I think I a very efficient worker... Muahaha... Cause today I ended work 15mins ealier cause they are unable to find things for me to do... -_-''' Well... this makes me think that maybe they would wanna terminate the contract early O.0.

Dosen't matter anyway... Haha... cause my 出发点 wasn't for the money in the first place... I just want to see how it feels to be busy.... and I really mean tired and busy.... try rushing here and there after work...

Till today... NO LETTER :(( super sianed.... I wanna go NTU!!!! Rah... 随天意吧!

Oh... Motive for this post... Song lyric...


五月天- 咸鱼

我是一只咸鱼 不想承认也不能否认
不要同情我笨 又夸我天真 还梦想着翻身
咸鱼就算翻身 还是只咸鱼输得也诚恳
至少到最后我还有咸鱼 不腐烂的自尊

我没有任何天分 我却有梦的天真
我是傻不是蠢 我将会证明用我的一生

我如果有梦 有没有错 错过才会更加明白 明白坚持是什么
我如果有梦 梦要够疯 够疯才能变成英雄 总会有一篇我的传说

我不好也不坏 不特别出众 我只是敢不同
我的人生就是一错再错 错完了再重头
也许放弃掉一些 活得更轻松 我却不再是我
我不愿一生晒太阳吹风 咸鱼也要有梦

我没有任何天分 我却有梦的天真
我是傻不是蠢 我将会证明用我的一生

我如果有梦 有没有错 错过才会更加明白 明白坚持是什么
我如果有梦 梦要够疯 够疯才能变成英雄 总会有一篇我的传说


你们了解我为何喜欢五月天吗？
看了歌词有特别的感觉吗？
我有。。。
他们那生活化的歌词
我非常喜欢。。。
不像那些你爱我 我爱你 的歌词
而是唱到我心里去的歌词
咸鱼是我非常喜欢的歌
但他们有更多很好听的歌
让你慢慢欣赏。。。

个人推荐：
-疯狂世界 （我好想好想飞 逃离这个疯狂世界。。。）
-心中尚未崩溃的地方
-憨人
-放肆
- 终结孤单
-笑忘歌
-春天的呐喊

Of course there are love songs that are nice... I might just put portion of these lyrics at the right side of my blog.... HOHOH... ok...

Ok... this is abit over liaoz... But the only reason I like MAYDAY is because I think their song lyrics are damn interesting... Sick and tired of Love songs... so their songs sure make in hit in me... =S

Oh... If you read the papers... JJ LIN, STEF SUN, TANYA CHUA and A-DO sang a song for the Singapore Expo Hall in ShangHai (i suppose) called 感动每一刻. Erm... According to the papers, this song is suppose to 鼓励 and 加油... but... it sound to me like a love song... and... although I know the expo is in CHINA.... but... I don't think there is a need to make the song 中国风 you know... but they did say one thing correctly... catchy chorous... :) but the 4 Singers 默契 not very good :( Show you the video :)



That's all for today :)
PS: STEF is gorgeous... Tanya looks abit... ADO looks suitable being a contractor... HOHOH... and is JJ a tourist photographer??? LOL... I shall not comment on JJ cause I would be bias... btw... anyone knows why on earth is he in Singapore this coming sunday??? My guess... Transfer plane from Melbourne... shun bian go home and see family and get together with friends...

CAUTION: THIS IS GOING TO BE A SUPER LONG POST... ;)

Well... 2 weeks since I updated my blog... Yet there is so many things that happened in this two week period... :) So this is going to be a super long post...

To start off... Work.. My second and third week of work is ok... But this week is totally difficult to pull though due to the accumulated lack of sleep due to Chalet and OSIM... Like I always tell people... I used to wake up at 10am but now I need to wake up 3 hrs earlier... Then you go to work and stare at the computer looking at the same thing over and over again... It's pretty boring you see... But I am pretty statisfied with my job to be honest... I am not going to complain about it anyway... except for me still not having any friends to have lunch with... So lonely :( Not that I don't want to make friends but just that the people there are already in cliques and there is an age gap between us... And being a SUPER big department... It's normal that you will make friends with people around your area first... And you know what... People around my area can just live with air... Yup...they are THIS busy... And also because I am a total introvert lahx... :( And coming to think of it... For the past 1 week, I haven't been to Q&M... Cause I gave my sessions @ boonlay to QIN and told JE I not going this wed and then kena sacked by JP... yup... But next week going to work at JE on WED and SAT... So I am still an active worker in Q&M :)

Next, OSIM. OSIM was... .... .... SUPER HOT! Why does everyone have a shade to hide in yet I don't! Well... not really lahx... I do have a shade... But the shade is across the road... and if I stand there... I might as well not marshal... Cause the cyclist won't be about to see me... yup... So my only shade is the shadow of trees... But by 10 or 11am... the shadow went to the track... and out of my reach... SO I am the most burnt out of all... Anyway... the ELite race is super cool :) Got wind blow past one lehx... Haha... And stupid me... Went barefooted on the road cause I don't want to have slipper tan lines on my feet (but in the end I still have) and got a huge blister... RAHHH.... So I bought a bai ka to chalet... Yup... Haha...

Dead, tired and burnt out... I went to chalet... You know... I still work from 9 to 9 at Clementi on Sat... The chalet was... .... Urm... Yah... BBQ? Failed... YOu don't know how much I was lookng forward for the BBQ... Activities? Do they even have? Haha... Watch Hairspay.... This is the very first time I watched TV during a chalet.... went bowling but alleys are full... went pool but tables are full... so ended up going to arcade... WAHSEH... I found a super NICE game to play... but it's also SUPER ex... 2 bucks per game... but got 3 stage... It's called JUBEAT :) VERY VERY FUN... I was laughing like mad when jiawei and veron was playing... haha... Being tired and burnt out... I wanted to sleep... So I slept but they are playing cards and so damn noisy... and I woke up and scolded them :X... Didn't meant to... But I really wanted to sleep... Second day... huimin and the others left before me... cause I wanted to cycle... Yanting also don't want to leave early... but... After lunch... the two couples actually went back to SLEEP!!! Haiz... Played Mahjiong with Alf and wenhui... While veron and jiawei slept... haiz... I should have known it and left with Huimin they all... but I don't want to go home early... :( Then alf actually played mahjong until he sleep... *roll eye* Yah... Then actually me and yanting wanted to take the 6 pm bus but missed it and ended up taking the 7pm one... :) Anyway... Yanting is a super nice person to talk with =D

Then yesterday... MAYDAY concert! MAYDAY! MAYDAY! MAYDAY!!!!

WOOTS!!! Nice... but not worth the money :( I freaking spent 171 bucks and then get blocked by 2 super tall guys from I don't know where... It's was a phew that my height is above average there... if not i might just resort to looking at the screen... People from I don't know where... But definitely behind us... came infront during the concert... because there are gaps between rows for convinience purpose... But these people simply just ran infront during the concert and block my view... SUPER 不爽！If not I could get a very good view while sitting!!! Then due to having 2 stage, they sometimes go to the second stage and then this people will run to the back... Then be and QIN and the two girls infront simply stand at the middle blocking them from coming back.... Yet they are super good at squeezing their way through... should pick up rugby and block the hell out of them... It's super unfair where you are sitting behind us and yet you come to the front blocking our view... and they still got the cheek to ask if they can go infront (this are the more polite ones some simply just squeeze their way through) I am very very tempted to write a letter of complaint... They should cordon off the area... But yes... it's very high... I was sweating like mad on a cool night... And they are also sweating like mad... until MASA simply just take the towel and ruffle his hair like he his drying his hair after a shower... Everyone is sweating like mad lahx... And they said they were very happy at first that they can get the concert outdoor... but they are regretting abit because it's too hot... they never thought it's going to be this hot... Haha... They said that the past few concerts they did it indoor and they want to rock the rooftop of indoor stadium off... now they don't have a roof... they want to rock SHE's rooftop off... HAha... no lahx... :) They rock... MAYDAY really rock the house until the floor was vibrating non-stop...yah.... EarthQUAKE!!! haha... Yet... a super gross thing... remember standard chartered? History repeated itself yesterday... MUD engulfed my shoe.... GROSS!!!!

Oh... and Veron... Do you remember the lady that gave us a name card during NTU open house while we are taking the bus to clementi? The club or society is there as urshers... But I didn't see the lady lahx... I was already thinking of joining the club if I get myself into NTU... but now... I am more tempted to... C'mon man! Mayday concert lehx... and maybe other events too :)
And one interesting thing... While we are queing up to by some concert soviniers, my mum called... And you know she said? She asked if the concert is cancelled.... I was like ??? why would it be cancelled? No rain, no thunder, no lighting... everything looks super fine to me... So I told her no... no one mentioned about cancelling concert and there are hell lots of people queing everywhere... Then she said my dad said it's cancelled... So i thought he heard it on radio or news or something... But in the end he said... Mayday called up his company to get people down to fix the generator and I think borrow the generator cause it's not working... Without a generator... you can never get a concert done... Anyway... everything went smoothly afterall... even though there are some technical faults... Yup...

One more thing... you guys won't believe who I saw yesterday man... Cause I was leaving in a hurry, i didn't manage to take a picture with her :( My sis friend is like waiting outside for us... I saw Ms Chew Xin-Wei... Econs Chew... In a Mayday concert?????????? Well... At least she now looks super healthy to me... Good thing... good thing.... And I saw her... I suppose boyfriend... Haha... Haiz... too bad I didn't manage to take a pic with her... :(

Although they say they want to sing later than SHE and yet they didn't. Although they say that they wouldn't allow us to go unless we are totally drenched in sweat but they didn't. But...

queing on and forever to get into the stadium :)

Check out the stage! The LCD is very the small... Haha..

Not of good quality too...

Blue Light Stick :) Very nice in a night when everyone is using it :)

During the concert... Was concentrating on watching the concert

So I didn't take much pics... :)

Check out MAYDAY's version of bumble-bee :)

MAYDAY... KEEP ROCKING ON!

PS: I can't believe it took me 2 hours to write this post...

My first day to work was... OK... but I could understand my friends feeling on a peak hour bus or train... Haha...

Woke up at freaking 6.15 in the morning... And realised I was too early for work when I reached there... Diaoz... 6.15am is earlier than school wake up time for me... Zzz... So... Jurong being pretty inacessible... I had to walk to Lakeside MRT station... Take the freaking squeezy train to Clementi and then rush (like a typical Singapore Auntie) to board the 183 into Science Park... I almost got 'kiap' but the bus door can... LOL.... and when I alighted... I found out that I didn't tap my card... -_-''' So I hitched a free ride to work on the first day!

Reached there, found my way by directly asking the info counter... And time check... 8.20am.... i am suppose to report at 8.45... So I went to their cafeteria and stone... 8.45 went back and then the HR person... Made me wait until 9 plus cause she was caught in a jam... Rah... You know... time=money??? Hence, by the time I was introduced to the finance department, it was like... 10am?

My first impression of my supervisor is 'Office Politics' He simply looks like some person who would stab you on the back one day... Phew... I am just a temp staff... Got briefed on what to do and ya-da ya-da.... I got a table of my own! :) Eh... forgot to mention... when I walked into the finance department, my thoughts were... 'Pri school staff room' and the whoel department was using Excel.... Not suprising... So I got a table with my name--> not really my table... Cause the table I was supposed to be at was stacked with A4 papers and files... So they just dump me to a table... and a personal Laptop... :)

Then... Cause the work i was suppose to do is not in YET.... the person got me something to do... And for that whole of yesterday.... I was revising Econs (international trade i suppose)... with current accounts, financial statements, credit risk appearing... I was like... Hmm... so this is where Econs is of good use... Yup... and numbers and more numbers.... Rah.... I would never wanna be an accountant in my life man...

Then... I was supposed to leave at 5.45 as stated in the contract... but I left the place at 6.20! And my dad was supposed to drive me to work... but... due to our lack of communication... He was waiting for me at Science Park 1 and I am at Science Park 2! So we were arguing on the phone and I was screaming saying that the bus stop only has 183 and he was screaming his bus stop only has bus 92. In the end... I gave up and decided to take a taxi down... Actually it's my fault that I gave him the wrong add... Instead of 61 science park road... I gave him 71 science park road... BUT i did told him that I am in Science Park II.... rah....

So... I flagged a taxi at peak hour... I am pretty lucky to be able to get one is quite a short time... Cause you know that area pretty ulu and taxis don really go there lahx... And then by the time I board the freakinf cab... it's already 6.45... And what time was I suppose to reach the clinic? 6.30pm.... 完了！But also lucky for me... The AYE wasn't Jammed and I managed to reach the clinic at 7 pm... Thanks to the cab uncle rushing his way and drive pass an orange light(hope he didn't get fined by doing that)... Then when I reached, the doc still not here yet... Phew.... But even if I am late, the doc won't care lahx... but just that my supervisor will eruption... :X


That's the end of my chaotic day on April FOoL...

Afterall... The job was pretty ok... At least I wasn't thinking about why the time is crawling or wanting to go home... but I felt like I was in antartica and feeling sleepy...

Oh... And today... I read this book or brochure i got from my letter box and it reminded me of Huimin telling me about this global warming chapter she read in Freakonomics... Carbon Dioxide is NOT the only gas that is causing global warming! And even if we cut down CO2 emission, it would not help much as predicted or told... What we need to cut down is METHANE gas which traps 74times more heat than Carbon Dioxide... and is abundant in Agricultural sector... Like your pig, cow, goat, chicken...

So... if you really want to make a difference in global warming and save the earth, Eat further down the food chain (or rather just eat the producers which are our plants). Turn Vegetarian. But if you are a meat lover like me... You might just try cutting down meat intake alittle by a little... I am planning to eat vegetarian 3 times a week... See whether can tahan anot... HAha... Oh... and the book say you will get good Karma too... by not killing animals... Which I think it's pretty rubbish... haha... eh... The book also said something like... If the whole world start eating vegetarian, the world condition would improve in 60 days... That's like SO FAST!

Tennis is fun. But it is also as tiring... Went for sports session at RP on Monday and came back with a sun burn... It's like a pretty long time since I had a sun-burn, BUT the game was damn fun. Next time if you wanna play tennis, try it out with the elastic ball first... It beats playing with a real human being because you would end up picking up balls, believe me... Playing with an elastic one is good in a way that how much strenght you place on the ball is how much strength you get back... and you don have to pick up balls... So me and my sis had this mini squash session using a tennis elastic... it's pretty fun but tiring... damn tiring... imagine hitting balls for hours and in the after 10am sun...

We played basketball after that... by then the 12pm sun is really burning and I couldn't take it anymore... so we ended and went for a wash-up. TIRED... it was like so hot that when I came out of the shower I was already starting to sweat... then... 好死不死... when we left, it starting raining... I need to go bugis for the contract... so I took the train... and came out of bugis to see RAINING CATS AND DOGS! So went to get money to take cab. Then super sway, cannot get cab, and then called up the office and told them I would be late. Another 15mins later, get fed up and called up again to ask if there is any sheltered walkway... But when I reach there, the rain has lessen so much that i just decide to walk in the rain to SHAW tower... reach the office, 狼狈的样子... I think I left a bad first impression... so signed contract and throw my bombs (but didn't manage to get the type of ans that I was looking for) and then decided to skip work for the night... Haiz... One hour so sunny like going to melt, another hour rain like mad and so humid... WHAT'S WRONG WITH THE WEATHER NOWADAYS!

Yesterday, I woke up aching all over... and my legs felt like thet weigh a thousand tons... my leg feels like it does not belong to me... HAHA... I was like dragging it while I walk... and come to think of it, the last time I had this kind of serious aches is after a demonous netball training in Sec school... and my arms are also aching like some shit lah... I can't even lift my arms (after effect of a long tennis game). BUT... It's really fun... TENNIS.

Tomorrow is first day of work... HONEST... I am very excited... Cause I am working for a land, estate company which I suppose i cannot tell the name (according to the contract) and this might be a good chance to see if I would really wanna do Project Facilities Management in NUS... :)

即期待又害怕受伤害...

FINALLY!
I got my blogskin out.... Hmm... Although not very nice... BUT at least its a good first try I think!
Well... How do you guys think about my new skin?

Anyway... Actually I am just trying out my typing speed... haha... Cause I went to an interview and the person actually asked me how fast I type... And I replied pretty fast... Now coming to think of it... I don't really type fast... HAHA... I can type fast... but will have hell lots of typo... Diaoz... Beat the purpose.... HAHA.... While in case you guys don't know... I got myself another job! Whee.... Although it's pretty impromtu and it makes people wonder is this some april fool joke... but I think I will be fine for that job... just 2 months and you will have cash raining in your bank... HAHAA.... While... As to details... I am not sure too... I think I am going down to sign the contract like tomorrow? Anyone has any advise to what i should look out for? And wait till I am truely sure that I am not an April's fool... I shall wait till I start work before boosting on and on about my 'to-be' work... HAHA...

Anyway... I think I am going to be a very problematic employee... Cause I got the dental job that I don't i will be quitting... you know... I still need income in june and when school reopens especially if i wanna stay in a hostel... So I was thinking of negotiating with the person... Will I get chopped for this? then work one week and I have a class chalet... so have to take 1 or 2 days off.... better not take the risk of getting fired on my first day... so if she is unwilling to give me a leave which is highly possible... I might just skip the class chalet... NOOOOOO!!!! I wanna go! Sobs.... Super sian...

Hmm... Should I add an event calendar here? Hmm.... not that I will read anyway.... Well then I shall not... But i can update you guys so that you won waste your message...

030410: Work @ clementi
040410: ShaoMu
100410: Work @clementi
110410: OSIM international Triathlon
120410: Class Chalet @ Parsir Ris
130410: Class Chalet@ Parsir Ris
170410: MAYDAY concert

so... no time no time... Maybe April is going to be the month I really get a great taste of how life is like... BUSY... 充实的生活:)

AND.... I missed JJ's auto or rather 背对背拥抱+拍照会 and JJ PARTY @ SCAPE... strictly speaking... not miss... just that I chose not to go... Like I say... i am no crazy FAN of his... 纯粹的欣赏... but also cause nobody wanna go with me... Sobbbssss.....

Well... That's all.... I just wanna give my typing skills and speed a test... but i think it barely make the mark... LOL.... And if anyone loves my blogskin... I am willing to share... you can get the template from me.... which i don't think anyone will like... But if anyone thinking of doing your own skin... I could help... 一回生二回熟嘛！哈哈...

Beiyii is currently doing a personal project...
Hence she wouldn't be updating her blog during this period of time...
She hopes she could finish this project by 20th March...
Until then...
Unless it's important or too interesting a stuff...
She wouldn't be updating her blog...

尽请期待... A brand new look :)
I am such a spoiler... :(
HAHA

I remember last year I was doing a GP paper (forgot the school name) and there is this question.

"Why are we learning history when it keeps repeating itself?" At that time I thought that's a pretty cool and interesting question. Now... it's even more intersting for I am the one experiencing the scenario.

I am too fickle-minded a person that I hardly like to make any choices especially important choices... But life is all about choices... Like what my love always likes to say... The choice is yours... I remember barely 3 months ago... I was so insistent that I want to take up physiotherapy... I WAS so insistent... I don't give a damn what my friends and teachers said about a poly education after A's... And physiotherapy was actually the goal that keeps pushing me throughout the two years in my JC life... As you know... People work for a goal... And my goal... WAS a scholarship in Physiotherapy... That WAS my goal all along since I graduated from JVS... That WAS my goal... I want to be a allied health professional...

Noticed that I used WAS? Because... Now... It isn't... Maybe because I had too much time to settle and think about optimistic and pessimistic views of my all along goal... This goal started to lose it's stand last year, I noticed... While my friends are busy surfing uni websites for their courses... I was so determined and told them... I am taking physiotherapy in NYP... I have no intention at all to take up any uni courses for god's sake... Some gave me a why-do-you-want-to-go-poly face... while the more understanding ones would say... just go with your interest... This goal or dream stood rooted through my JC 1 and half way through JC2... It started to shake... Not literally of course...

About aug (I only noticed until then), suddenly... I felt the need to open up to alternatives... I cannot just put my head into a hole and not care about the outside... if you know I meant... and it strucked me that my parents did not know about me wanting to go poly... Usually they don't interfere with my life or the choice I make... but they clearly wanted me to get into a Uni... Then... I felt the need to open up... physiotherapy may be what you wanted... but not what you really want... people's preference and interest changes.... yours may also change... That's what I told myself... But back then... all that was in my mind was A levels A levels and A levels... maybe because I lost my goal in life... I had no mood or no motivation to study... Everything went into the immunity stage... Coming to think of the post-prelim period where I have totally no motivation to study... everyday seems to be a great torture... everyday I need to force myself to do TYS, tutorials read my notes... It wasn't like the past where I sometimes like to study... I like to do my tutorials... the post-prelim period... everything was forced... it wasn't voluntary... it might be because I lost my north-star... I lost my direction... my goal... People are driven by a goal... When they lost it... it's hard to be motivated...

After the As.... of course I have hell lots of time to sit and think, think and think and let my imagination run wild... Then... I noticed a fear in me... I like risk-taking people... but I am not a risk-taker... I am a typical 保守singaporean... It strucked me... What if I regret halfway through my course? Being in such a specific course... it's not easy to turn away as compared to if you have a general degree... Won't I be living in hell? Being too late to turn back and no point going forward.. what if I regret? I was surprised... I never thought I would regret taking up physiotherapy... I always thought that was what I really want in life... That's the job i want... That was how much passion I HAD... I don't know what factors caused it to change... caused it's standing in my heart to change... but it did... it really did... It became a choice... Not a dream...

I was lost and confused... I didn't get good results to start off with... So... There wasn't many uni courses that I am able to get into... I talked to my sec sch teacher... I talked to my cousin... I talked to my doctor (yes... to that extend) I tried to get the correct and more sounding advises... And Miss Chua and My cousin made the most sense out of everything... They together cleared the mist totally... Everything became clear... I decided not to take up physio... Not because I no longer have passion for it... but it's because I am afriad of regret... You cannot afford to regret... And being 18... looking beyond what's in front of you is what you should be doing... and being 18... you might someday change your goal in life again... you are barely 1/4 through life...

What do I really want? I want to look into the future... My future...

我相信上天是公平的
它会给你机会
但只是一次机会
因为它需要给太多人机会了
它很忙
它不会在意你有没有把握这机会
只要它有给你就是了
当它给了你机会你却没把握
那你要等很久之后机会才会再来到你身边

我两年前得到了我的机会
但却没有好好的把握
我希望它会再来
但我知道机会渺茫


我是一个悲观的人
绝对不是那种你说一两句我就能放下我的忧郁
这让我更害怕某天的来临
在我还没有完全认识恐怖的自己之前
我真的害怕某天的到来
而那某天即将来临
我感觉到了恐怖的自己即将重生
虽然答应了自己不要再让那野兽出现
但我害怕我控制不了我飘浮不定的情绪

我想控制这支野兽
但我时间不多了
我不知道我到底做不做的到

但你们可以放下千万颗心
我是不会有事的
因为我是个窝囊废
连该有的勇气都没有
所以即使野兽出现
我并不会怎样
只是会有那种念头

但如果我突然有了勇气
请你们不要生气
不要伤心
不要担心
因为那毕竟是我‘选择’的路

Dr Raymond Lim is a pretty nice guy...:) But he is abit like wad JinZhao said... Sort sort one... Yesterday was the first time i met him... but he treated us to food and drinks... That's ok cause Mdm Seetoh does that too... But he even help me with SAP and CAP.... And this stupid me thought that staff needs to pay money... but in the end.... no need.... I always thought it's special discount or something like that lahx.... Yah lolx...

And yesterday I found out that I got 4 decayed tooth! OMG!!!! I brush everyday can!!! And I thought it was just a normal SAP but in the end he also help me with a CAP... Yah... 4 decayed tooth! 晴天霹雳! it's not that I don't brush... and I got gums inflamation lehx... Phew... it's a good thing i let him do a check up... if not all my teeth is going to die liao... next time you see me in dentures... HAHA....

Anyway... Dr Raymond is very nice doctor.... he was joking throughout and we did chat... haha... Not much doctor chat with their staff... and yesterday was the first time I assited the doctor cause the dental assistant was on the chair doing the SAP... and one thing 手忙脚乱.... I don't know all the things and any thing... haha... I think that leaves a bad impression of me for him.... haha...

So I came back and told my sis this doctor is abit of over-friendly... and then her comment was... not friendly you also complain... over friendly you also complain.... hahah.... I think I am a complain queen.... WHeee.... I hope to see him again... and this time maybe thank him in a more sincre way... cause I only said a thank you yesterday for the much he do.... HAHA...

New Year wasn't as bad as i thought it would be... but something unbelievable is that I fell asleep in my grandma house... haha... while listening to Mayday's song... Can you believe? It's mayday's song!! They are suppose to be high and rock... I think I was really tired that day... haha... then day 2 I went to my uncle house... and then watch the 百万小学堂... I was like OMG! I can't even answer simple questions... haha... No face man... A-level graduate leh.... Cannot ans pri school questions... Sobs... I need to start eating up my books... Haha... Jk lahx... But it's time to start the engines going... :)

Oh... did I mention before my nephew is damn cute? I find him cuter this time round I saw him... Baby Nathaniel (I supposed its spelt like that) I shall put the pics up next post which is like donno when... HAHAHA! My niece also very cute... But she is not photogenic and I realise that Grace(my niece) looks like Kerning(my doctor's daugther) and Grace seldom talk... But when she talk her voice is damn cute! Kids mahx... Haha... And she don't cry... Cause that time at my grandma house... the dad call her go take drink for him... then she take the wrong one... the everyone around the table was like OOOOO.... then she immediately run to the father and hug him... if it's other kids i think cry liao... she is like only 2... haha... Back to Nathaniel.... He looks totally like his dad.... but much cuter version... and he looks like he walked out of some cartoon.... he got a very cartoon face... and he like to stick his tongue out(DAMN CUTE!) So day 2 i was busy taking pic of him... but i didn't manage to get ANY pic with him looking at the camera!!! Everytime I snap.. he turn away... haha... also because my camera is slow... zzzzz.....

Ok... My purpose for today's post.... Make a guess... well.... I said I won't blog about work cause it's full of complains... and I just met one 2 days ago... if you wanna know and hear me talk on and on... you can ask me out of a lunch or a dinner... But you must be quick... cause I will forget about the incident soon... recently have dementia symptoms... Haha...

Yah... Purpose... I always talk on and on without getting straight to point I found out... haha.... the first paragraph is usually not my main topic... LOL.... THIS IS NOT GP!!! Diaoz.... Ok Ok.... Purpose of this post... I am putting a video here... That's all! Haha... No need to make a guess wad video you guys should also know lahx... Who else's video would I put up here... Haha...

Here it goes....



Eh... This is a disgrace as a fan... but till now then I know that JJ's Sirname is LIM and not LIN.... although I have always thought it was LIM cause not alot of ppl in singapore with sirname 林 spelt as LIN more are LIM or LAM.... yah.... So... There is also a period of time I am wondering if his sir name was LAM.... But the WAYNE I knew it all along... It was in his IC. Not that I've seen it before... But I just know lahx... Wayne is his registered name.... So now I know that his sirname is splet as LIM... I am wondering... How his name is spelt.... LIM JUNJIE? LIM CHUNKIAT? --> You know... Ppl of his era don't use han yu pin yin... Ok... Wait... Why am I wondering all this lameo things???

And I feel like buying his gai ban... I shouldn't have bought the first one... I know I would regret... but I just don't want to download his songs illegally and I can't wait until now lahx... Haiz... and the gai ban one look so attractive.... Sobs... Should I buy? oh... and can some one accompany me to his auto session? I want his signature.... the last time I got is was like... 2005? or 2006... I can't even remember.... WAHHHAAAA....

I know i said barely one week ago that I won't update my blog on work cause it's all going to be complains... But this time I can't help it... I would never ever wanna work sat at JE branch anymore... Kaoz... Is busy until pi pi cua lah.... Haiz... and the person there the face like just came out from a toilet full of shit can... I don't like her the moment she opened her mouth.... Hmm... Now I know how first impression of someone works... But I am not going to swear here that I won't work JE sat... cause No.1 I am going next sat (hope it is going to be the last sat) and there might be days in the future that I have no choice... I am not going to accept anymore saturday work with 3 doctors!!!

Anyway... I donno why is there a sudden urge to blog about this particular incident... Yah... I think I too bored liao... And I bought a new shoe!!! WHeeee.... it's flats... Is ppl's jaws dropping? Haha... don think so lahx... But i can see the 女大18变effect on me now... NOOOOOO..... Cause this year my CNY clothes are all dress and skirt.... OMG! *Faints*

Hmm... I am not here to update about my life recently... cause it's just work and play... Muahhhahaa.... Unless you want to hear about my complains on patients am doctors... Yah lahx... I don't think anyone wants lahx...

So... My motive... I am embbing a vedio here... instead next time I wanna watch cannot find... recently the vedios I wanna watch I can't find on youtube... zzzz.... yup... It's a pretty nice video (my personal view lah) and pretty hilarious... and its not hard to guess whose video I am putting up here... lalalalala... :D

Last Sunday (31 Jan 2010) was JY & Candyce's wedding. Don't know who they are? It's ok... Cause they are not the reason why I post this video up anyway... haha... So during their wedding.... A special guest send then a well wishes video clip and then suddenly appear at the place shocking the newly-weds. The groom was like crying non-stop... And the special guest... is SO KAWAIIIIIII..... in the clip =DDDD






I like the first one particularly... Cause I think you would never see him sooo... lame (not really the word lah) and the 经典expressions... I like the part where he tell JY: Be a man.. More man than me.... ******** then he ask the person filming 那天会有媒体吗? Then the person was like 当然!!! After that his expression damn funny... Actually... you can actually read his lips to what he was saying in the censored part... :) I shall not write it here... But I know what he said... Muahhahaa.... I first time I saw these video I was smiling non-stop... (I wasn't laughing out loud LOL) Oh... there's a comment on youtube saying... Since he say cannot put... why is it here... -_-''' Anyway... I think I am going to be the only one getting excited watching this video anyway... LALALALA....

But if this type suprise happens during my wedding I think I will cry like some tap water lahx... diaox... maybe not... who knows... wait till my wedding bells ring then... haha... JJ is so sweet towards his friends... :)

ONe more thing... I think I must be mad man.... working like shit and hell and got my pay... THEN... I went to buy MAYDAY CONCERT TICKETS... 我的头壳坏掉了! I think I must be mad.... $168!!!! 贵死了！贵死了！Luckily I got some subsidies from my sis (who is the 罪魁祸首）that in the end I only pay 120... but still alot of money nia!!! I think last week I fever until my brain burn until I become sotong already... throw my hard-earn money away... sobbsss....

I remember listing out a number of things to do after A-levels... But i barely done half of it... I am too lazy.... but at least I got a job... beats rotting at home... but my pay is damn miserable... So... I was complaining to Veron about it... and then she was like... what for you wanna work so much? We work now is to kill time, you are not trying to earn as much money as you can now you know... this period may be the last time you can actually sit down relax and enjoy the day... Alf said the same thing too... hmm... but i am enjoying too much that recently, my thoughts keep running wild... I really need things to do to divert that attention... :(

And that topic is some thing i don't wish to think or talk about until march... you guys should know what is it for I know that I am not going to be happy that day... And recently while mass applying for jobs, ppl call and assumed that I can work until july... they are not wrong... but the more call on this I pick up... I can't help but think... where do I really want to go for the next phase of my journey...

I have always insisted that I want to be a physiotherapist... but I am not closed to any other options... just because physiotherapy is a diploma course... I spoke to my mum about it... but she dosen't seems to like the idea of me going to poly... neither do my friends... some think it's ok... some think it's a waste of time... so now... I am really stuck between choices.... I don't want to make anymore regretting choices... I don't want people to influence my choice... but now I am really messed up... to this particular question that many calls I pick up recently never fail to ask.

"When can you work until?"

Should I say April... or should I say June??? What should I say? This may sound pretty lame to many... but to me... it's 矛盾

我的矛盾 你了解吗？
我不想再做让我后悔的选择
我不想再让痛苦卷土重来

DO YOU UNDERSTAND WHAT AM I FEELING NOW??

Anyway... I actually only wanted to talk about my shoe... Complaining before I talk about my main subject seems to be a routine for blogging... anyway... Yup... shoe.... I WANNA BUY A HIGH CUT SHOE!!! Anyone got lobang? or know where you can get high-cut sneakers of reasonable price? You know... I am not trying to buy a brand... I am just trying to buy a shoe of good quality... so ppl... please don't tell my converse... for I think... for the case of converse... I am buying their brand... not their quality... So... I e-mailed SMG.... they have high-cut sneakers by greedt genius... but it sells freakingly at SGD135!!! OMG... I am not buying gold... anyway... even if I want... they wouldn't have my size... cause they only sell men's size UK9-12... my feet not that big lah....

Oh yah.... I just found out yesterday... JJ Lin clubs@ REBEL!!! (Shocking) Haha... REBEL was the club or bar or I donno what that we went the other day... the dance floor is a cage... haha... No wonder REBEL rings a bell in my head... Now I know why I find then REBEL logo so familiar... :)

Sometimes I tend to regret taking up the job at Q&M... Cause the working hours make it difficult for me to look for another job... Yes. I do like that job cause it's pretty manual and although the pay isn't good, but as I have been saying, I work not because I wanna earn money (well... not piority) but is to earn work exprience. So pay dosen't really matter to me as long as I am sure that I am not underpaid... yup...

But now that Q&M work really walk into Ad-hoc basic... (PS: I only work mon and thurs this week!!!) I feel that it time to look for another job... then I realised that I can't cause the working hours cannot come into terms... most office hours ends at 6 but my work at Q&M starts at 6. I don't know how to teleport you see... yup... so now i have became a half 事业人士...

Haiz... and due to my principles and other factors, I am unwilling to give up the job at Q&M although I don't really like the Dr and staff there... but this is just part and parcel of the working society... so... I am quite fustrated at this moment... I have been on job central for the past two days but no one called back and there is not much jobs that I can make an agreement with both sides....

Also, I wanna volunteer at SGH but now that our card is changed to adult fare, going down to SGH with my miserable pay from Q&M, I find it very bo hua leh... so if i could find a job by this week, I will volunteer myself at SGH. If not... I can try to think of other ways bahx...

说一声加油一切更美好
所有的悲伤请往边靠
曾流过的泪
湿了伤口就让
阳光嗮干而褪

这一种加油人人都需要
手牵手我们一起赛跑
说好不见不散
每分每秒守候你到老

歌名：加油！
作词人：林俊杰
作曲人：林俊杰

这首歌送给所有需要加油的朋友 加油！GAMBATTE!

btw, this is not the full song... it's the chorus only... Anyway... ppl you should listen to JJ's new album 100days.... Cause this is the first time I like the whole album of a singer, all the songs (except one song lah... make a guess which one) and I think it's a very well done album. 不亏是经过挫折后的产品:))

Anyway, don't know where to listen the songs? It's right here in my blog... see that i donno what on the left hand side of this post below my profile? click them... you can get a sneak preview of his songs... if not, you can go youtube, haoting, or wadever music channels you have... 一张值得期待 不辜负众望 的完美专辑。

林俊杰- 100天 加油!

Argh! I just missed the opportunity to earn a 1.5 times pay just because I forgot tml is FRIDAY!!! I keep thinking that tml is SAT and I am going sentosa tml... ZZzzzz.... Thanks lah... There goes my pay...

Anyway... It's new year's eve... I shall blog about happy events instead of angry ones... haha... this year... I am counting down at home... that's pretty pathetic... but somehow... as I grow older... festive seasons dosen't mean as much as before... In the past... if someone forgets my birthday... I might be quite sad... and I remember it's very silly of me one year that my family could not get a cake for my birthday and I cried... -_-''' Now... even if anyone forgets my birthday... I find it ok... no cake? Fine... haha... Same goes for chinese new year... in the past new year always means new clothes and pretty dress... but now... the rxn would be... New Year? Huh... have to go shopping again... haiz... Same goes for new year... in the past i use to love count down... but now... 3, 2, 1! Happy new year.... *handshake* *a hug* say goodbye... yah...

回顾这一段完美的人生（2009):

今年不是我风光的一年
走过大大小小的路
经历大大小小的挫折
至今有些还无法平复
当然的
今年也因为不风光
所以也让我看到了自己的软弱
自己不为人知的一面
我做了一个自己在从前都觉得自己不会是的那种人

2009 给了我一上了一个宝贵的人生课
让我感觉在今年以前 我都活在自己的世界里
自己那完美的世界里

2009 让我犯了人类的七大罪名
Extravagance （奢华）
Greed (贪污）
Acedia （忽略）
Despair （不满）
Warth (愤怒）
Envy （嫉妒）
Pride （自尊）

以前我不在乎奢华享受
只想安安分分的过日子
虽然觉得我拥有的不多
但不觉得缺了什么
但现在不一样了
我想要的我会想办法得到
明明不缺什么
但想要更多
名牌货 看上眼了
冒牌货 歧视了
可能是因为长大了吧

贪污 我可能改善了吧
我没有以前那样贪污的念头
嗯 这是好事
也应该是我今年唯一的好事

我今年忽略的人实在太多了
明知道被忽略的感觉是什么
但还是无法不经意的忽略了别人
现在关系僵了
话也无从说起
那句我一直想说的道歉也说不出口了
我忽略了家人的关心感受
我忽略了朋友对我的好意

今年我不满的事情实在太多了
说个两天也说不完吧
我不满家人对我的不了解
但现在我知道他们才是最了解我的人
我不满朋友对我的忽略
但现在的我知道她们并没有想要这么做
她们并不是没有敞开胸怀的接受我
而是我自己没有敞开胸怀的接受她们

今年令我愤怒的事情也很多
我愤怒自己不重用
愤怒自己的愚蠢 自己的自私
我愤怒家人对我没有信心
愤怒他们这样的贬低我

我不相信人没有嫉妒心
以前的我 有嫉妒心 但是良性的嫉妒
今年的我 也有嫉妒心 但是恶性的
我今年的嫉妒心真的让我看清楚我邪恶的那一面
那样恐怖的我 我是第一次看见
这嫉妒让我觉得我很坏 很邪恶
我不想再面对着样的我了
它让我觉得以前的我根本就在演戏
让我觉得真正的我不是善良 好相处
而是邪恶有动机 随时会在你背后捅你一刀的那种人
我真的无法相信我既然会是这一种人

每个人都有自尊 我当然也有
我今年因该没犯这样的罪吧
有也不记得了

所以2009
我虽然痛恨这一年
因为它带给我的痛苦很难忍受
但我也要感谢2009
它让我看清我的世界不是只有我一个
我的世界不是完美无缺
它让我看清我并不单纯
让我上了宝贵的课

不要再见了2009
也谢谢你给我18年一帆风顺的人生起一个波浪 让我在踏入社会之前感受到低潮 挫折 无助 的时候

GOODBYE 2009!!
WELCOME 2010!!

我想和吴慧敏 卢家慧 梁诗韵 曾庆文 胡立轩做永远的好朋友！我2010年唯一的愿望！

I am BACK from Thailand! Haha... It wasn't as fun as i expected it to be... but overall... it was ok... Pics... I am debating again whether i should put it on facebook or blogger... I tried on blogger and the freaking com... disconnected.... so... I didn't manage to post some of the pics here... You guys would be shocked how clear the water is man... haha... i shall post it another day then... then i tell you my journey to thailand... haha...

Anyway... I had a pleasant surprise on departure day (17/12)... Make a guess who I saw in Changi Airport on departure? I saw an artiste... I hope it's JJ.... but too bad... he wasn't.... haha... But i do somehow... like them... is a them... 2 person to be specific... haha.... Anyway... I don't think anyone will care who i saw lahx... But I am just happy that this is the first time I saw an international artiste in the airport... Haha... Oh yah... I haven't say who I saw... I saw 2 members of Fahrenheit... Arron Yan and Jiro Wang (I suppose it's Jiro cause my subconcious tells me it's calvin).... Yup... No idea why they are in Singapore... but they are leaving for Taiwan... It's purely coincidental that i saw them... and it's my mum who saw two suspicious looking character and ask me if it's them... lol... if not i think i will just walk pass them without noticing... Then my mum suggested to take photo with them... actually I want... but I don dare... cause it's like so damn 丢脸 lahx... I also donno why i will feel embarassed... Haha... then I told my sis when we came back and she ask... even if you really wanna take pic with them... do you think they will accept? Coming to think of it... Well... maybe not... haha...

So this is my pleasant surprise i had on departure day.... Haha... my trip to thailand.... next post together with pics bah.... :)

Then after the trip... I went back to work... announced the end of my training... which means that now I am only working night shift 6-9 and it's not everyday... So i am looking for another job... which has flexible working hours or normal working hours from 8-5.... Went to job central... applied for an admin job... the person called... I was so tempted to take up the job cause it's for the govt and armed forces (ppl who is close enough to me will know that I somehow... in one way or another admires armed forces... and sometimes goes abit over) and the place not very far away.... I was about to say yes... when the person say the working hour is from 9-6... and I was 晴天霹雳！AHHHHH!!! Then I told him I got another job which starts from 6... then he ask if i am willing to give up the job for this job... and I told him no... of course not... I signed contract with Q&M lah... Then when I hung up... I almost want to call back and negotiate with him if I can work from 8-5 instead... haiz... but I didn't.... anyway... the pay is not the pay that everyone will accept... but to me... it's not the pay that matters... I really want that job!!! haiz... So i decided that I shall only start looking for work in Jan... let me catch my breath and pack my table... for the last week of dec...

Oh yah! Before I forgot.... THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED MY A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! AND THANK YOU... HUIMIN, SIYUN, VERONICA, ALFRED AND LIXUAN FOR THE WONDERFUL TUESDAY AT ECP AND CLARKE QUAY! LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS! AND THANK YOU FOR THE WINNIE THE POOH! I LOVEEEE IT LOADS!

OH.... and btw... if Veron or Seiyu happens to stop by my blog...

VERON: may i know where the hell is your tagboard for your blog?? And can you change a blogskin? your blog is very dull... haha!

Seiyu: Do you still want the nitendo? You going this St. James this sat? Cause I going Malaysia next tues... and I think I am going to buy... want me help you buy? empty nitendo... RM 200 plus if I am not wrong...

Today... I was suppose to go for the YAH birthday bash... but I didn't turn up... hiaz... feel quite guilty now... instead of going there... I actually stayed at home and watch my Black and White AKA 痞子英雄. Recomended show. Nice... Don't know why i wanna watch it in the first place... nobody that i like... but after watching is think Mark Zhao is DAMN COOL!!! haha... for a newbie... he is very good... if there's a movie coming up... i wanna watch... haha...

And... I log on to facebook to find that i am being tagged for prom photos!!! 晴天霹雳! Don mind anyway... now i wondering if i wanna post the pics on facebook... or should i post it here??? Haha... post some of my fav photos here bah... I should be posting the rest on facebook... omt... so many pics to upload man...haha...

The dog is damn kawaii... haha... it licks you like nobody's busniess... haha... More pics in facebook... going to be up like dono when.. after i come back from my hols? I still got kusu island and marina barrage haven upload... haiz...

Btw... JJ Lin's Album is coming out on 18th Dec!!!! Wootx.. Saw the mv... AHHHHHHH!! kkz... i am going mad... this time... by hook or by crook... i am going to buy... the last album i was waiting for a gai ban... and then... HE NEVER COME OUT WITH ANY GAI BAN!!! kkz... Shall not complain... kudos... Watching SEA games while blogging....

记得支持JJ 的【100天】！强力推荐【第几个100天】 :)

Actually I am damn lazy to blog... but i wanna blog about prom yesterday...WAHAHAHAHA...

Well... Prom was ok... I didn't really take as much pictures as i thought i did... cause I sort of smile until muscle cramp lah... and blinded by alot of flashlights... Anyway... Yesterday veron was all over the place... and my biggest regret... NO INDIVIDUAL PHOTOS WITH MISS GOH AND MISS ZHANG AND MISS CHEW!!!! SOBS SOBS X100 Haiz... and the clique photo is abit de blur lah... and without wanrong... that guy... got girlfriend dowan friends liao... haahaa... you should see how the two of them enter the place man... and we went to take photos with them... and me and veron looks like we are taking a wedding photo... ya... Anyway... I also ran around lahx... but not as much as veron...

Then the post-prom activity... total unglam. We wanted to go blacony bar... then it closed down lerx... so we went to orchard tower instead... Oh... I help the guys carry their coat man! this is the first time i help a guy carry coat... haha... quite cool actually... kkz... i think i am mad... In the end we wanted to go st. james but never open... then we want to go supper club (i suppose it's spelt like that) full... then we walk from orchard ion all the way to somewhere further down dobyghaut barefooted... cause we took off the freaking heels... And I think i damn noob... cause my one not even heels... haha... but cause the back of the shoes is giving me blisters... so i decided to take it off... haha... So we walk... and then wanted to walk to clarke quay... but wanna die liao... so stop by kopitiam and stone there until 2 plus and junwen suggested to drink my the river... I can't imagine myself drunk and sleeping by the river in prom attire... kkz...very unlikely it will happen anyway... ya... so I decided to go home... and so me alf and veron went home while lixuan shiva and huimin went to drink by the river... haiz... pathetic post prom activity... just not our day... monday... pubs either don open or close by 2... haha...

Went k-box at jurong SAFRA today... inside is totally diff from the k-box i went to in the past man... the 'remote control' is touch screen one seh... and the tv is LCD one leh... donno wad to say lah... haha... you can go check out yourself... but warning... no student price there... haha

Oh... Prom pics I will post... but another day... anyone who dowan their faces up on my blog... can spam my tagboard or just tell me personally... haha

A's is finally over! But problems have not yet end...
One day ago I am worrying that i wouldn't be able to get a job.
One day later... I am sandwiched in the middle of two jobs which both I am unwilling to give up and would be force to give up the later one if there cannot be an agreement...
Is this life?
Why do we have to always make choices?

Anyway... I PLAYED the whole day of com today! DAMN SHUANG can... haha... you can see how long I have deprived myself from games... Oh... And I signed up for a facebook account... haha... add me if you want... Easy to find... haha....

Thurs went for new moon and sorry to say... but I almost slept in the theather... Not that the show is not nice... but it's just that after you have read the book... you seems to know what's going to happen next and it dosen't tempt you anymore... haiz... unlike twilight... but comparing the two... I prefer twilight... No blames anyway... as new moon the book itself is pretty boring... haha... And Jacob is OH MY TAIN the macho and cool MAN! I was like 0.o!!! And funniest thing happened in the cinema... There's one scene the robert patterson took off his clothes... and one girl in the theathre scream ,Eww so ugly.... OMG... At first i thought it was Seiyu cause it sounds like... but it's not lahx... anyway... that scene is really ugly... Edward is really ugly...

Prom's just two days away... I haven't bought my acessories!!!! Anyway... I might as well just go without any acessories... Doing Mani and maybe pedicure tomorrow... what colour should I paint my nails man! Haiz... Prom is irritating... I spend near to 300 buck already... haiz... Why on earth am I spending so much money for an event that I solely just wanted to go there and take pictures???

I only have one word for my A-levels... That is... 惨!!!!

Haiz... Today's econs paper was a total sucks...
So much for me pia-ing macro policy...
YOu know what the toot came out?
NID and NIS!!! Circular flow of income!!! (超冷门的!)
Then the micro was worse... You can't even choose a question that you fully knows what it want man! Hiaz...
The globalization questi0n was... fine... i bet the easiest of all... but I suddenly can't remember the points!! ZZzzz... Lost motivation for studying econs man... Haizzzzz.....

Well... Not my motive for blogging... 不想提起伤心事... Now, i think I have problem clearing J2 man... Even maths which I have the most confidence in was a total failure... and I think it's super dumb to fail maths for a national exam... cause singaporeans are suppose to be good in maths... cambridge standard... Welll... Anyway... Anyone interested in looking at how 荒谬and 创新 cambridge is this year... You can get the maths, GP econs and chem papers from me... ZZzzzz....

Ok.. to my motive of blogging... Cause I was telling Huimin that after A-levels I think I will feel empty and 失去方向 cause i have been mugging for so long that I forgot how living life is like... Then she told that she did a to-do list after As to keep her in track... So I shall do it too... Cause I have alot of unfufilled wishes... Opp cost for studying...

TO DO LIST:
- Thailand trip -> Puhket
- Volunteer under SPCA
- Try out as a physiotherapist or a occupational therapist
- Work (That's of course)
- International voluntary work
- K-box (I can't remember when was the last time I went)
- Learn Dancing (Particularly Hip-hop)
- Bake
- Cook
- Slim down ****
- Finish my unfinished work
- 和老朋友叙旧
- 保留现有的友情
- Taiwan
- Sports (Netball especially)
- Go Sentosa! (I am devoid of the sun for damn long)
- Shopping Spree (这很难得!)

That's all i remember... for now.. I still feel i forgot something very important... Haha...

我会变得更勇敢
我不会再轻易掉泪
我不会再轻视自己的生命
我会改变 等全新的我东山再起吧!