69, Belts= 40 plus... yah... unless you own the bank or print money... you are not really going to get all these... haha..




This two are similar shirts but just different colours... Sorry... Recently my world of colours are dull... I am madly in love with black... So you will see alot of blacks... hmm...




I don't think it's very clear here.. but thats a hoodie (is that what you call a jacket with hoods?) And the prints are playing cards... Rather interesting...


This is the vest I was talking about... but the one I saw was red in colour... pretty cool... I know it dosen't look nice here... but it look nice there in the shop :)))


This is the couple jeans... I like it because of the two leos at the back pocket... Super Kawaii desuka!

Hmm... come to think of it... i think this is the first time I finish a 400 near 500 pages book in 4 days... yah lahx.... you know my pace of reading... and my attention span... haha...

This wasn't the first time I walked out on them...

Guys... I am sorry...

But I can't promise there is no next time...

Because... being trapped in between wasn't my choice afterall :)

And I can't just leave it as it is...

Beneath the calm waters, there are whirpools...

Everything you see now is just an illusion...

To the ones who reads this is understands what i am talking about...

It's time for you to stop and think...

What have you done to make what it is today...

stop complaining...

Finally 17...
Now no one can say that I am still 16...
Yippee...
But stupid veron was saying two more months and she is 18...
and go watch M18 show dowan jio me... :(

Went East Coast park today to cycle.... Whee~ Months since I cycle we went to Changi Safra... but without the guys cause Lixuan was having problem with his blades and blade can't pass a rocky road to SAFRA so the guys went mac and the girl sat at the rock around SAFRA watching the sea... Haha... we sat there from high tide to low tide sia... talking about mountains, volcanos, typoon, hurricane and all your geo stuff... I can't imagine a volcano erupting in the sea and out of the sudden you see smoke -_-''' haha... Had mac for dinner and lunch... OMG... Actually wanted to eat Kao yu... but since the guys had mega mcspicy for tea-break I doubt they want a dinner... lol...

Anyway... THANKS Alfred, HuiMin, Seiyu, WanRong, LiXuan and Veron for the birthday gift! Although you guys gave me three random thing... eh... not really lahx... but at first I thought it was Sixology.... Haha... The shecdule book... Hmm... Actually I already had one... I bought from Korea... About the same... But that one is Zoo land and this one is fairy tale... haha... but anyway, I will use it next year :) Zoo Land can wait... And the pen... actually I had one too...but not so many colours... Shoelace... hmm... am I suppose to tie it to my shoe? I abit she bu de lehx... later dirty... Haha... and I have no idea what a shoelace have to do with a shecdule book and pen... hmm... But anyway, THANK YOU for your presents and today! (even though the birthday song was...)

2008:
Veron's BD- We haven't met each other...
WanRong's BD- We are still not close...
Alfred's BD- We went to Suntec for dinner @ Secret Recipe. And we shopped down the whole orchard to buy him a shirt.
SeiYu's BD- We had a gross movie at Cathay and we almost got Lixuan's house burnt down on baking cookies... haha... JK...
LiXuan's BD- We shopped Marina for a basketball... and I felt sorry for not being there during his BD...
HuiMin's BD- We tear down the whole of Giant IMM for BBQ stuff and drag our way to West coast and BBQed in the rain... We toured the country to get her a cap and a pencil case.
Beiyii's BD- We went to ECP and cycled in a single file... They shopped JP (I suppose) and got me a book, pen and shoelace.

Oue evolution of Birthdays... I wonder what's going to happen next year :)

Today I went for Standard Charterted Marathon briefing at RP and OMG~ Guess who I saw at Causeway point??? Wahaha... JJ LIN!!! Weee~ Actually I know he is there lahx... But it's just so qiao we have to wait for Wenjun and so they decided to go causeway walk walk... and I saw him!!! OMG~ So today I overly high lahx... So ppl bu yao jian guai... cause I sort of saw alf expression... -_-''' yah.... And veron say he looks better than before! OMG~ First time got ppl tell me he look good leh! No offence to JJ Lin support who happens to pass by... And seriously... I think he looks better too... and I am now wondering why at the beginning I think he new zao xin and hairstyle sucks big time but now I think I am like checkered stuff more and more... :)

Found this from his blog :) cut abit lahx...

已經陸年了
我看過很多人來來去去
許多美好的小小回憶偶爾會浮現
從2003年第一場簽名會，還記得是在忠孝東路上的玫瑰唱片，你送給我自己做的小JJ娃娃
2004年拍豆漿油條MV時幾位貼心歌迷朋友的守候
2005年重慶的萬人簽唱會的壯觀場面，帶著白色小狗的歌迷
2006年巡迴演唱會站在台下哭著的朋友
2007年陪我破Guiness世界紀錄的朋友
到2008年跟我一起錄影，一起上台玩遊戲，一起合唱小酒窩。。。

有些朋友比較少見到，甚至跟本不見了，
長大之後也有自己的夢想，一定要自己去爭取，
有些朋友卻依然陪著我一起成長，每次看到會很開心，很安慰。。
也有很多新面孔，新鮮的笑容和聲音，給我新的力量，
也許對你來說我是你成長的一個過程，正在迷戀，或曾經瘋狂過的對象。
對你來說，我是所有歌手中你比較欣賞的其中一個。
但不喜歡了也可以有權力隨時支持別人但你要記得，只要我是歌手的每一天，我就只有你。

Going korea soon... Donno wether should Qi Dai anot... Hiaz.. If there is at least some one I know going with me wouldn't it be better? Hiaz....

那些＿愛過才會懂的道理
那些＿以為沒人暸解的夢想

Understand... Good for you...
Don understand... it's ok...
It depends on your own view to these 2 sentences...

Yippee! It's Qinny birthday today! But she is not at home... haha... Now waiting for her to come back.

HAPPY NINETEEN QINNY!!! May all your wish come true and stay cute and pretty forever~

I have alot of november babies friends around me... hehe... So I will have a busy november? Wahaha... Hmm... One more month and one more day, I will be officially 17! Even if it's not my birthday YET, please treat me as a 17! I am very sensitive it this ok. So what if it's december baby? Am I born in 1991? And 2008-1991 is it 17? yes right. Yah... Get what I mean huh... (PS: To cinemas especially. Who says before birthday I am not 17?) Rah!

Fine... today is suppose to be a happy day! Went for korea briefing and guess wad, I have NO ONE i know going Korea! Talking about girls lahx hohx... And I have to sleep with 5 unknown ppl! OMG! And there is 0-7 degree!!! I think I will freeze there... haha... Went my uncle house to borrow winter wear from him... Wah seh he super cool lahx... got alot... then still say you wear this first, then wear this then wear this then the last one is the coat... I was like 0.0 so many layersssss!!!! And I think my lagguage is going to burst! Gosh~ And still need to write report. -_-''' sianed... Mine is on the DMZ and JSA zone.... also donno what are they lahx... I know DMZ is the north and south korea the zone lahx... The other one... hell no idea! Want to send me off? I departing at 22.40 at Changi Terminal 1 on 25 november... Wah seh... So bu yao lian... who wanna send you off? But it's ok... I will get you guys presents!

Doing Chem and thought of doing a post too :) Well... Quite fed up with chem... I thought sodium carbonate is Na2CO3 but it turn out to be NaCO3... If not cannot get answer... Dotz... Mole Concept somemore... hiaz... And hoh... Looking at the amount of homework thrown to us for the holidays I felt like drowning... I have a total of 13 worksheets on chem, 1 piece for maths... Hmm... although only one piece... but who knows it might kill thousand of your brain cells and take days to finish it? Bio... One tutorial... Not bad... but I still don feel like doing bio... and I should be revising more on bio this hols... Econs good thing no hw... BUT... i still have to study all the subjects cause I am bombarded with block test one the 1st week of school! Bio- all chaps, Maths- Book 3, Chem- Organic Chem, Econs- Market Failure and National Income --> Sure fail... Cause I catch no ball of the teacher in lecture... so does my friends... And Maths says that if you fail, you will be stuck in the US programme for life... Sounds cool right? But it's not... US programme is for the U and S graders... Then Bio if fail which I am most likely going to... I think got some remedial programme or something? Haiz... this is life...

Mixture of feelings recently... Happy because I love my friends, sad because they are leaving (Hope they appeal sucessfully), Angry because of EP day, Sianed because have to start studying... Dissapointed because I couldn't go for the NEW Programme, Regretted because I got robbed in the korea trip.

EP day last sunday... I was to teach the public first aid... wound dressing... Fun in a way and tiring in another way... Angry because I found out how cheapo singaporeans are... I are screaming your lungs to teach them how to save themselves from bleeding to death and they only care about the freebie... Haiz... But I really appreciate those who really listened and ask questions... Would like to try more... maybe next time teach CPR? I don mind in house protection too :)

Went back to school yesterday to find that reality hits in... Next yr S01 is no longer the same... :( we are only left with 5 guys... and I really don want people disappearing from class... Why did the school force? It's very unfair to them... and to us... Hopes that appeals are sucessful... Anybody... As long as you stay... I am happy...

SHIT... emo-ing... again...

Don leave...
You never know how much I treasure this friendship...
Although we don't talk but I want you guys by my side...
I never had people to talk to...
Never once a true friend...
I really hope fate dosen't tear us apart...
Even though you are left with no choice...
I hope we still keep in touch...
It hard for me to say don go...
By at the bottom of my heart...
I really wish you guys don't go...
Don't leave us behind...
We should move as a class...

秘密基地

問自己 有沒有難過的回憶
偏偏你 在一旁吐槽當作回應
說一句 宇宙無敵的冷笑點
只有你回應 嘲笑我的低齡

眼前很多難題別擔心 我會更有勇氣
絕招很稀奇 我們一齊出擊

有一座秘密的基地 在這裡不需要言語
那些不好對別人說的事情 我為你搞定
有一座秘密的基地 在這裡有歡笑陪你
就算外星人攻擊也不會離去 (我挺你挺到底)

不時在難過 我不屑著去享受
就全力放手 面對批評的音波
更相信 更肯定 彼此的勇氣
又把所有困難闖破

How I hope I have a place like that too :) where there is no worries and I could say everything I want to this place :)

PW is offically over :) YAH!!! Anyway... not the point of this post... Haha...

Today went to vivo for judith's BD... HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUDITH!!! Well... It's sort of funny when the cakes capsized and blahs in a big mess... haha... quite a joke back there... anyway... tried superdog or donno wad for the first time... the hotdog is NICE!!! but too bad... it's too ex lerx... hiaz...

After that went shopping around... and went home... Felt sorry to huimin... always PS her half way... haha... I will try to make it a point not to ps her anymore... and I will try to go out more often and try to like crowded places and big shopping centres kz? Haha...

Say that I am bias... but I love JJ loads!!! psst... haven watch hot shot yet... haha... :P Watching JJ vedios (the person NOT the school) and you guys have totally no idea how much effort he put in to reach what he has today... The number of rejections, the amount to waiting, the amount of criticism... You can never imagine... the one who waited quietly for his chance since the age of 18 and the one who gave up university to realise his dreams... The one who has never thought of giving up music... The one who now made his name where he is standing... JJ LIN JUN JIE... Okie... I admit... I am bias... but I really admire the sprit of his... JJ Jia yous :)

Make a point to smile everyday... Right from the bottom of your heart... :)

I am willing to change for the ones who cares for me...
I will try to change for you people...
For the ones I love...
For the ones I care...

Finally, OP is OVER!!! Though i screwed up my QA, and front part of the presentation, I think others still ok... Hope I could get good grade :) After tml... I am FREED FROM PW! At last~ Haha...

Got my promo grades today... sux big time... One A, 3 C, 1 D and 1 E... Hmm... But quite surprise that I passed Bio... totally no idea how I pass... but I passed!!! This means no retake! YEAH!!! Anyway, the most ironic thing is... I got E for Bio and I won have the school... -_-''' and a C for econs and is in the top 10% of the cohort... Dotz right... I was there hmm... My econs wasn't that bad after all... But quite sad with Chi and Chem... Yah... and my scholarship flew away lerx... sianed... actually never thought of getting it lahx... with a class full of geniuses... haha... but overall I think our class did pretty well for PROMO... S1 Jia You!

21 more days to korea... and guess wad... breifing only starts on the 15 nov... I think my mum is going to nag and nag about getting winter clothings... anyone has winter clothings to spare? So I no need go buy... anyway... I hope I don't regret from the trip... and it's time to prepare for the trip! Some more still pondering wether to go to Jeram Besu... it's like haven come back for one week then fly again... Somemore I wanna work... now I think I drop the thought of working and study for next year if not I going to crash my As....

Anyway, drop studies and work... I am currently obsess with You-Tube... Not hot shot... the show went into anti climax anyway... so it can still hold... I am going crazy about JJ... Hmm... I thought after 1.5 yrs without much of his new except for the failure show "I am not Handsome" I would not be so mad about him... but looks like I am wrong... everyday I wake up the first thing is JJ... erm... some clarification... JJ is not the school but Lin Jun Jie... Wahaha... posting up some cool vedios for you :)

Beat-Boxing :) Not as cool as those pros out there but still good. And the song he sang at the last part... Super nice! My fav song of the whole album... though I like all...


This is the vedio on JJ's MV- High Fashion... the dance moves are pretty cool and catchy :) Can learn it if you want... and the dog at the starting is his MOMO~ Hehe... and the start he looks really cute and innocent and they boyish look... and his single eye lid... omg~ So kawaii! My favourite MV :)


JJ Lin- Sixology~ The Choice is Yours. :)

5 more days to the end of PW!!! YES!!! Finally freed from the devil's clutches... I really have enough of that subject lahx... Years since I blogged... No one comes anyway... haha...

Yesterday had my Chi As and I got the feel of promos coming back... My close passage kena all wrong AGAIN!!! What the... My A fly away ler lahx... sadded sehx... but most agree with me that the cloze passage = alien... Yah... So maybe there's morderation :)) Hope so... Then I may get an A??? Hmm... And I dowan to retake lahx... super waste time and sian lolx...

Got our class tee... It's like... FINALLY~ Quite plain but nice... but one thing... dosen't worth the money... hiaz... Numero UNO :) When's our class blog coming???

Well... So many things to write that I really donno where to start... haha... Forget it...

Going Korea! Yeah!!! Hope it's going to be a fruitful trip :)

TENNIS~SIXOLOGY~UNCLASSIFIED~KOREA~

Is like = love?

Was hopping around looking at my fav's blog. He posted a very meaningful post which answered alot of questions I have in head now... Here I come to share, cause I believe that everyone has the right to be happy...

The Moment you are in Tension
You will lose your Attention
Then you are in total Confusion
And you will feel Irritation
Then you will spoil personal Relation
Ultimately, you won't get Co - Operation
Then you will make things Complication
Then your blood pressure may raise Caution
And you may have to take Medication
Instead, understand the Situation
And try to think about the Solution
Many problems will be solved by Discussion
This will work out better in your Profession
Don't think it's my free Suggestion
It's only for your Prevention
If you understand my Intention
You will never come again to Tension

If you can understand, good for you... cannot, then well... try to :) it's good for you...

On his blog caption, I found this too...
..:: You don't love somebody for a reason
but you hate somebody for a reason ::..
I find it very very true... :)

Haiz... my hotmail crashed... super sian... (-_-''' What's the link???)

Once someone told me about a story on bottles. There are 3 types of bottles. One is the type with a hole, no matter how much you pour it would be gone. The other type is a small bottle which cannot hold much and overflow very easily and the third type is the a normal bottle, everything bottles up and one fine day, it just overflows. Which type of bottle are you?

She ask me what type of bottle am I. I said I wasn't sure. One said I am the type who bottles up, but I have second thoughts to it. Sometimes I just blast at people very easily and sometimes I don mind at all and sometimes, I keep everything inside.

I am very sorry to a particular friend I blasted at today. Today was totally ruined for me. Getting back horrendous bio results at the start of the day made me moody although I expected the lousy grades and keep telling myself, it's bio. I was then more pissed off at my chinese paper where I got all my MCQs wrong when I thought I did well in Chinese. That's when I blasted at her. I don't know wether she was shocked or not, but I knew I never blasted at any of my friends this way before and I am feeling very bad about it. I really hope she don't mind.

People, things I not going to go your way these few weeks, I suppose. So if I offended you in some way or another or suddenly blast at you, forgive me. It's a depressing week to go. The helplessness I couldn't bear to tell, the worry I couldn't share and the feelings I couldn't hide. I am sorry.

OMG~ I can't believe it. My dad is involved in F1!!! And the worst thing is I just knew it this morning!!! LOL.... It's so darn cool lahx... Help them change tyre (also dono the them is who lahx) but being a part of the F1 back stage crew is like super cool lahx... and my dad can see the cars zoom pass in front of him manx... ppl who bought tickets, xian mu bahx? You paid 1000 bucks to watch them so far away... haha... no lahx... But it's so darn cool manz...

Fine... no one understands... wahaha...

Yesterday didn't get to post cause happily playing and getting back my lost time... wahahaa... Got t get my hotshot done... wheee....

Anyways, Promos finally over!!! Wootz!!! Let's do an analysis on the papers...

GP P1: I thought I answered the question but it seeems like I didn't. (Die)
GP P2: I wrote typically crap in the whole paper and I think ms chew is going to come to me with a parang for AQ.
Chi P1: I wrote a 4 pages long compo with half the story no relation to the question... But I thought my idea was gd.
Chi P2: I know nuts on wad the second passage is talking about so does my friends
Maths: Sadded. Spend 2 days cooping at home studying maths but in the end still can't do quite a no of questions.
Econs: Good thing Price discrimination came out for essay. I was reading it in the morning.... But case study suck big time.
Bio: MCQ is suppose to help me but in the end I was question marking throughout the whole paper... typically circling every question. paper 2 was erm... ok... i think...
Chem: Superrrrrrrrrrrr shi wang... 8 marks flew away cause i didn't finish the paper... sobs... and I KNOW how to do the question... ahhhh!!! Why never give me another 5 more mins??? Haiz... and the MCQ kena sai... maybe excited lerx... last paper... cannot concentrate... what the hell is that MCQ man!

End... Overall I think I already gave them what i have got lerx... it's now up to destiny if I could pass this hurdle... :)

And now, after promos... Itssss.......... PLAY TIME!!! Yesterday went Orchard with sis to get X-ray and went to watch the days... Very nice show! But the movie ended quite stupidly... so got minus marks... Then got her friend inside man! So cool! lol...
Today went Marina not for F1 lahx... Shopping spree... but in the end turn out very lousily... cause I don like to shop with friends... very weird cause they have to wait for you... and one whole group wait for one person... and the place you wanna go they maybe don wan to go... so again they have to wait for you... so I usually go home with nothing when I go out with them. Emo-ing... haha... no lahx... just abit sian diao... not emo-ing kz?
Clas outing on sunday... Hope it turns out well and the grand plan... haiz... I think it's going to fail... and I thought Derrick was having a party at sentosa on sunday... but it turn out to be sat instead... gua gua gua... sadded... nevermind... I going sentosa to sun tan and class outing! Wee~

Never get into tennis idp... Sadded... Actually I donno lahx... but I never recieve the message from the teacher so should be never get in bahx... there is training on tues... so also donno wanna go anot... cause also donno got get in anot... super sad manx... I was thinking maybe its the edusave no money cannot deduct so they just strike out my name... :(

Why edusave no money? Cause I going korea!!! And I took 1000 out from edusave... Maybe they deduct the money lerx... the idp cannot deduct so out. No tennis idp... sian diaoz.... Nvm... Korea... Here I come!!!

Freedom~

at last

1 week more to hell...

2 weeks more to promos...

3 weeks more to freedom...

4 weeks more to Tennis...

5 weeks more to slack day..

6 weeks more to slacking continuously...

7 weeks more to rot and decay

8 weeks more to start stress...

9 weeks more to start arguement with PW grp

10 week to cry over my OP

11 weeks more to grow sick of pw

12 weeks more to be freed of PW

13 weeks more to korea!!!

This is my life... Like it or not... it's your choice...

Today's teachers day was the most enjoyable teacher day I had in my life :) I am not being wang en fu yi... but I really see not point in going back to JVS when Ms Chua is not there...

Ps: So1 is love ~

CONGRATS TEAM SINGAPORE IN WINNING YOUR LONG WAITED OLYMPIC MEDAL!!!

CONGRATS TO THE TABLE-TENNIS WOMEN TEAM IN DEFEATING KOREA!!!

CONGRATS TO PEOPLE UNDER THE FES!

envious nehx... can go attachment... sained lolx me.. still have to take promos... haha.... OMG~ I donno how much happier i could get... Singapore won korea... our 48 years medal has come!!! All the best to them... And all the best to my promos :)

FENG TIAN WEI~ MICHAEL PHELPS~ ALL THE BEST! ;)

Tell me... What's the point of doing a timeline when no one checks? I think I am making my efforts go to waste... No one is appreciating... I really have no idea how to go from now... Screw it~

I found my phobia and it's really interesting... I may try it again... Call me mad... I don give a damn.

Life is great isn't it? When the whole world is against you... It's great... I love challenges... No matter what happens, I will KO you~

Today, I found out something...

Happiness CANNOT be sustained.

When you are happy, the whole world is out to make you sad

But when you are sad, no one in the world would make you happy.

Is this my life?

Or is this how things work?

When you are calm, the whole world is out to make you anxious

When you are anxious, everyone ask, "What's the hurry?"

Is this my life?

Or is this how the world revolve?

When you try your best to do something, everything goes wrong

When you decided to slack off, someway or another, things goes your way

Is this my life?

Or is this how things work?

Now... I am wondering, where's my angel. I need someone...

someone...

someone...

someone to talk to...

someone to share my thoughts

someone... to lie on...

Where's my angel?

I wonder...

No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, things just dosen't go my way... I think I should just give up and stone. Stone. STONE.

Angels & Mortal~ What should I do to my mortal? Although I said my mortal sux but I think he isn't that bad after all... At least he is humorous... But to work with him is totally a headache... Haiz... I also donno what to do nia~ should I play my part as the angel?

Whatever... don think anyone understand... Anyways... I am watching my prince of tennis... so very lazy to blog...

These few days are the happiest day in my life~ :) Thank you everyone... for everything...

Class tee~ It's in purple! Yippe!!! I think I going to love my class tee loads! ^-^ Numero Uno... Here we are :)

Finally...

I AM FREE FROM THE DEVIL'S CLUTCHES!!!

I don think anyone could understand how i feel now...

kkz... I think I am over exagerrating... But really, I felt the burden off my shoulder the moment the teacher said pen down after my maths lect test... But what's after this? Promos... The exam that we determine if I am going to retain... Haha... Have been failing quite a number of subjects... Lol... and the pile of hw I owed my teachers... Sorry yeah... And I have to get my sleep... Couldn't get enough sleep these few days cause got exams after exams... I don even have time to breathe...

Well... actually I did lahx.. last weekend's trilympics was fun fun FUN!!! The mass dance... although i screwed it... And I am dancing beside the GOH... whatever... But we didn't meet the target of 40000 KM in 1 day... but almost there! Another 4000 KM only... that's such a pity... Well... I got run and contribute kkz... I even got my family down... hoho... Kkz... so I did took a day off from studies last sat...

Life has become a cycle for me...

Wake up-Go school-emo-rot-stone-dream-struggle-test-home-homework-studytest-sleep

It has been a routine since 23 June 2008... But I will pull through no matter what... I will not fall... Cause this is where I chose to be :)

Finally! I am freed from my common test!!! Hohoho~ Do you know how relief I felt when the GP paper 2 ended? Omg... I was like finally... we are done... now, is to wait for the promos... well... my exemption flew away lerx... sian... and let me tell you... I going to fail GP like I am some retard lahx... whatever... GP is my archellis (donno how to spell) hill... So must buck-up... It's not donno... is don have the content... and that content pack is crap lahx...

Actually not really over... Monday still got Chem, tues got Maths, wed got maths and Bio skill B and C WA... I was like... What?! report on B & C in 1hr 20min? Cambridge must be mad... lolx... I think sometimes cambridge is weird... some papers you don need so much time they give you so much time that you fell asleep while waiting for the paper to end... then some you are like racing against time to comeplete that dumb piece of paper... haiz... no comments...

It is just a common test and i woke up at 5 to study... OMG... I didn't even do it for O levels... I really wonder what would happen during prelim... I think i no need to sleep lerx... haha... Sometimes I think that no matter how much I try, how hard I studied, I still fail the test... Eg. Bio and Econs... till now, i haven't past any of the test... Econs first test got lahx... but the last to I got 10 and 8 out of 25... super sian lahx... but secretly telling... I am starting to love econs... but Bio... I am starting t hate it... Bio... I feel very inferior to it... No matter how much I tried... the day before the common test, i spend the whole night, and woke up at 6 to study... In return? What did bio give me? A U-grade... I think lowest in class... I thought everything was a fair exchange... but i guess I was wrong... my hardwork wasn't paid off... I feel like giving up on bio... and I need to learn to love GP.... Hehe... Chem and Econs is now my fav... I still hate maths as usual because i don like to think but currently i think i am coping for maths although it's a D grade. Anyway, I won't be shock to see my report card filled with D E and U this term... Promos... here I come...

It's time to MUG!!!

I just want to stay as where we are now... I don't want to take a step forward because I am afraid that you will take a step backwards...

I am feeling inferior~

Feeling mentally exhuasted~

I could see my inabilities...

and the deep shit i am in now~

Bring me to where i belong... I don like what I am feeling now... I hate where I am standing now. But I have nowhere to go~ to stay or to leave was never my choice...

Omg! Finally I have the time to catch some breathe... Since the dumb school reopening, I have been bombarded with test and exams lahx... Gosh~ Tues I had my Bio common test and one sunday 4.00pm, I am still at chap 1... Chiong like mad at night and nothing went in... Monday night chiong like mad lahx... you should see everyone was like so darn tired and sleepy on tues... and every lesson, ppl have the lecture notes on top and bio notes below... and in the end, the test still turns out alien to me... Hmm... Not really lah... I just donno how to answer...

Then thurs got econs test... That one gone case ler lahx... I in the middle of the exam there changing correction tape because it died on me... and everyone was rushing like mad lahx... eh... 45 mins you have to write a 4 pages essay lahx... so you know lahx... take ss before mahx... Today got Chem test... that one arhx... I totally leave one page blank lahx... no.1 is donno how to do.... then another one is like no time...

And the best thing is... only until tues... I know that I am having A levels Chinese oral on the 30th!!! I was like WAD!!! A-levels? We have hell no practices on oral lahx... OMG~ So I planning to read-up on thurs... I dowan to die on my convo but constipating there...

Well... Now I feel the stress... Really stressed up... Everyone around you is studying, every single one... and we got break-up lect... and I better not be inside lahx... but I also got the GP one... GP expected lahx... Then maybe my tio the bio one... cause I haven pass any of her test yet... And we changed econs teacher... She is quite good... but too soft... I cannot focus my attention to her... and she is like using the dumb ice cream stick method again lahx... No way man! Because of that stupid ice-cream stick, my econs got a D! Rah~

Gtg... a short and sweet complain... Going to Old Police Acadamy tml! Super excited manx... and next mon to thurs got jarkata students coming over to JJ and I am hosting them... yes... don fall off your chair... I am wondering how to interact manx... you know lahx... I am not very sociable... :)) Happy in a way... unhappy in a way...

That's all... Do I have a nice new blogskin? I think it's super nice lahx and kawaii~

Ah~ It's another week gone for my hols... And i still haven done anything yet... newspapers stacking higher than before, TIME not read, gave up on chinese homework, PW going bonkers, homework... hmm... I only finished bio... :XX God... I am slacking... Feeling so guilty... And yesterday then i know that next week i am going to be upber busy... not really lahx... but sort of no time to do revision... foruth week is out... cause i got retreat :))) Excited lehx...

This week I slacked away my week by going to lecture on mon and tues after that no memory of going anywhere but i know i went somewhere and then at night I watched rolling love... not bad lahx... the show... but the romance part... *vomits* or just surf you-tube MSN... And they always never add me into the mass convo... Grr...

Then wed actually wanted to study one... in the end huimin call me back to school to study... and i studied for like 2 hours then the guys came and tat-da, gg lerx.... we chatted and went for lunch... lunch was funny.... we decided to play Veron cause she was sleeping... yes... in the hawker centre... with us eating... that the ramdom queen came up with a stupid idea of leaving veron there so that she wake up never see anyone... so we agreed... haha... then so we moved to the table behind her... it's like 3 plus then the hawker no one one lahx...then huimin started calling her... but she never wake up... cause she listening the MP3 and the phone not vibrating... so huimin went to take her phone and we yan qiu how to on the vibration... super funny lahx... then in the end we like forget it... put my phone there... then we called and she still never wake up... in the end we put her phone, my phone and alfred's phone there and called... Finally she woke up... and she was like blur... aye? where are they? Then we behind her there laughing like mad lahx... Then later she she turn behind... super funny.... this teach us a lesson... when having meals with huimin, we should never sleep... or you will fall into her trap... but i find veron very poor thing... the last time she slept we went to cut her white hair... but she sort of have 6 sense... know that we are doing something to her... so that one failed... then this time kena played on again... and it's quite successful... haha... after that come back play ball until 6 plus and went home watch you tube again...

thurs go mr tan's house chit chat... but is all wendy talking lahx... and i was like laughing at her.... She don dare to take plane... haha... then i still go scare her say if the plane hit the clouds it will zhen dong... then she super scared one lahx... then still teach her how to pack the laggauge... lol... donno how to pack... and as the usual she... she got the maths tutorials from Mr tan lolx... then after that meet the guys at lib... reach there they say they going eat lunch so i went with them lolx... then after that came back i did bio... hmm... that bio i have been doing it for the past three days lahx... in the end i got so sianed that i started reading the chi story book.... well... lib, i got low efficiency... so... too bad lahx...

Then yesterday is like finally the first day of my hols i spend my day at home... haha.. but did nothing also... morning went to play bb, then afternoon go bank... and that stupid bank made me wait for an hour! then come back watch you tube while doing bio... (yes again and it's the same worksheet) so that piece of 8 pages bio tutorial, i did it from wedd to fri... finished it at night... finally... then ii doing maths while still watching rolling love lahx... then my mother wanna do the dumping... and there cutting onion... then she suddenly say... my hand very tired... so I was like... donno what happened... maybe because of the rolling love, see they there cutting onion so professionally so i wanna go and try... so i told my mum i wanna cut and she throw me the whole basket of it... the first few was quite fun lahx... in the end my hand got tired and i there chopping for like 2 hrs? yah... i cut very slow... and if the knife is very li, my fingers i think kena chop off ler lolx... in the end i finally finish... my hand was like numb lahx... really no feeling that type one... then my hands is full of onion smell... gosh~ stinko... but the good thing is my mum say i cut until very good.. :)) see... watch tv is actually not a bad thing mahx... diaozzz.... oh ya... and yesterday yu le bai fen bai is Guo Jing yi neng fa biao hui lahx.. she is like super cool lolx... the cheer leading... although the shui zun not really there like what i see those americans do lahx... but still very good... :)) then you should see the facial expression of xiao zhu and xiao gui lahx... super funny... then after the performance for 1 min the two just stoned there... and after that... they were like... just now got anything dui bu qi ni, don put into heart hohc... super funnyy... and guo jing i quite shocked that she is cheerleader lolx... she look very ruo xiao... then she can dance somemore... OMG~ Whatever...

Today morning got awaken by bombarding of car honks... the stupid car honked like for 5 mins non stop lahx... what the-

Hmm... It feels very sianed to know that today is the last day of the first week of the school holiday.... and more sianed to know that I spend the half of first week in school either for meeting or project or whatever crap... Then I didn't do the chinese hw that is supposed to be due on fri... Well... Can say i gave up lahx... Then worst is my newspaper still not cut and it's still piling up... Very sian to see that stack of papers on my chair... haiz... Then tml we have to go back for mass lecture for bio and maths... and after you brain dead already then I still have meeting for CDC... then I thinking of holding a meeting for pw or my grp mate would be all over the world... who know where they go lahx... I am trying to get every thing settled by this week then the 3rd week is out cause there are ppl over Australia... then week 4 I planning to do the touch up and then WR... and week 4 I am the one who is not free cause i got annual retreat and most importantly, we have common test... so must give them time to study also mahx... Haiz... I feel so inefficient... it's only a PW and I get so stressed up... haiz... haiz... hiaz...

Dropping unhappy stuffs... Yesterday was super high! We went to celebrate Alfred Birthday... super early one... Cause next week ppl going Australia and I got Saucony Run and they got volunteer at some run also so not fang bian to celebrate... Anyway... Yesterday I broke my record of walking Orchard and Suntec area for 12 hrs... from 11 in the morning to 10 plus at night... Wah seh~ First time lolx... I today morning I felt jelly when I got down the bed... kkz... Anyway it's super fun lahx... We met up 11 at JP then went down to Orchard... and we have to switch train at City hall right... and then we were playing I forgot what ler... or chatting about a couple kissin in front of us... the suddenly our random queen huimin say, hey! we have to get off here! and we were like unprepared... just grab our bags and rush out of the MRT... haha... then switch train and we were debating wether to alight at orchard or somerset... then in the end we alighted at somerset and walk to orchard station cause we headin to fareast... I was like -_-''' and it's rainin man... Anyway we got stop at taka shop for Alfred present... we planning to buy shirt lahx... so we were like walking then downstairs got this exhibition and we thought of buying him a balloon... so the 6 of us there debating which balloon to buy... In the end we gave up and never buy... I think the ppl there is like so fed up lahx... cause we sort of pull every single balloon down... in the end choosing between the elmo one and 2 winnie the pooh one... diaoz... but in the end still never buy... haha... bleah... in the end we bought a shirt in Manstudio at Far east... and the funniest thing is we got LiXuan to try out the shirt and the shirt we got for Alfered looks super funny on Lixuan and when he came out we broke out into laughter... but in the end we call him wear again it's quite nice lahx... so we got it for Alfred... and then cause we got a few shirts to call him to try... and then lixuan looks quite good and kawaiii in grey... ya... and i think he knows tht yesterday too.... in the end i donno where we walking to lahx... then after that caught in a human jam in orchard station.. eh.... we were like why is everyone photographing don tell me got some ming xing infront or what... in the end we found out that they are taking photo of the human jam... diaoz... never see before meh? then if Fahrenheit come sing you just go the qian chang hui then you will be caught in a jam worse that this... Anyway... we went down to Suntec after that... and fetch alfred... and that blur alfred... he was like... "I only know where to meet and what time... the others I totally donno..." but we told him class outing lahx... then we walking and i was complaining to Seiyu that my leg wanna break ler... eh... at that time is already 7 plus... and he was like why? then Seiyu was like, "All because of you lahx..." and he was like, "oh... i think i know ler..." OMG!! Seiyuu let the cat out of the bag... but I suspect he agar agar know what we are trying to do ler lahx... Anyway... we dine at Secert recipe and then went to fountain to wealth... dedicated a song to Alfred that didn't even came out and we are thinking did we even send it... diaoz... kkz... After that we go bored and went home... Aiyah! It's super fun lahx...

That's us excluding me lahx... can't be caught in frame cause the hand not long enough...

then this time is Seiyuu out of frame... haha..

Seiyuu and Huimin :))

Veron..Haha... let's do some solo and duo... haha... diaoz...

Fountian of wealth... I know it's sort of weird but anywayzzzz....

Alfred's cake! It got smashed actually... and it dosen't taste very nice... haha... got cheated...

haha... Wanrong got caught on Candid with Seiyuu putting childish! and he dosen't know worx...

Another one on Candid... but it's nice! Quite proud of my jie zuo... haha...

Hmm... Make a guess what we are trying to do...:)

group photos:)

The person caught us unprepared... look at everyone... so toot... haha...

Then today I woke up at 6 am in the morning for cdc duty at MGS... Addidas netball Challenge! Wah seh... it's super tempting lah.. you feel the netball blood flowing in you again... super feel like going down to play lahx... Then i keep asking huimin wanna borrow a ball we go play... anyway... we are at there do nothing on lahx... no casualties... maybe got ppl come get plaster or sprain leg only lahx... in the end we stood there watching games... JJ is not bad... but compared to other teams it's not very good... but we still manage to get into top 8... but got totally trashed by RJ, Farfield Med and Cedar girls during the top 8 kick out... Anyway saw Siqi there helping out... and bestia with her sis... then chatted about netball stuff and saw pri sch coach and I siam... abit no face to see her... your netball gen wo da dao so lan! no lahx... and you guys missed out the coolest part lahx... the finals game... RJ vs RGS... ssuper nice... cause both teams very strong... and you guys should see there jumps and passes is so nice lahx... in the end RJ won... but both deserve the claps... :)) after that me and huimin got so tempted to play that we started calling ppl out... eh... I called Jieting... and I was like hello jieting... i know it's weird... but you wanna play ball? she was like... she not free... then I called yiting and she is studying for test but we started chatting... then called Yanting also... then she was like you know where I live... cause she live in CCK and I was like you wanna come JJ play? haha... but in the end the usual gang came down lahx... Alfred, lixuan... then with Siqi... we played bb... cause we conclude that calling guys to play netball is super weird... but I play until super shuang lahx... super long never intercept balls, super long never stretch to catch ball... super long never jump ler... and I am defending alfred... sometimes lixuan lahx... super fun... and I feel so shuang lahx... but the thing is I am aching all over now... haha... but I like the feeling... super long no this feeling ler lolx..

Unprepared again... haiz...

KKz... I think this is like super de long lahx... and you guys got the bigg catch... I don post this much pic at one time before... but this two days I am very happy... :)) so decided to post... hope the ppl in the photos don get angry... haha... going off ler! Night! Good luck for your term test too guys!