I remember listing out a number of things to do after A-levels... But i barely done half of it... I am too lazy.... but at least I got a job... beats rotting at home... but my pay is damn miserable... So... I was complaining to Veron about it... and then she was like... what for you wanna work so much? We work now is to kill time, you are not trying to earn as much money as you can now you know... this period may be the last time you can actually sit down relax and enjoy the day... Alf said the same thing too... hmm... but i am enjoying too much that recently, my thoughts keep running wild... I really need things to do to divert that attention... :(

And that topic is some thing i don't wish to think or talk about until march... you guys should know what is it for I know that I am not going to be happy that day... And recently while mass applying for jobs, ppl call and assumed that I can work until july... they are not wrong... but the more call on this I pick up... I can't help but think... where do I really want to go for the next phase of my journey...

I have always insisted that I want to be a physiotherapist... but I am not closed to any other options... just because physiotherapy is a diploma course... I spoke to my mum about it... but she dosen't seems to like the idea of me going to poly... neither do my friends... some think it's ok... some think it's a waste of time... so now... I am really stuck between choices.... I don't want to make anymore regretting choices... I don't want people to influence my choice... but now I am really messed up... to this particular question that many calls I pick up recently never fail to ask.

"When can you work until?"

Should I say April... or should I say June??? What should I say? This may sound pretty lame to many... but to me... it's 矛盾

我的矛盾 你了解吗？
我不想再做让我后悔的选择
我不想再让痛苦卷土重来

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT AM I FEELING NOW??

Anyway... I actually only wanted to talk about my shoe... Complaining before I talk about my main subject seems to be a routine for blogging... anyway... Yup... shoe.... I WANNA BUY A HIGH CUT SHOE!!! Anyone got lobang? or know where you can get high-cut sneakers of reasonable price? You know... I am not trying to buy a brand... I am just trying to buy a shoe of good quality... so ppl... please don't tell my converse... for I think... for the case of converse... I am buying their brand... not their quality... So... I e-mailed SMG.... they have high-cut sneakers by greedt genius... but it sells freakingly at SGD135!!! OMG... I am not buying gold... anyway... even if I want... they wouldn't have my size... cause they only sell men's size UK9-12... my feet not that big lah....

Oh yah.... I just found out yesterday... JJ Lin clubs@ REBEL!!! (Shocking) Haha... REBEL was the club or bar or I donno what that we went the other day... the dance floor is a cage... haha... No wonder REBEL rings a bell in my head... Now I know why I find then REBEL logo so familiar... :)

Sometimes I tend to regret taking up the job at Q&M... Cause the working hours make it difficult for me to look for another job... Yes. I do like that job cause it's pretty manual and although the pay isn't good, but as I have been saying, I work not because I wanna earn money (well... not piority) but is to earn work exprience. So pay dosen't really matter to me as long as I am sure that I am not underpaid... yup...

But now that Q&M work really walk into Ad-hoc basic... (PS: I only work mon and thurs this week!!!) I feel that it time to look for another job... then I realised that I can't cause the working hours cannot come into terms... most office hours ends at 6 but my work at Q&M starts at 6. I don't know how to teleport you see... yup... so now i have became a half 事业人士...

Haiz... and due to my principles and other factors, I am unwilling to give up the job at Q&M although I don't really like the Dr and staff there... but this is just part and parcel of the working society... so... I am quite fustrated at this moment... I have been on job central for the past two days but no one called back and there is not much jobs that I can make an agreement with both sides....

Also, I wanna volunteer at SGH but now that our card is changed to adult fare, going down to SGH with my miserable pay from Q&M, I find it very bo hua leh... so if i could find a job by this week, I will volunteer myself at SGH. If not... I can try to think of other ways bahx...

说一声加油一切更美好
所有的悲伤请往边靠
曾流过的泪
湿了伤口就让
阳光嗮干而褪

这一种加油人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑
说好不见不散
每分每秒守候你到老

歌名：加油！
作词人：林俊杰
作曲人：林俊杰

这首歌送给所有需要加油的朋友 加油！GAMBATTE!

btw, this is not the full song... it's the chorus only... Anyway... ppl you should listen to JJ's new album 100days.... Cause this is the first time I like the whole album of a singer, all the songs (except one song lah... make a guess which one) and I think it's a very well done album. 不亏是经过挫折后的产品:))

Anyway, don't know where to listen the songs? It's right here in my blog... see that i donno what on the left hand side of this post below my profile? click them... you can get a sneak preview of his songs... if not, you can go youtube, haoting, or wadever music channels you have... 一张值得期待 不辜负众望 的完美专辑。

林俊杰- 100天 加油!