Thursday, November 18, 2010

I am too niave....
So niave that I think I can be called STUPID.
I think I trust people too easily...
I get cheated too easily...

You came to ask HOW.
I explained to you.
Yet, you don't understand.
I offered you a reference.
I am not sympathetic because you are not doing well
everyone has their strengths and weakness in various subjects
I understand this.
So, I am helping you because I treat you as a friend.

A friend should help others when they need it.
So, I offered what I can for you.
My own work.
For REFERENCE.

That's a very open topic.
You can simply talk anything under the sun.
I sent you my work to let you see how I did it.
NOT FOR YOU TO COPY.

I wrote about electricity.
You talked about electricity.
I am fine with that.
Someone else out there would also be doing electricity.

BUT.
Why on earth is our application similar?!
Do you know how betrayed I felt when I saw your document?
Do you know how betrayed I felt when I saw your message?
All I felt at that moment was ANGER.

It came to me...
You came to ask for my help.
I did.
You said to trust you that you won't copy.
You just want see how things are done.
I did.

And in return for this favor
I open the document to see a similar report.
My one week of hardwork
became your report?
Your two days work?

You can talk about anything.
Even if its electricity
You can talk about something else.
Electricity has so many application
When I open the document
The topic of research is the same
The application is also about the same
At that moment
All I think of is...
我太天真了...

Do you know that a trust is broken here?
A trust takes 10years to build and one day to tear.
How do you expect me to trust you anymore?
Betrayal is all I feel now.

Maybe I misunderstood you
But I am sure that's not the case.
This is not the first time.
One assignment
we sent each other ours answers to compare.
And when you sent yours 2 days after we sent you.
I realised... Why are some of my answers in yours answers too?
I decided that it's ok. Those answers are quite standard.
This time.
I think it went over...
too over...
Unless you tell me that you are already thinking of doing static electricity from day 1
I have nothing to say
just that we think alike
but I know that's not the case.
You don't know what to do.
You asked me
I said electricity.
And the next thing i know
You are doing electricity too
and the next thing I know
we are both doing static electricity.

I really don't understand why did you do this to me.
But from today on
don't expect me to send you anything for reference.

From today on. Reference in my dictionary is the same as copying of ideas.

We might fall out after this event.
But currently
I don't care.
I don't need someone like you.
Someone who breaks trust.
Someone I trusted so much.

I will not be so niave anymore...

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