Today, I found out something...

Happiness CANNOT be sustained.

When you are happy, the whole world is out to make you sad

But when you are sad, no one in the world would make you happy.

Is this my life?

Or is this how things work?

When you are calm, the whole world is out to make you anxious

When you are anxious, everyone ask, "What's the hurry?"

Is this my life?

Or is this how the world revolve?

When you try your best to do something, everything goes wrong

When you decided to slack off, someway or another, things goes your way

Is this my life?

Or is this how things work?

Now... I am wondering, where's my angel. I need someone...

someone...

someone...

someone to talk to...

someone to share my thoughts

someone... to lie on...

Where's my angel?

I wonder...

No matter what I do, no matter how hard I try, things just dosen't go my way... I think I should just give up and stone. Stone. STONE.

Angels & Mortal~ What should I do to my mortal? Although I said my mortal sux but I think he isn't that bad after all... At least he is humorous... But to work with him is totally a headache... Haiz... I also donno what to do nia~ should I play my part as the angel?

Whatever... don think anyone understand... Anyways... I am watching my prince of tennis... so very lazy to blog...

These few days are the happiest day in my life~ :) Thank you everyone... for everything...

Class tee~ It's in purple! Yippe!!! I think I going to love my class tee loads! ^-^ Numero Uno... Here we are :)

Finally...

I AM FREE FROM THE DEVIL'S CLUTCHES!!!

I don think anyone could understand how i feel now...

kkz... I think I am over exagerrating... But really, I felt the burden off my shoulder the moment the teacher said pen down after my maths lect test... But what's after this? Promos... The exam that we determine if I am going to retain... Haha... Have been failing quite a number of subjects... Lol... and the pile of hw I owed my teachers... Sorry yeah... And I have to get my sleep... Couldn't get enough sleep these few days cause got exams after exams... I don even have time to breathe...

Well... actually I did lahx.. last weekend's trilympics was fun fun FUN!!! The mass dance... although i screwed it... And I am dancing beside the GOH... whatever... But we didn't meet the target of 40000 KM in 1 day... but almost there! Another 4000 KM only... that's such a pity... Well... I got run and contribute kkz... I even got my family down... hoho... Kkz... so I did took a day off from studies last sat...

Life has become a cycle for me...

Wake up-Go school-emo-rot-stone-dream-struggle-test-home-homework-studytest-sleep

It has been a routine since 23 June 2008... But I will pull through no matter what... I will not fall... Cause this is where I chose to be :)

Finally! I am freed from my common test!!! Hohoho~ Do you know how relief I felt when the GP paper 2 ended? Omg... I was like finally... we are done... now, is to wait for the promos... well... my exemption flew away lerx... sian... and let me tell you... I going to fail GP like I am some retard lahx... whatever... GP is my archellis (donno how to spell) hill... So must buck-up... It's not donno... is don have the content... and that content pack is crap lahx...

Actually not really over... Monday still got Chem, tues got Maths, wed got maths and Bio skill B and C WA... I was like... What?! report on B & C in 1hr 20min? Cambridge must be mad... lolx... I think sometimes cambridge is weird... some papers you don need so much time they give you so much time that you fell asleep while waiting for the paper to end... then some you are like racing against time to comeplete that dumb piece of paper... haiz... no comments...

It is just a common test and i woke up at 5 to study... OMG... I didn't even do it for O levels... I really wonder what would happen during prelim... I think i no need to sleep lerx... haha... Sometimes I think that no matter how much I try, how hard I studied, I still fail the test... Eg. Bio and Econs... till now, i haven't past any of the test... Econs first test got lahx... but the last to I got 10 and 8 out of 25... super sian lahx... but secretly telling... I am starting to love econs... but Bio... I am starting t hate it... Bio... I feel very inferior to it... No matter how much I tried... the day before the common test, i spend the whole night, and woke up at 6 to study... In return? What did bio give me? A U-grade... I think lowest in class... I thought everything was a fair exchange... but i guess I was wrong... my hardwork wasn't paid off... I feel like giving up on bio... and I need to learn to love GP.... Hehe... Chem and Econs is now my fav... I still hate maths as usual because i don like to think but currently i think i am coping for maths although it's a D grade. Anyway, I won't be shock to see my report card filled with D E and U this term... Promos... here I come...

It's time to MUG!!!

I just want to stay as where we are now... I don't want to take a step forward because I am afraid that you will take a step backwards...

I am feeling inferior~

Feeling mentally exhuasted~

I could see my inabilities...

and the deep shit i am in now~

Bring me to where i belong... I don like what I am feeling now... I hate where I am standing now. But I have nowhere to go~ to stay or to leave was never my choice...