Argh! I just missed the opportunity to earn a 1.5 times pay just because I forgot tml is FRIDAY!!! I keep thinking that tml is SAT and I am going sentosa tml... ZZzzzz.... Thanks lah... There goes my pay...

Anyway... It's new year's eve... I shall blog about happy events instead of angry ones... haha... this year... I am counting down at home... that's pretty pathetic... but somehow... as I grow older... festive seasons dosen't mean as much as before... In the past... if someone forgets my birthday... I might be quite sad... and I remember it's very silly of me one year that my family could not get a cake for my birthday and I cried... -_-''' Now... even if anyone forgets my birthday... I find it ok... no cake? Fine... haha... Same goes for chinese new year... in the past new year always means new clothes and pretty dress... but now... the rxn would be... New Year? Huh... have to go shopping again... haiz... Same goes for new year... in the past i use to love count down... but now... 3, 2, 1! Happy new year.... *handshake* *a hug* say goodbye... yah...

回顾这一段完美的人生（2009):

今年不是我风光的一年
走过大大小小的路
经历大大小小的挫折
至今有些还无法平复
当然的
今年也因为不风光
所以也让我看到了自己的软弱
自己不为人知的一面
我做了一个自己在从前都觉得自己不会是的那种人

2009 给了我一上了一个宝贵的人生课
让我感觉在今年以前 我都活在自己的世界里
自己那完美的世界里

2009 让我犯了人类的七大罪名
Extravagance （奢华）
Greed (贪污）
Acedia （忽略）
Despair （不满）
Warth (愤怒）
Envy （嫉妒）
Pride （自尊）

以前我不在乎奢华享受
只想安安分分的过日子
虽然觉得我拥有的不多
但不觉得缺了什么
但现在不一样了
我想要的我会想办法得到
明明不缺什么
但想要更多
名牌货 看上眼了
冒牌货 歧视了
可能是因为长大了吧

贪污 我可能改善了吧
我没有以前那样贪污的念头
嗯 这是好事
也应该是我今年唯一的好事

我今年忽略的人实在太多了
明知道被忽略的感觉是什么
但还是无法不经意的忽略了别人
现在关系僵了
话也无从说起
那句我一直想说的道歉也说不出口了
我忽略了家人的关心感受
我忽略了朋友对我的好意

今年我不满的事情实在太多了
说个两天也说不完吧
我不满家人对我的不了解
但现在我知道他们才是最了解我的人
我不满朋友对我的忽略
但现在的我知道她们并没有想要这么做
她们并不是没有敞开胸怀的接受我
而是我自己没有敞开胸怀的接受她们

今年令我愤怒的事情也很多
我愤怒自己不重用
愤怒自己的愚蠢 自己的自私
我愤怒家人对我没有信心
愤怒他们这样的贬低我

我不相信人没有嫉妒心
以前的我 有嫉妒心 但是良性的嫉妒
今年的我 也有嫉妒心 但是恶性的
我今年的嫉妒心真的让我看清楚我邪恶的那一面
那样恐怖的我 我是第一次看见
这嫉妒让我觉得我很坏 很邪恶
我不想再面对着样的我了
它让我觉得以前的我根本就在演戏
让我觉得真正的我不是善良 好相处
而是邪恶有动机 随时会在你背后捅你一刀的那种人
我真的无法相信我既然会是这一种人

每个人都有自尊 我当然也有
我今年因该没犯这样的罪吧
有也不记得了

所以2009
我虽然痛恨这一年
因为它带给我的痛苦很难忍受
但我也要感谢2009
它让我看清我的世界不是只有我一个
我的世界不是完美无缺
它让我看清我并不单纯
让我上了宝贵的课

不要再见了2009
也谢谢你给我18年一帆风顺的人生起一个波浪 让我在踏入社会之前感受到低潮 挫折 无助 的时候

GOODBYE 2009!!
WELCOME 2010!!

我想和吴慧敏 卢家慧 梁诗韵 曾庆文 胡立轩做永远的好朋友！我2010年唯一的愿望！

I am BACK from Thailand! Haha... It wasn't as fun as i expected it to be... but overall... it was ok... Pics... I am debating again whether i should put it on facebook or blogger... I tried on blogger and the freaking com... disconnected.... so... I didn't manage to post some of the pics here... You guys would be shocked how clear the water is man... haha... i shall post it another day then... then i tell you my journey to thailand... haha...

Anyway... I had a pleasant surprise on departure day (17/12)... Make a guess who I saw in Changi Airport on departure? I saw an artiste... I hope it's JJ.... but too bad... he wasn't.... haha... But i do somehow... like them... is a them... 2 person to be specific... haha.... Anyway... I don't think anyone will care who i saw lahx... But I am just happy that this is the first time I saw an international artiste in the airport... Haha... Oh yah... I haven't say who I saw... I saw 2 members of Fahrenheit... Arron Yan and Jiro Wang (I suppose it's Jiro cause my subconcious tells me it's calvin).... Yup... No idea why they are in Singapore... but they are leaving for Taiwan... It's purely coincidental that i saw them... and it's my mum who saw two suspicious looking character and ask me if it's them... lol... if not i think i will just walk pass them without noticing... Then my mum suggested to take photo with them... actually I want... but I don dare... cause it's like so damn 丢脸 lahx... I also donno why i will feel embarassed... Haha... then I told my sis when we came back and she ask... even if you really wanna take pic with them... do you think they will accept? Coming to think of it... Well... maybe not... haha...

So this is my pleasant surprise i had on departure day.... Haha... my trip to thailand.... next post together with pics bah.... :)

Then after the trip... I went back to work... announced the end of my training... which means that now I am only working night shift 6-9 and it's not everyday... So i am looking for another job... which has flexible working hours or normal working hours from 8-5.... Went to job central... applied for an admin job... the person called... I was so tempted to take up the job cause it's for the govt and armed forces (ppl who is close enough to me will know that I somehow... in one way or another admires armed forces... and sometimes goes abit over) and the place not very far away.... I was about to say yes... when the person say the working hour is from 9-6... and I was 晴天霹雳！AHHHHH!!! Then I told him I got another job which starts from 6... then he ask if i am willing to give up the job for this job... and I told him no... of course not... I signed contract with Q&M lah... Then when I hung up... I almost want to call back and negotiate with him if I can work from 8-5 instead... haiz... but I didn't.... anyway... the pay is not the pay that everyone will accept... but to me... it's not the pay that matters... I really want that job!!! haiz... So i decided that I shall only start looking for work in Jan... let me catch my breath and pack my table... for the last week of dec...

Oh yah! Before I forgot.... THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED MY A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! AND THANK YOU... HUIMIN, SIYUN, VERONICA, ALFRED AND LIXUAN FOR THE WONDERFUL TUESDAY AT ECP AND CLARKE QUAY! LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS! AND THANK YOU FOR THE WINNIE THE POOH! I LOVEEEE IT LOADS!

OH.... and btw... if Veron or Seiyu happens to stop by my blog...

VERON: may i know where the hell is your tagboard for your blog?? And can you change a blogskin? your blog is very dull... haha!

Seiyu: Do you still want the nitendo? You going this St. James this sat? Cause I going Malaysia next tues... and I think I am going to buy... want me help you buy? empty nitendo... RM 200 plus if I am not wrong...

Today... I was suppose to go for the YAH birthday bash... but I didn't turn up... hiaz... feel quite guilty now... instead of going there... I actually stayed at home and watch my Black and White AKA 痞子英雄. Recomended show. Nice... Don't know why i wanna watch it in the first place... nobody that i like... but after watching is think Mark Zhao is DAMN COOL!!! haha... for a newbie... he is very good... if there's a movie coming up... i wanna watch... haha...

And... I log on to facebook to find that i am being tagged for prom photos!!! 晴天霹雳! Don mind anyway... now i wondering if i wanna post the pics on facebook... or should i post it here??? Haha... post some of my fav photos here bah... I should be posting the rest on facebook... omt... so many pics to upload man...haha...

The dog is damn kawaii... haha... it licks you like nobody's busniess... haha... More pics in facebook... going to be up like dono when.. after i come back from my hols? I still got kusu island and marina barrage haven upload... haiz...

Btw... JJ Lin's Album is coming out on 18th Dec!!!! Wootx.. Saw the mv... AHHHHHHH!! kkz... i am going mad... this time... by hook or by crook... i am going to buy... the last album i was waiting for a gai ban... and then... HE NEVER COME OUT WITH ANY GAI BAN!!! kkz... Shall not complain... kudos... Watching SEA games while blogging....

记得支持JJ 的【100天】！强力推荐【第几个100天】 :)

Actually I am damn lazy to blog... but i wanna blog about prom yesterday...WAHAHAHAHA...

Well... Prom was ok... I didn't really take as much pictures as i thought i did... cause I sort of smile until muscle cramp lah... and blinded by alot of flashlights... Anyway... Yesterday veron was all over the place... and my biggest regret... NO INDIVIDUAL PHOTOS WITH MISS GOH AND MISS ZHANG AND MISS CHEW!!!! SOBS SOBS X100 Haiz... and the clique photo is abit de blur lah... and without wanrong... that guy... got girlfriend dowan friends liao... haahaa... you should see how the two of them enter the place man... and we went to take photos with them... and me and veron looks like we are taking a wedding photo... ya... Anyway... I also ran around lahx... but not as much as veron...

Then the post-prom activity... total unglam. We wanted to go blacony bar... then it closed down lerx... so we went to orchard tower instead... Oh... I help the guys carry their coat man! this is the first time i help a guy carry coat... haha... quite cool actually... kkz... i think i am mad... In the end we wanted to go st. james but never open... then we want to go supper club (i suppose it's spelt like that) full... then we walk from orchard ion all the way to somewhere further down dobyghaut barefooted... cause we took off the freaking heels... And I think i damn noob... cause my one not even heels... haha... but cause the back of the shoes is giving me blisters... so i decided to take it off... haha... So we walk... and then wanted to walk to clarke quay... but wanna die liao... so stop by kopitiam and stone there until 2 plus and junwen suggested to drink my the river... I can't imagine myself drunk and sleeping by the river in prom attire... kkz...very unlikely it will happen anyway... ya... so I decided to go home... and so me alf and veron went home while lixuan shiva and huimin went to drink by the river... haiz... pathetic post prom activity... just not our day... monday... pubs either don open or close by 2... haha...

Went k-box at jurong SAFRA today... inside is totally diff from the k-box i went to in the past man... the 'remote control' is touch screen one seh... and the tv is LCD one leh... donno wad to say lah... haha... you can go check out yourself... but warning... no student price there... haha

Oh... Prom pics I will post... but another day... anyone who dowan their faces up on my blog... can spam my tagboard or just tell me personally... haha

A's is finally over! But problems have not yet end...
One day ago I am worrying that i wouldn't be able to get a job.
One day later... I am sandwiched in the middle of two jobs which both I am unwilling to give up and would be force to give up the later one if there cannot be an agreement...
Is this life?
Why do we have to always make choices?

Anyway... I PLAYED the whole day of com today! DAMN SHUANG can... haha... you can see how long I have deprived myself from games... Oh... And I signed up for a facebook account... haha... add me if you want... Easy to find... haha....

Thurs went for new moon and sorry to say... but I almost slept in the theather... Not that the show is not nice... but it's just that after you have read the book... you seems to know what's going to happen next and it dosen't tempt you anymore... haiz... unlike twilight... but comparing the two... I prefer twilight... No blames anyway... as new moon the book itself is pretty boring... haha... And Jacob is OH MY TAIN the macho and cool MAN! I was like 0.o!!! And funniest thing happened in the cinema... There's one scene the robert patterson took off his clothes... and one girl in the theathre scream ,Eww so ugly.... OMG... At first i thought it was Seiyu cause it sounds like... but it's not lahx... anyway... that scene is really ugly... Edward is really ugly...

Prom's just two days away... I haven't bought my acessories!!!! Anyway... I might as well just go without any acessories... Doing Mani and maybe pedicure tomorrow... what colour should I paint my nails man! Haiz... Prom is irritating... I spend near to 300 buck already... haiz... Why on earth am I spending so much money for an event that I solely just wanted to go there and take pictures???