Hmm... I decided not to change the blogskin ler... cause i think it's sort of ugly... eh... Anyway... My first week of hols just went off like this... haiz... I have been going back to school everyday... well either to play or meeting...


Struggling with PW just now... I would like to ask you guys if what would you think about a crime museum in Singapore? Is it going to be a good or bad impact? It's going to sort of showcase how the police manage to gather evidence and do analysis to solve a crime using the latest technology... Hmm... So... if you have any comments about this pls drop a tag... cause i choosing between a musuem and an exhibition... I know it looks the same but the things we have to do and settle is way different.. yeah? Your help would be appreciated... Lol...


Then yesterday I went for Youth Partner... goD~ It's so damn fun lahx... The house visits... We were like knocking on every door and then no one was at home... cause weekdays mahx... 4plus 5 ppl still at work... yeah... Then got some ppl at home... then some are like totally unfriendly lahx... the door open so big, then we press the bell, knock the door and shouted half day they still never appear... it's like obviously not wanting to come out right? who will leave their doors open when they are out? Then got some super friendly ones... then we went to a one house... then the person open the door is a policeman! Wootz~ and he is working at the Jurong NPC too! Where we do our youth partner stuffs... It's like so cool... Then he was like snatch the paper from us and then writing his particulars... And chatted like you guys under Sergeant Linda right? We were like yah... then he was like later i going down... we were like oh... then there jk lah... then he finish writing ler... we look at it it's like all short forms... does he expect the police to know who the hell is KKK... but anyway, that police officer is super funny lahx..


Today went back school for GP project but we ended up partying in the classroom... haha... cause everyone bought their laptops and then we got 3 so huimin was doing the written report... i was suppose to do the ppt... but the WR also haven come out yet so me and seiyu there playing... then Wanrong actually wanted to do hw lolx.. then in the end he there talking crap... then Alfred and Jieheng came and they started playing poker... then after that they went out to buy lunch whatsoever lahx... then I got bored and decided to do the skeleton of the ppt first... then Seiyu and me was like having conflict in choosin the font and the colour... so funny lol... too bad that stupid school no internet connection if not it would be like much more fun lolx... After that lixuan came and we went to play suppose to be netball but we ended up playing soccer and i tell you i really hate and sux in soccer... I can't see what the fun wasting your energy running after the ball and mistreating your head into hitting the ball with your head... Well... no offence to soccer lover esp 'Man U' and lixuan... they wouldn't be reading anyway... Then we discussed about the class blogs and stuff but never came up with a conclusion... Hehe... we went off at about 5.15 cause I wanted to watch YiDA!!! he went to YLBFB today!! Promoting his Voices of 512... Yah... Then his album is coming out soon! Yippee... but i doubt I have the free time to his auto session... must be supportive mahx... dotz...

Oh well... I decided that my bloging has too much words and very boring hoh... I have some pic so post... wahaha... kkz...





















I am the eyes and seiyu is the smile! We got so bored today that we played to projector... okie... we are kids...




















I know I look out in the photo... Anyway... I love my class!


























We wanted to do 01 but I think it sort of fail and again I know I look out...





























I like this shot... :)) Cause I don look out and Ms Zhang is inside and everyone could be seen... there is another on that is nt bad took but wasn't sent to me... Sadded... Haha... This is my class... It sort of have the 4C feel in these pics but they are way below in real life... I missed 4C'07 and I am really waiting for the class outing... Hope it's a sucessful one...

I know I look super gross here... But my Family photo!! taken during the wedding dinner of my cousin... quite obvious who is the ppl lahx... And my dumb bro is super de irritating... spoiling the pic...

Kkz... That's all... I dowan ppl to vomit their dinner out... of spill their food yea... Maybe if I get the mood I would post up other wedding pics... :)) Nights!

This counts the end of my first day of hols... Well... I did typically nothing today actually... Went to the lib to do PW research and i found that I have wasted helll lots of time reading irrelevant stuffs... Yesterday did filing and I almost fainted... There is hell lots of things for me to catch up this hols... and just seeing the GP hw given I feel like fainting too... What hols is this man... And then still need to hand in chinese by this week... well... actually is i never do lahx... then the teacher say hand in this friday... hehe... planning to do tml... go school do in the morning... then after that go meeting... I donno how the hell Zi Hong or long (forgot his name) put me in as an exco member... so tml need to go for meeting to dicuss about senior stuffs... But even if I am not i don really mind helping lahx :) since it's better rotting at home... haha... Then planing to pack my table tml too... and read the books i borrowed frm the lib thinking it's relevant... Whatever lahx...

Then today on the way home i saw Adina... gosh~ It's a long lost friend lahx... but I just donno what to talk to her about... She was like you in JJ? I was like yah... Are you the same class as Huimin? I say yah... Then she comment... waseh... so many yrs ler then chong feng... and i just smile... cause i really donno what to say! feel sort of bad... :( then say Lixue in the papers... It took me about 5 mins to spot her lahx... find... at least i found her... hahahah!!! Whatever...

Then throughout the weekend I just rushed the yuan lai wo bu shuai... not a nice show after all... then watch the xin guang da dao where Sugi and yvonne and this huang jing lun go taiwan sing... why sudden intrest? cause i think huang jing lun vocals very gay... too high ler... then after watching... i feel like he is quite cute lolx... :P as in he talk very funny... haha... nevermind... :))

I found my new blogskin!! Yipee... But I not really satisfied lahx... but I think i would use that new one for the time being :) Well... See me next time with a new blogskin!

Oh yah and one more thing... I think I am the last person in 4C to know that Ms Chua is leaving JVS... What the... Nevermind... but at least i know now... and jek has a point... who are we going to visit on teachers day??? God~

Yipee~ It's finally the hols!! God~ I have been waiting for this day to come for like donno how long lahx... but my hols equals to like no hols de lolx.. Ok lahx... first week can slack at home... and i prepare to slack for that whole week and do miscellaneous stuffs like filing and craps lahx... newspaper cuttings, i owed lke one month of newspapers which is like 60 articles???!!! Shoot... then second week got one week of lecture make-up. 3rd week need to study for common test... 4th week need to do PW... which is driving me up the wall...

Then yesterday I went for WestZone LINE camp duty... Wah seh super scary lahx... there is this guy fell down and then got alot of blood sia... and his leg is like numbed lolx... the SCDF ppl still have to come down sia lahx... then still need stitches... and you should be the amount of blood around him... it's in puddles... not droplets manz... then the other casualties is all minor one lahx... Then half way through we went back to GP test and i think i flunk the VC and equals to failing the essay too... my point of debate is like not there lolx... aiyah whatever lahx... then tues the chem bonding test... kaoz... GG ler lolx and thurs de bio test... if i can pass, i will give charmaine 100 bucks... i told her lahx... cause i crapped... and i think the teacher would just strike everything off and write see me... haha... Diaoz...

And my progress report sucks big time lahx... I got only A for Chem... and then the others all C and Ds... Heart break... i still thinking of exemption which is like AABD? Maths got B... it's likeone more mark to the A grade lahx... then bio first time in my life I got a D and it one mark to a C... Gek... Econs... thanks of that badly done project I got D... 2 marks to a C... Then GP.... I got a D.... 1 mark to a C... Do you feel like banging the wall if you get this type of results? I feel like banging the wall... it's like just one or 2 marks and I jump a grade... *Cui Xin Gan* My progress report sux lahx... donno what the hell my mum would say if she see it... i think will volcano eruption bah.x... What the- give me this type of stupid results!!! Then that time she still saw my chem topical test lolx... 80 marks for both test and she should be thinking that my results are not bad... and what is this? What progress report is this man... Haiz.... Sianed... Ruin my hols... Sadded...

And it is just to early in the game to get this type of results bahx!

愛與希望
詞/王雅君 曲/林俊傑

5.12赈灾歌曲

大地被搖晃著
天空突然黑了
我的心也被震碎了 下一秒瓦解了
淚堆積成了河
但明天是好的
我們要堅定著 愛~讓我們不放棄活著 還要繼續和大自然
拔河

當愛與希望 投射炙熱的太陽
昨日淚光 會隨時間都蒸干
別輕易放棄 明天要許更多願望
裝滿了勇氣 就更有力量

當愛與希望 倒映暖暖的月亮
再回頭望 又是築好的家鄉
我知道未來還有好多路要闖
我打開了窗 看見了晴朗

I thought it wouldn't affect me so much... but i think i was wrong... Everyday i flip open the papers, i could feel my heart tingling and tears welling up in my eyes when i read those articles... In just an hour, a whole town flattens... half of the population gone and many still buried in the remains waiting to be rescued... In just an hour, many became orpahans. In just an hour, many parents lost their child. In just an hour, your love ones are gone. In just an hour, your family breaks apart... In just one hour, their world turns upside down.

My alarm didn't sound until yesterday when i was flipping the papers and i saw that big caption... every 15min, a body was being carried out... and the news, in order to save their lives, they must have their limbs amputated...

This makes me think how lucky we are...

Please do whatever you can...
Listen to their silent screams!!!

Wah~ Finally I have sometime to breath cause tml is SPORTS DAY!!! Woots~ Owens go!!! So I promised myself to play the whole night... then tml onwards will have to continue chionging.... Yippee and one more week we will have our June Hols!!! But my june holidays is quite packed... so got holiday equals to no holidays lahx... and then still midway through hols want us go back common test! Maths sux lahx! and somemore I am halfway through my chalet... not really chalet lahx.. is annual retreat that is held at aloha loyang... god knows where is that place... but my friend say it's very grand one... so quite excited to go... haha... but i already book out the date for 4C's outing so i would be there! see me! And I am seriously hoping my june hols to come... but i dowan next week to come too fast cause next week i am packed with test!!! Sobs... the teachers are so evil...

This week is super sway for me lahx... monday was okie, tues i screwed my math lec on MI an graphing techniques cause I got fed up in drawing graphs that i anyhow drew... then the conjecture i got it but I couldn't prove by induction!!! Faints... so i was like telling my maths teacher first test i aced it then this test become U grade lerx lahx... After the test we got Chem tutorial and our class did not do the chem bonding tutorial and the teacher got so angry that she packed her stuffs and went out of class... then the class was like shocked... cause she is our civics teacher then everytime very fun to be with and then always joking around one lol.... so it's like if she can get so angry that she could walk out of the class it's quite serious nia... Feeling bad about it... cause i also nvr do... well is more of donno how to do lahx... And if I didn't remember wrongly, this is the first time a teacher walk out on me...

Then wed morning bio tutorial the bio teacher also got quite pissed off cause she go through some concepts in the lesson then when she went through the tutorial and asked those qn that she went through we couoldn't ans so she was like, "S1, it's to early in the game to make your teachers walk out on you..." and she almost walked out also... phew... then GP, the teacher is continueously nagging non stop about our class lahx so we immune lahx.. so don't really care... She everytime come in just talk alot of crap talking about how digusted she got marking our scripts and comparing with another of her class and say you 4H2 class is not living up to standard and that day she return our test she said this is the first time in my 4 yrs of teaching S1 there are failures... That one immune ler lahx... then after that at PW my grp almost got into a conflict... and i almost shouted at my group mates cause we could come into agreement abt the gpp and then everyone knows hat everyone is angry...

After school got CDC Ex-co interview... I really want to be in the Ex-co but I donno what position to take and i was staring at the position for a very long time... then next thing i know, i screwed my interview... Although it's a joking interview and I made a big joke inside... anyway they ask me what i wanna be... as in preferred choice... Then I wanted the vice president but I feel tht say i wan be VP very bu yao lian... so i say I donno lehx (die)... then Ernest ask me, president can? I was like cannot! then VP? I wanted to say yes... but in the end I said I don mind (Die) then he ask creative head? I was like I can think out the idea but cannot draw... then he ask you know how to use the com to draw, i told him i com retard one... (die again) but I really donno how to use those soft ware lahx... but basic things like ms word,ppt all this can do lahx... So if you think i never screw my interview, pls tell me... feel very sad... if I never get into Ex-co i will die... my testi will die and there goes my scholarship... hiaz... what to do...

Then todat i got econs test and i screwed my essay cause i talk crap and the teacher shot us bad news... he is transferring to another schhooll.. So sad... although i don like the way he do things but he is a very good econs teacher... pls give us some teacher that is about the same or better... i dowan teachers like kamarul that type one... i will fail econs manx..

Actually my class got all the good teachers in the school... but the thing is we don cherish what we have... we always let our teachers down regardless of grades or learning attitude... our class like what the Gp teacher say is suppose to be role models and suppose to practice SDSM but our class is totally the opposite and we are simply a play class... we don study like a 4 H2 class should do... I am feeling really very guilty about it... Our class is fun to play with but not fun to study with... I am really sorry to our teachers the efforts they put in... And I can say I landed myself in a lousy class... sorry to S1 ppl reading it... but if we don change, things are going to go out of hand... even though results wise we are showing the results the school wants... Teachers esp Ms Zhang, I am sorry for not attemping you chem tutorial, sorry Mdm goh for not listening in you maths tutorial, sorry Ms Chiew for letting you down once and again for not performing and giving nonsense, sorry Mdm Chee for not being cooperative in PW... I am really sorry...

Hiaz... this is just not my week... Hen duo shi dou hen bu shun xin... Unlucky >.<

Changing blogskin soon~ Surfing the net! Tml going bugis with Veron and meet ms chiew... yippee!

While waiting for my friend to finish her clip on our GPP, i decided to make a post here... Just came back fro Owens Camp and I felt like I wasted two days of my life... I was down for CDC duty from like yesterday 5.30 to today 3pm lahx... and I am like the only person there if not for Wendy who volunteered to come and help... Then yesterday reported like 10mins late... hehe.... then there is a J2 senior there... then we settled down and I just read the Calvin and hobbes super funny and lame lahx! then after that I decided to do hw... but gt restless so throughout the whole night, I just did like 2 maths question? then the owens got night games and we are to go standby lah... so i went down and i felt like an idiot standing there lolx... then in the end i started playing games from my hp... and that stupid hp yesterday aftnoon blackout and I got so fedup that i smash it on the table and suddenly it on lerx... kkz... then after that at night did bio... wrote crap lahx... then at like 1 plus in the morning i tried to sleep, then the LN was like ssssssooooo darn noisy that i can't really sleep... then today morning woke up at 6 plus and then rot again... but today Wendy suddenly become sort sort and there fa hua chi lahx... don talk about it lahz but it's really donno what to say... and she is joining the hse com... Sheryl, Wenjun, huimin... good luck... should I join house com? Anyway, I just spend the two days rotting in the LN and wasting my life away...

This week is quite hetic for me thanks to the test lahx... wed got GP content test... and the moment we flip open the paper, our whole class was like WHAO~ gg liaoz... I was like flipping and flipping there gg liaoz... and the GP teacher still say the content quiz can pull us up... diaoz.... the thurs got Bio SPA... I totally screw it... not to talk about it to... then got chem bonding test which i donno what the crap thingy i wrote infront.... behind think i got correct... the yesterday got Chem SPA... it was quite okie... but i think my reading is sort of inaccurate then got econs presentation where our group almost got into a fight with the class and the Q &A is like no A.. cause the questions they ask we don have answers... why? cause we are not prepare... and our presentation is impromtu one lahx... hiaz... econs gg also... hehe... next week got econs test and i am still struggling with price elascity and maths... god... my MI conjecture suckx to the core and my graphing technique... eh... have totally no idea what it is about.... gosh~

Have been reading other ppl's blog recently and i am regretting more on choosing JC over poly... everyone look so happy in poly and blogging about happy things and me? complaining in every post.. is not that i don like the sch but i just couldn't go on pace with the sch... i barely past me test, i spend my whole night mugging on upcoming test and weekends rushing pprojects... this is life...

Sometimes I wonder why some can be more happy than the others...
sometimes i wonder how they take out so much time to do so many things...
sometimes I wonder what's my purpose for life...
sometimes I wonder...

I wonder alot of things... Wonder why can I look on the bright side of life?
Wonder why my life is so chaotix? wonder wonder wonder...

I sound so emo... and i am really emo... really tired and really stressed (can anyone define?)

5th March 2009, Beiyi wrote this:
If having sucidal thoughts means depression... I am having a serious depression now... Sucidal tendencies were so high last few weeks that I feel like jumping off the building even when I am in the kitchen...

Things that contribute to this behavior, there's alot... Friends, studies, life...
Everything started off when the school annouced the 2009 JJ scholars... I found that I wasn't inside but my friends were... Then, they had their first project... SM2... They were so involved that at times, I seems invisible to them... they talked about it every single moment and I felt really out of the picture... That's when the first sucidal thought came in... I felt inferior to my friends... I felt... Lost... Alone... Rejected...

Next, my long friendship with Huimin just dissolved into thin air for no reason... Suddenly, we have no common topic... suddenly, she look at me as though she hates me... Now, I am just like an invisible person in her eyes... i suppose... She no longer think about my feelings, my thoughts and don even care about me... It's very depressing to know that your 8 years of friendship is just gone like that... I couldn't find a reason to this... If it was because of a mahjiong session that I said that I hate her when she play and she got pissed off, I am sad for our weak friendship.... But I cannot blame her too... we are people of very different characteristic... I have no idea how we could become friends in the first place...

Then... came life... things went the wrong way... I felt that... no matter how hard I try... I won't get what I want... I studied like some shit for bio and all I get is barely just a pass... It's like the efforts wasted... No point of studying then...

Then I went to ask myself...
If I were gone... would anyone notice...
If I am dead.... how many will shed their tears for me...
What is my position in the world?
What's my place in my friends heart?

If Veron, Seiyu or Huimin... anyone who came pass this post... I just wanna say... I treasure this friendship... You know I usually don start a conversation... and I really hope you guys can lend me a shoulder and give me a shelter... That's all I have for you guys...

May our friendship stay bonded forever... no matter where we are...

Tat-Da! I bought my laptop!!! OMG~ *Excited* Whatever lahx... My laptop only cost like 1300 bucks... but till now I think it's still quite usable... I had problems connecting to that dumb intenet yesterday lahx... But today can lerx! Cause my mum unlocked the security thingy... hehe...

Long time since I blogged... Is it dead yet? Whatever... School is boring as usual but today I didn't fall asleep in Bio lect! what a miracle manz! And talking about Bio... I failed my first bio test by 1/2 mark!!! Sooooo angry lahx... I got minus 4 marks for spelling mistakes!! And I thought I did quite well for the test... sobs... but I aced my Sitiometry test!! 27/35! Not bad worx! But my MCQ anyhow do lolz... if got more time maybe can do better... :) Then I miraculously aced my maths lect test too! got 20/25... but small case lahx... my class got 16 distinction and 3 full marks... (those ppl are mad) Lolx... Anyway... I am expecting to fail my econs test cause I totally talked crap lahx... KKz... Stop those studying stuff...

There would be a 4C'07 outing during the June Holidays!!! Woot~ I hope eeveryone could make it cause last time Miss Chua's bd like no one go like that lolx... Then I also got chalet for CDC... Annual retreat.... God~ I went to NPC last Wed and it's so cool lahx.... well actually all talks lahx... but going police station is like so fun!!! Then got go spread crime prevention also.... Those ppl under Jurong West NPC... don't be suprise if you see me knocking on your door one day spreading crime prevention... haha.... Ending here... I am just trying one my laptop...

Tml going do my screwed econs project... Next week got bio and Chem SPA!!! And I only got like 7/12 for my SPA trail and didn't finish for my Bio one lahx... Sianed... :/

And I am asking again... Anyone wants the soft copy of the vedio I made? If you want, pls mail me or leave a tag... thank you....