My job at Science Park Offically ended yesterday casue I am too lazy to go back on monday... At first I thought I would just walk off without a freaking person other than my supervisor, xingying and my lunchmate knowing... I swear it wasn't intentional... but it ended up with quite a number of people knowing...

Cause half an hour before the end of the day, I wanted to shut down my laptop and returned it back to IT depart... YET... when I was about to shut down, one of my collegue came over and wanted me to print out one of her accounts... So... I was thinking it's going to be a pretty fast thing (cause all you need is to open the doc and click print) and agreed... but it ended up that she wants to edit something too... THEN... my supervisor stood up and said, "HEY, are you going to return the laptop soon? They are going off at 5 today you know?" Then I told him I know... of course I know... Me and XY is always one of the first to leave the office can... And so the collegue who was editing the doc on my behalf was like "Huh? Not 31st meh?" Then I shook my head... Then another one came... and want me to do some editing for her... so she also ended up knowing... Then my sup was actually discussing something with another person whom happens to be working with me too... so she also ended up knowing... and they were shocked that yesterday was my last day... cause before that I told them it's 31st May... so in the end... my 默默走掉 became 轰动走掉... -_-''' Well... at the very end I indeed mo mo zou diao lahx... with XingYing.... Cause we left earlier than 5...

So... GOODBYE to Ascendas... Well... we might meet again few years down the road... who knows ;)

And I don't know if I should be happy or sad that I am leaving... Cause I like my job and I can say I am pretty lucky to get one with good environment... Cause the OLs around me are complaining about their office... yupx... I have nothing to complain about... and my supervisor is actually a pretty nice guy :)

Oh... so I was happy leaving cause I was thinking YEAH! can sleep liaox! No need to wake up at 7 liaox! Can relax at home liaox! and.... You know wad... barely one hour after I left the office for my last day... Q&M called.... and told me that I have to work next week everyday 9am to 9pm.... HELLO! I was just so so so so happy that I finally can get sleep and watch my PPLive and now you are asking me to work longer hours a day!!! My previous office work is like from 8.45 to 5.45 and now? 9-9... WHAT THE - Nightmare... (oh... if you are wondering what the hell I wrote for my status on facebook... I am referring to this...)

So... plans for next week dissappear into puff of smoke.... :((( I was thinking of getting my nitendo next week... :(( I was like wanting to buy since like... erm... last december? It's like half a year gone liaox lahx! Then I was thinking of going retail therapy with Veron... then I was thinking of packing my table, clearing my wardrobe... go swimming, start slimming down ya-da ya-da ya-da.... AND NOW? *poof!* GONE!

I know I did say I will not give up play for work anymore... but they really need help... cause the person going back malaysia...

oh veron... I am so sorry :(

OH people... SHALL WE GO GENTING IN JULY???

我知道这一点都不对
但我相信一个人的性格是两种因素造成的
第一是环境
我内向的个性是环境造成的
小学的我并不内向
长大的我很内向
这是环境。

第二是基因
别人批评我的个性当然可以
但传给我这基因的人凭什么批评我
你们不是也都拥有这些性格吗？

是呀。我什么都不会。
是呀。我做事不主动。
那我会的时候，我做事主动的时候你在哪？你有看到吗？
为什么人类只能看到他人的缺点而不是优点呢？
可能我一点优点都没有
但你何必一而再再而三的批评我？
你对我要求虽然不高
但你奖励我时候我几乎记不起来了

你知不知道一个孩子需要鼓励和批评
如果一个孩子被批评的比例是是十比一
你知不知道这对她的信心有多大的打击吗？
她虽然不说但她信心一次一次的被你打碎
请问她到了外头哪来的信心啊!

我也想做一个坚强的女人
我更想独立
但我情绪一点都不稳定
怎么坚强？

一个坚强的人是不会应许自己掉眼泪的
我很努力的让自己不掉泪
但却发现那一点也不容易

家庭问题谁没有
算我幼稚不懂事吧
但今天我真的把心情写出来了
我知道你是为我好
但我真的很难受。

I think it's hard to say a sorry with sincerity... I can say a quick sorry when I bump into a person (well.... I am really sorry) I can say sorry to a patient for making them wait so damn long cause the doc is so damn slow (but that's customer service)... The word sorry comes out of my mouth pretty easily... But when I want to say a sorry which I really really mean it... it's as difficult as reaching the skies. The sorry with sincerity... The type of sorry that I really want to say don't really come out.... It never came out at all... Since secondary school... I have always wanted to say this sorry to a friend of mine... But it never came out... Now that we have lost touch... or even if we meet again, I don't know where to start... Yesterday... I wanted to say sorry to someone... but it just won't come out... I really want to... I hope it wasn't because of me that she wants to resign... I know I did something really bad yesterday... but... I AM SORRY.

Life. Enjoy while you have it. I realised that since I started office work... I don't know what is play. Meetings are rejected because I have WORK. Events and activities are rejected because I have WORK. Things that I have always wanted to do is being pushed back because of WORK. I don't know what made me slow down and think... But now, I have decided that... Enjoy life while I have it. I would never again reject any meeting, activities and push back any important things because of work. Working, for now, is not a dorminant part of my life. Although you would be happy when you see your salary come in... But afterall... I have always been saying... money is not the main reason why I am working... So why did I push away life for work? This is the last time you can really enjoy life to the fullest... Why dominate it with work?