I remember listing out a number of things to do after A-levels... But i barely done half of it... I am too lazy.... but at least I got a job... beats rotting at home... but my pay is damn miserable... So... I was complaining to Veron about it... and then she was like... what for you wanna work so much? We work now is to kill time, you are not trying to earn as much money as you can now you know... this period may be the last time you can actually sit down relax and enjoy the day... Alf said the same thing too... hmm... but i am enjoying too much that recently, my thoughts keep running wild... I really need things to do to divert that attention... :(

And that topic is some thing i don't wish to think or talk about until march... you guys should know what is it for I know that I am not going to be happy that day... And recently while mass applying for jobs, ppl call and assumed that I can work until july... they are not wrong... but the more call on this I pick up... I can't help but think... where do I really want to go for the next phase of my journey...

I have always insisted that I want to be a physiotherapist... but I am not closed to any other options... just because physiotherapy is a diploma course... I spoke to my mum about it... but she dosen't seems to like the idea of me going to poly... neither do my friends... some think it's ok... some think it's a waste of time... so now... I am really stuck between choices.... I don't want to make anymore regretting choices... I don't want people to influence my choice... but now I am really messed up... to this particular question that many calls I pick up recently never fail to ask.

"When can you work until?"

Should I say April... or should I say June??? What should I say? This may sound pretty lame to many... but to me... it's 矛盾

我的矛盾 你了解吗？
我不想再做让我后悔的选择
我不想再让痛苦卷土重来

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT AM I FEELING NOW??

Anyway... I actually only wanted to talk about my shoe... Complaining before I talk about my main subject seems to be a routine for blogging... anyway... Yup... shoe.... I WANNA BUY A HIGH CUT SHOE!!! Anyone got lobang? or know where you can get high-cut sneakers of reasonable price? You know... I am not trying to buy a brand... I am just trying to buy a shoe of good quality... so ppl... please don't tell my converse... for I think... for the case of converse... I am buying their brand... not their quality... So... I e-mailed SMG.... they have high-cut sneakers by greedt genius... but it sells freakingly at SGD135!!! OMG... I am not buying gold... anyway... even if I want... they wouldn't have my size... cause they only sell men's size UK9-12... my feet not that big lah....

Oh yah.... I just found out yesterday... JJ Lin clubs@ REBEL!!! (Shocking) Haha... REBEL was the club or bar or I donno what that we went the other day... the dance floor is a cage... haha... No wonder REBEL rings a bell in my head... Now I know why I find then REBEL logo so familiar... :)