I don't know how to comfort someone... I don't know if I did the right thing... but I felt kinda bad after that... cause I am of difference with the person I was 'back-stabbing'... So telling her about him is like telling her about me.... Fine. I know you don't know what the hell I am gabbling about :(


Feeling kind of NUAH these days thanks to some food poisoning... I was suppose to start on an asshole lab report like last week but procrastinated till thurs to do it. Yet, thurs I wasn't feeling well enough to even watch a 2.2hr movie without running to the toilet. Friday was typically spent sleeping at home. Literally. I think I have never slept as much as last friday. My sat is usually burnt because of work. So, it wasn't until today that I started on my lab report only to find how much of a horror it was. 88pages report... how on earth is 3 people going to finish by 1st april?! Well... we are able to finish it with sub standard quality maybe? Adding to it... my ssb report is still not finalised :(( Team mate just called to point out one BIG problem about another team mate which was evident to me on day one of our project. But me being me, always chose to ignore what others can't see. Selfish, ain't I? Now, I am eating my own rotten fruits. Well... who to blame? Following week is gonna be one hellish week.

Even though the stress is coming in now, it's still me to blame because all these could have been done smoothly and without any problems if I had planned my time well and not waste it on lazing arounf at home or even stare into my computer day in day out without doing any productive stuff. Who to blame? Myself again.

While I was having a temper with the 88pages report, I went onto the youtube (forever my fav site) and scouted on you-know-who and thought I should put this up. I couldn't stop laughing...



He should pay a fortune to buy this back... Haha :) The next one is pretty long and hence not recommended to watch unless you are super free.



He never fails to brighten up my day. Why oh why.... I wonder...

There are times in one's life that you find that you are aimless. Your life becomes such a routine that you don't even need to think or plan about where you are going next, cause you are going nowwhere. That's what I am feeling now. :(

I need to re-ignite my passion for something, there are so many things that I want to try yet I don't have the courage to. I act as though I am happy with my current status but deep down I am not, Tan Bei Yi wants a more fruitful life than the one she is currently in.

I need to be more determine to finish a task. I always leave things hanging because my thoughts drifted away. I never get things complete.

I need to find my goal in life, because it would be my north star to success. I don't want to be an aimless wanderer.

I hate to be alone, yet I don't take the first step. I act as though I am Chirppy dosen't mean thats me. I am just a lady who lack confidence, who have no interest in anything, who thinks she failed the world.

I know complaining with no actions does no good. I have been asked, is this a fact or a psychological problem. I myself know it's the latter, but I don't know how to change.

I hate to feel inferior to people yet I want to be humble. Contradicting. How I wish I had just half of HIS confidence. How I wish...

"When I am weak, then I am strong. 我脆弱却不退缩."