Saturday, August 29, 2009
Ok... It's not like I put in my heart and soul for this prelim --> Cause have been mugging for so long until I think prelim period I fatigue liao... LOL...
Anyway... The end of prelims also means that there is not much time left from now the 09-11-09...Haiz...
Who was the one who told me A-level is just A LITTLE BIT stressful than o level?!!!!
I have have a hell hard time for A's than O's can.... It's not A LITTLE BIT... It's ALOT can... So lesson learnt... NEver listen to what others say... Believe in yourself....
Why earth did I choose this path!!! I should have stayed to my will back then... 我真是一个不定心的人啊! 算了。。。 下次就死死坚持我的理念和我相信对我自己最好的。。。
Anyway... Recently.... I seem to have a self realization... I am not that kind hearted as I thought I am (OMG~ I am so dowan face) and my 心胸也没有很宽阔 like some people think... I think I am a very petty person... I think Veron seems to know that... Haha... I get angry very easily... especially during this period of time... and when I get angry... I don't scold I don't scream... but I will have a black face... and keep very quiet... cause I am afraid I will scold and scream when I open my mouth... LOL... Hmm... sometimes I want to hide my anger... because sometimes... you are just angry with yourself... it has totally nothing to do with anybody... but the people around you seems to be your victim... and I feel very selfish and bad to pull friends down... 人家的好心情就因为我的黑脸而变成坏心情... This dosen't seem to be the way I want it... So people... next time you see my black face... just don care.. OK? I will be better after awhile... Can self recuperate one... Hahaa... So I don't think I am a kind of person who is able to help... I can be a good listener but never a good advisor... And sometimes... Your story may make be very emotional... and when everything bottles up... The next person who add that last ingredient will be my victim... Sometimes it's actually not the person fault... the person just so happen to push the button... So I am really sorry for that last person... yup...
Ok... I am blabbering rubbish... as you can see... no sentence structure one... The moral of the story is... I have this sudden self realization that physiotherapy dosen't seem to be a right job for a person like me... what if one day I blast at my patient... I will be like OMG!!! And I am pretty a pessimist...
Maybe I will change for the better... but currently... I am opening myself up to some other courses... Physiotherapy although still on the top of my list... It dosen't mean it can't be replaced... :)
原本答应自己要保持一段距离
所以在离开时才不会觉得特别的痛苦
但我却让你们一步一步的接近
这样-如果你们真的离开了我
我也不知道我会不会痛苦得无法自拔
我不想被捅一刀有一刀
完毕 :)
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Both my laptop and the CPU is having problem with blogger..
This page is damn weird... LOL...
Hetic week is finally over...
Imagine yourself having 3 content-based paper for one day...
It's a total OMG!
And the stupid thing that happened yesterday...
There was one question on defining enthalpy change of formation under standard conditions.
And my answer ended with ceteris paribus.... OMG...
I think I went mad... I almost laughed out lah...
If I really did I think the people and teachers will look at me like I am mad...
Haha...
Anyway, This prelim is very weird for me...
Hmm... Donno how to put it into word...
Just feeling too slack for a prelim...
Haiz...
Is this good or bad??
Saturday, August 01, 2009
But this is the very time we test how this friendship holds.
Many believes that friends in High school and university will be your friends for life.
Or at least for a longer period of time compared to those you made friends with in Sec and pri school but I seem to have some doubts to that...
I don't know how many agrees to this...
But it does matter to me...
101 Days... See me shine :)
Friday, July 10, 2009
Well... Even though I expected my bio the fail... I think abit too highly of myself... I thought I will do well in the MCQ... and in the end? I failed... I think I am the sole failure in the class lahx... haiz.... and she asked me again... did you study? Yes... I studied... but for the whole common test... I am so crushed up that my mind is not thinking at all... Not processing anything... Hiaz.... I flunk even the MCQ and I can say good game to paper 2 liao lolx... Bye...
I hope that I fail the chem paper because of time management.... Because I really left almost 20 marks blank... yah... but some how... I don't really think so... I shall try the paper again during the weekend... Haiz... I flunk chem... My favourite subject... Somehow... people don't always do well in their favourite subject... yah... somehow... I like chem but I can't get pass the C grade. Then veron likes bio and she is also not doing well in it. Then huimin likes maths.... Although she is doing well... but I think she is not very satisfied with her maths results either... haiz... why does things go this way? What you like, you don't do well... What you don really like... You are doing pretty well.... I don't like maths... but I think I am doing pretty well for it... But I like chem and I flunk like no busniess.... What is this man...
Oh yah... and all the teachers said that we are blind... Haha... first day of school... First lesson... Ms Zhang was like... Your chem common test huh.... Hiaz.... then the typical haiz face... jia lat.... Then she commented that our class is blind... you all don't read the question.... And today she was checking my paper... she was like... You people need to go for reading lessons... I was like... Hahaha.... oh... and she said my section A was ok... And section B was horrendous.... haiz... no time... brain died.... yah.... Back to the blind part... Then we went for maths... Mdm goh was like, the question said to write in exact form and you all write in decimal points... You all are blind.... The second one liaox.... Then went for bio.... and ms goh.... totally disspointed with our class that she even said... don't care about the 交代 part... I will answer to it... and said that S1 gone crazy for this common test... really sad.... and she said that everyone in our class is blind... haiz... 3rd teacher.... then go for GP.... Ms chew was going through the common test paper 1... and she was talking about the culture question and said that we are BLIND to ignore the word ever... haha.... 4th teacher... and guess how many teachers I have in total? 5.... so only left with econs chew who haven say that we are blind... and i think she won't so bad one lahx... So are we really blind? I don't know... maybe I am.... selectively blind...
Anyway... I was lucky that I passed GP... Yes... I passed GP when half the class failed... Somehow... I think it's luck... my paper 2 AQ.... the teacher was like commenting on my weak LOA and I still manage to pass the AQ... I mean 4 marks lah... then yanting and veron one was like... good LOA and arguement... then 3 marks... I was like ???? why???? Maybe the teacher see I failing so badly liao then let me pass.... who knows? Then paper 1... veron have like good arguments and examples.... and seiyu just had uninspiring examples and points... and they both get only 25... and me... not answering part of the question... weak LOA.... then still can get 27... h0ow? I also donno.... I think it's pure luck that I passed my GP this time... Maybe I should continue to belief in luck now... haha....
One day... Maybe I would become so immune to failure that it will not become a motivation anymore.... And I seriously hope... this is not going to come any soon... and please don't come soon... can come after A-levels? It's better to be worry and cry because you fail instead of having the 'fail ah? nevermind lah... always fail one... never pass before...' attitude... Somehow... I think I am starting to develop this immunity... can someone come and 刺激 me?
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Maybe it was unintentional...
Maybe it serve as a hard knock for me...
But that comment made me deep in thoughts for the whole night...
Today morning... the moment I open my eyes...
The thought came back...
It never left me...
till now...
Since I made that decision...
I shall not regret....
At least that's what I can trying to convince myself now...
Today I went to watch TRANSFORMERS!!! WHOO!! The movie is so damn nice! Why did anyone even critic it? oK... I am taking an extreme view... But I don really like the last part cause I can't really differentiate between the autobots and the decepticons (is it spelt like that? I doubt so...)... Ok... I am noob... and the four of us is damn weird... no one watch transformers 1 and went to watch transformers 2... then I was sort of lost in the first 10mins of the show trying to remember which are the good robots and which are the bad... haha... But I like the twins(The red and green one) and bumble bee is also very cute... haha... I like the autobots lahx... they were really great... And michael bay even added humour in... I was like laughing all the way lah... the main lead also very funny... haha... and megan fox is really hot... Leo is funny too... His dorm mate... haha... Now I know why transformers is such a blockbuster.... I wouldn't wanna miss transformers 3... WHOOO!
Anyway... HM asked me today... "Why do you want to be a physiotherapist?" And I told her.... I don't know how to put that feeling into words... In the first place... It's ironic and ridiculous that an introvert like me would want to work as a physiotherapist which is considered under social work... It start out during this adam khoo workshop where the trainer told us to draw out our life path... What we wanna do in the future... And then I was fliping through the book and saw physiotherapy.... Then I was thinking... physiotherapy is such a cool job.... It's offered in Singapore? And so for the sake of writing a life path... I wrote physiotherapy... Then I thought it's just writing for the sake of writing... But somehow... this passion grew... I wanted more and more to be a physiotherapist... I want to help... The satisfaction of your patients walking out your clinic... they came in in a wheelchair.... then months later... they walk out... the sense of appreciation they have for you... the sense of satisfaction you have for yourself... isn't it great? Well... it may just be what i think.... Maybe patient wouldn't thank you... I thought it just a impluse act... something that I will soon not care about... But now I am very sure... yes... I want to be a physiotherapist... i really want to be... And I really hope this is not an impluse act... I remember... in primary school.... I wanted to be a marine biologist... In sec 2, I want to be a nutritionist... in sec 3... I want to be a navy... and sec 4 a physiotherapist... every year... my ambition changed... but this time... it stayed... and it grew... I am really happy for myself... Ok... this took me quite sometime to type out... my 'feelings'... I told you it can't be put into words... so this is the best I can do...
Anyway... yesterday I went swimming at CDANDS... It has been years since I went there... and I am like so damn noob... I can't even find the changing room... -_-''' kkz... anyway... It feels really good to swim.... if there is nothing much to do this coming weekend... I think I am going to go for another swim... Anyone care to go with me? Haha... Better not... you will vomit our what you ate 2 days before... haha... :)
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Maths paper- Hmm... It's relatively ok but higher standard than previous tests. Btw... I like sitting in the very front of the row... I think it helps me concentrate better... or maybe it's because it's first paper and I had a slacky sunday that made me concentrate? and think better? Who knows...
Chem paper- TOTAL goner... I 太对不起 MS zhang lerx... 40 mark question... 20 mark never do... 10 marks of crap... Then paper 1... 'you still have 15min' guess wad question I am at? question 18... How many question in total? 40. How much time I used to do the 18 question? 45mins. Yup... So it's going to be pretty a miracle if I can even get an S grade for Chem...
Econs paper- It's do-able... but my mind is not thinking that day... essay on microeconomy part a if you minus away my graph... the essay is only half a page long...hhaa... half a page for 10 marks? You wait a million years... Then macro... I write and write and write until the last 10mins... I found out that I am not concentration on the right policy... -_-''' total shame... My econs is going to drop from A to S liaox... 天堂到地狱...
Bio paper- I didn't start out with any hope of passing that damn paper... But MCQ turn out alright... Maybe 平常心 is better... Cause I think I wanted to do well so much for econs that I tend to think alot and stress myself up alot... But paper 2 turn out a disaster for me... haha... I didn't finish the paper... hmm... as expected... And I started out with essay and halfway through the structured qns... I found a similar question... so I am wondering if I wrote my essay out of point? Lol... this is stupid...
So... if you think I can pass my CT... please tell me... Cause I am very sure this time I am going to 垫底 in S01 liao... Ranking point drop from 72 to 40 something bah... lolx...
Then CT do until like that this girl still wanna go for PSC scholarship talk... really... think too much lahx...haha...
Oh yah... I did say I felt like As is over... cause for some reason or another... I am super high... super happy.... I can't stop smiling... --> omg... she went mad from overdose of studying... Why I feel like that? Can some physchologist come tell me? Overstress? Lack of sleep? Fatigue??? Denial?
Oh... and through this common test... I finally felt what is stress... the stress that is totally out of my control... the stress that I have totally no control of... thoughts that I didn't have in the past came... Mood swings are more and more often... and I am starting to live in denial... denying that I am not taking my As this year... lol... symptoms of depression? haha...
I WANT WATCH TRANSFORMERS!!!
Btw... How long with the michael Jackson thing last? another week I suppose... He is really a great person although I have no particular feelings for him... but I saw his videos on youtube... 1 one... COOL.... slick moonwalk and he really pops like a freaking robot.... Now I see why JJ and many other artiste and musicans see him as a enternal idol and stand by his side even with those scandals... and I was reading the papers yesterday and there is this 'headline' -
麦克杰迅-- 月球漫步一小步 流行文化一大步....
I think it makes sense.... Go Michael Jackson!
放下- 也许会快乐些
放弃- 也许会解脱些
人生道路没人能替你走
自己的未来 自己掌握
相信无限...
..::No one can stop you unless you stop yourself, No one will push you unless you push yourself. The choice is yours::..
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
No matter how much you want to study (more of because you know if you don't study now, it's going to be too late.), nothing seems to go in.
Well... I think I am at this state for today...
Actually I was planning on finishing energetics and equilibrium... But I ended up finishing only equilbrium and have been staring at chen energetics since 8 but nothing went in... So it's equals to never study at all...
Looking at my schedule makes people stress... I am running behind shecdule for bio and chem (and so this is my two weakest subject, thanks lah). I was then planning of studying bio on thurs but it seems pretty impossible because of the Annual Retreat which i am very unwilling to miss. Tml still need to do the ambassador thing. --> I don't mind being a JJ ambassador... but you timing is just too perfect that it came when my whole life is in chaos and whirlpool... Too bad... you can't get that much support from me afterall... I do have my piorities.
Distractions are fatal at this time... So I might as well get rid of my distraction now... well... not really a distracton... it's more of an addiction.... Haiz... Look at how time flies when you are studying (yup... Ironically) that now you yourself is wondering if you could finish in time to sit PREPARED for the common test... For me... now, looking at the current situation, I can firmly telll you my answer... NO. I will not be prepared... I may have finished the notes but not the tutorials...
Again, I am falling short of teacher's expectation(Wait... Do they even have expectation of me? Or the expectation of the class? Who knows...) I am really very sorry about it... How many more sorrys do I have to say... honestly speaking... I have no idea...
Hiaz... Beiyii is blabbering nonsense in this post... I think she has gone mad from overdose of studying... Screwed.
Sunday, May 24, 2009

*Screams* NEW MOON poster!!! and look at the hell date! A-levels!!! Hope and pray that it wouldn't close shop so early then... And in my opinion lahx... Edward's ugly in the poster... Jacob changed alot... maybe it's because he chopped his hair... haha...
Oh... and if you are as excited as I am... the 'trailer' is also out on youtube... You friend here is lazy to embedd it... so I shall leave you guys the link... Whee.... Twilight Saga rox!
PS: all fake trailers... Official trialer coming out in August... :) But they look damn real!
Part1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOQ2qv_isBA&feature=related
Part2:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCGcuE20heE&feature=related
Trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cZJCrt_NDk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ng8XyRb1DT8
OK... I decided to stop... cause... There is alot... Zzzz.... weren't they great? Cool man!
Cheers to twilight~
But I felt abit like... hmm I am paying 4bucks to watch what i watched during the audition... but it's worth it... cause Crew 3042 rock the house man! They are damn cool! especially the locking part... haha... and huimin's comment was... gold with honours... haha... Then the english vocals YuNeng and Jayne is nice... powerhouse! Cool man! Too bad never bring camera... haiz...
What's worth more is we saw ms chew's little dylan!! So cute!!! I wanna take picture with himm... sobs... but they going off in a rush... he give us a pan kiss... wootz!!! Then the hubby dosen't look like someone who will debate with her... OMG!!! So cute!!! haha...
Holidays soon... but say goodbye... mass lessons for the first 2 weeks... goner... and my sis going China for 2 months... sobs... I am going to be in a cave for 2 months... waaaahhhh.... I dowan... anyone... ask me out? lol... zzz...
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Main reason... I added another fail to the bio records... thank you... thank you... and I am failing wonderfully... 11/40... Convert to 100% you tell me... 20 plus... total U grade... --> Goner in bio... Hiaz... Who knows how much I want to give up on Bio... The very subject that no matter how much effort, time and concentration I spent on it, I still cannot clear it or just managed to pass at borderline... I hate it...
If you say my studying method is wrong... I shouldn't be scoring for some subject and failing miseribaly for other subject... cause I study the subject in the very same way and method... I understand that not all subjects are studied the same way... but I know science subjects could be studied in the same method... it's not like I am scoring for chem... but if I redo my tutorials and do my tys, the A comes by easily... but for bio... the genetic retest... no one has any idea how much time I put in... I redo my tutorial, did tys questions (which I have no problem with) and what results did I get? 18/30... Just pass... What is this.... the for the test I got back today... I spent 1 week studying... 1 WEEKK!!!
So conclusion... My fate with Bio has ended after Sec 4.... I really have to thank god(if I believe in one) that I didn't give up on bio... and I suppose that I won't give it up now that I have walked 3/4 of my way to A-levels...
Hmm... enough of emo talks and complains... I actually wanted to put a youtube vedio here... but I am too lazy to scale that damn vedio down... so I just forget it... haha... the vedio is about iphones... Ok... iphone... So? This iphone is different!!! It's super cool... Strictly speaking... it's not iphone... it's itable... yah... 50-inch screen iphone... so it's called an itable actually... OMG~ it functions like a iphone with a bigger and better screen... I was like looking at the person play the warcraft, wahseh... the computor is noob... itable is pro... so damn fast... one touch, you flipped you invertory, another touch... you killed you ememies... one slide and you see the whole view of the battle ground... compared to the com... lagg, irritating mouse and stuff and the next thing you want is to smash that stupid computor... Then you can edit picture like a normal com... and draw and your drawing can talk to you... maybe seiyu should try it.... haha... ok... that itable operates just like an iphone... it's damn cool... AHhh.... i want.... but I think it will cost me a house... --> exgarate.... hohoh....
如果死亡可以解决一切烦恼
我愿意与死亡签约换取我心灵的解脱
但我很清楚的知道
这是不可能的事
也许这是我现在还活着的理由...
I will face all challenges with perserverance and determination...
I will never give up...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Two things that I hate the most about parent meeting... :(
1. Parents reprimanding their child in front of the teacher...
2. Teachers asking question that I have no answers to and saying that cannot say donno...
But I was satisfied with my results to be honest... who wouldn"t be happy with a ranking point of 71? but too bad... GP got S... cannot get into university also...dotx... And my results are of total extremes... AADE... yup.... The two ends of the spectrum... Haiz... But I am sad about chemistry... When you love a subject you would want to do well... but the thing is you are not performing...
Ms Zhang said to me... you know where you weakness is... but why are you not doing anything to tackle it? Let me tell you the answer... Ihave bad time management... The time I set aside to study for each test is only sufficient for me to finish the notes and read the tutorial... I don have the time to redo the tutorials... you see... and it is not that I set aside only 3 hrs to study... the truth is I set aside the whole day... but because I have very short attention span... I tend to space out very often and time flies now adays... so in the end... after building my sandcastles in the air... I have only sufficient time to READ my tutorial... Do you think I don want to boost my chemistry marks? Do you think I want to stay at the borderline wondering when I will fail the test? I don you see... But I cannot help it... spacing out every hour... feeling very restless...
Btw.. I think I sound pretty rude yesterday to my teachers... :X I don mean it... I really don... Lol... its not like the teacher will read this...
Oh yah... and ms goh has all along been thinking that I am not studying for her bio test... OMG~ I feel so... Zzzz.... I STUDIED like some shit can! To tell you honestly... I spend the most time on bio! I really do! I know wheres my weakness... I know I have to spend time on bio... and I am doing it... I am giving every subject an equal chance... I don"t focus on maths and econs... I give every subject equal time... equal attention... I am not bias towards any subject... hmm... maybe bias against GP but for my H2 subjects... I am not!
Maybe I am to a science type of student after all... And ms gohs was like saying my progress report look very weird... haha...
Btw... can someone answer me... Do I look very stress???
Oh yah! Before I forget... I saw jonathan on ST today... He won some ACS guy in squash 4-1... yah... haha...
If crying would help...
I am willing to tear till I am dried...
Saturday, May 02, 2009
Anyway... Ms Chew was talking about Paranoid VS complacency... I am not complacent but I really couldn't find and buy a freaking thermometer!!! And I think now.. being paranoid is better than being complacent... as she said...
Btw... I went for Gp consultation the other day.... she scolded me likes siao... haha... not really lahx... then somehow... my tap turn on and no matter how much I wanna stop I just can't.... Because at that time... I am really really very very scared! Very scared that I will flunk my GP again... fail another GP test... I am really afraid... and I donno why...
Stress? Who knows...
Friday, April 24, 2009
Monday HM told me about the president command performance last sunday I was like OMG! I never watch... But I watched it today! :) Show you :)
Nice? Wonderful? Perfect? Well... it's pretty obvious that he is quite tensed at the front... His killa abit... yah... lol....
Oh... Now I am quite hooked up with badminton... haha... I like badminton! Hoho... Ok... I don't have the feeling to blog... wanna watch you tube :)
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Today was the day I dread anyway... release of PW grades!!! Omg! I was like having butterflies in my stomach early in the morning can... But my grades turn out fine! I am so damn happy... I didn't expect it! Me and veron was like... die liao.... sure CMI one... haiz... But it turn out fine!! The report for us was great! And I seriously think that my GPF really helped me alot... cause my op... looking at the comments... I sort of screwed it up... But GPF comments were great... I it feels like the marker really liked my idea... full of praises... maybe that's how i got my grade :) Btw... we did on forensic science and we thought our WR was total crap can... but it turn out fine too :) thank too me lahx... i typed it... hehe.... OMG~ 在抢功劳 liao... haha... everyone has a part to play lahx... but I started out with the skeleton :) and I made the flyer which they commented about :))) Haha... So happy....
But overall JJ (the school) didn't do very well... sadded... But our class did well... compared to the other classes... I am seeing classes with only 1A and our class is not bad lerx...
Then bio pract we were talking to Ms Goh about scuba diving! She was like keep saying and saying and make me wanna dive somemore.... Zzzz.... and she saw DOLPHINS!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!! and loads of them!!! I want to see!!!! then also have turtle... but that's like very deep in the sea... so for a person who can't swim... like me... too bad... you can't go... haiz... I want go scuba dive!!! But I am going snorkel again this december!! Wheeee! I am going to have much more fun than 2yrs ago!!! Wheeeee~ Although I don get to see dolphins but pathetic shoals of fish... I am contented... haha... :)
Friday, April 03, 2009
JJ 09 Sg Concert 许怀良老师 + 林氏家族!
This is ultimate coolness can! Uniquely for Singapore... I didn't know JJ's family can play instruments! and he got Kawaii scene with his mum! Wootz... Damn cute! haha... But one bad thing.... lousy quality and got 杂音 very irritating... screaming throughout can... haha... and 许环良is like the emcee!! It's like once in a blue moon you see him hosting can... lol... Ultimate coolness... JJ Lin rox!
Enough of my JJ fantasy... Back to reality... has been waking up at 5.30 for the past 3 days... cause I studying Bio... haha... then huimin was like saying she never see me study in school... cause I mug like shit at home.... lolx... actually I intended to study in school one... but school got alot of distractions... haha... But actually honestly speaking... I am thinkning of waking up 5.30 every morning... do some revision before I go to school... somehow... I didn't really feel that tired... yup... so maybe I will try it for next week and see how... and I think my parent will be thinking that I am mad... haha... lol... Anyways... late I am planning my revision shecdule... cause I going to die liao... haha...
Then today... I wanted to donate blood! Then I qeue for like an hour and they REJECTED me!!! I am totally sian diao lahx... irritated.... It started off with Me, HuiMin, Sheryl and Veron... then I got rejected thanks to my rashes... lol... I shouldn't have ask the doctor can... she was like wanting to measure my Bp already... then I went like...
Me: I have a question
Doc Nod her head.
Me: If I got rashes can donate? *show her my rashes*
Doc: *got that OMG face* the other hand?
Me: *show the other hand*
Doc: *shake her head* I think better not.
Me: But it's sweat rashes!
Doc: To be safer, better not. Because they have to poke the needle in the region where you have rashes. *take out an I donno wad and started flipping and show me* You see. Rashes 14 days cannot donate...
Then I sian diao lolx... que for so damn long and got rejected thanks to my stupid question... wondering if she would find out if I never ask? haha... but last yr I got rashes the doctor also let me donate lehx... sadded... Then Sheryl got rejected cause they cannot find her vien... then huimin got rejected because the vien is too small... lol... So only left of little veron and she donate!!! Wootz! Life saver! Haha...
That's all... going to plan my shecdule and do the econs thingy...
Ultimate Fatigue...
Friday, March 27, 2009
Today went to the telematch... I didn't regret! Although I did when we had training... but today I didn't... it was fun! But honestly... the shirt sux.... Anyway... we didn't win... got last instead... haha... Cause at the starting, we already lagging behind thanks to the junior benjamin.... he last min got heart problem... diaoz... he should have like said it earlier... so they made JinHwee do the strecher and that damn maniquinn is like 90KG can... and the other teams got all guys lahx... hiaz... then JinHwee is suppose to do the fire extinguisher then in the end a J1 do... and then she wasn't well trained enough so we lagged behind at the very start... then the stretcher also cause no coordination and we have to go slower because of JinHwee, so we lag somemore... hiaz.... then by the time is Devi and my turn... when we started running, the other 3 teams are already on their way back... lolx.... diaoz... but we got sportmanship... so we ended the competetion lahx.... Then the other teams also not very good... 2nd or 3rd... so in the end the 4th div lost....
The international event is damn cool! First one I didn't see cause we preparing for our event... then second was the spiderman... abseling and then got this tunnel thing is like got one officer got stuck in the tunnel and ppl started pulling his leg... haha... and the most ridiculous thing is... they cut a car! and it look brand new!!! just to save a MANEQUINN!!! OMG! waste moolah can....
Then local events the first one was ours.... second was this climb to somewhere and save the victim... then 4th div was actually leading but in the end 3rd div caught up... sadded and you know wad! a motorcycle can got zigzag very smoothly and so cool.... this is normal... but an AMBULANCE doing the same thing???? It's MUCH MORE cooler!!!
See... that's why I didn't regret... it's a wonderful experience... I don mind going again... but this time not because I wanna pon bio... haha... But I felt abit bad about pulling the 4th div down in the point.... cause we got 4th... haiz... too bad... but I must say... my IPP is fast can... haha... but running CMI... hoho... :)
then moday had my 2.4... I almost died... anyway... I ran slower than before... retaking :) then 5 station I was sad that my standing broad jump was lousy... I think i retaking most of the stations... haha.... :)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Talking about sat... I got duty and thought I was going to mug with the J1s... so I bought like bio and maths there... and guess wad? I did nothing... nothing at all... haha... cause no J1s to motivate me to mug... So I did the props for the ah long skit and then chit chat with Peifang... OMG~ I finally found someone to talk to about my KO3! people in my class also don watch you tube as much as I do :( haha... I also donno what they do when the go online... Game???
Anyways... Off to study bio... I got only 13/35 for my genetics test! 加油吧!And I am not going to play audi today... I hope... haiz... I am dumb...
Quotes for the day:)
Still moving under gunfire...
Friday, March 13, 2009

Friday, March 06, 2009
I am not...
To say that I am sad...
I am not...
Maybe it's because chinese is not impt?
I have no idea...
Anyway... I sort of expected it... :)
So... No harm done...
If you think I am sad... :)
Saturday I went for kiddoletics... It's pretty fun if not for the damn lousy organisation and communication.. The kids were great and hyper too :) I don't mind going for another one though! But I doubt any one would wanna go :(
Sunday stay at home to pia homework... took a little break off and watch KO3... Damn lame can... haha.... One coin... hit one glass bottle... the chain effect to a metal can... then to a rock... and hit the guy... HAHAHA! Tml going to watch 2nd ep :)
Monday... usual school day... sianed... Nothing change... if anything changed... it changed for the worse... Tues... Same routine.... Wed went to NPP for the skit... I sort of got 'kicked' out of the performance though... cuase too many ppl lerx... so I am doing the props instead... Felt quite... angry is not the word... haha... maybe sad bahx... So I thinking if I wanna go for the event that day... since I am not needed... Thurs I have two test... GP TCA which I screwed up most likely... and Bio SPA... I think I screwed it up... So veron... now you know why I am so reluctant to talk about it... :) Sad...
Today... Friday... Release of A level results... Our school top student got straight As! Congrats! Although I donno who that person is... and second in the school guess who? Jacky's Bro! Damn cool! Haha... Then the teacher went on their routine talks about starting revision now... Hello... Is not I dowan to start... it's I didn't have time... If I could even finish studying a test... it would be pretty a miracle :) so who has the time to study J1 work? And you know... I think I got Veron's sleeping genes... I sleep alot now adays and still wake up tired... Is this an illness? But I will do it during the march hols! I am really going to start studying...
Aims for A-Levels:
GP: B
Maths: A
Chem: A
Econs: A
Bio: B
Bio B because I sort of losing hope in it... :( not that I want... but no matter how much I study... I can score... I said I love econs and Chem... so I WANT an A and Maths... Expected A.
That's all from me...
6 more days... To SMUDGE~
Friday, February 27, 2009
Having kiddoletics tml and movies... Suspect X... blog about it next week then... haha...
为什么一定要长大
为什么世界变得好复杂
我不想独自面对眼泪流下
我只想紧紧抱着他
有时候我喜欢和朋友一起分享冒险的游戏
有时候我宁可到海边去淋雨
只是我找不到我自己
我的心其实在逃避
每天被困在幻想和现实之间
我想回家
为什么一定要长大
为什么都不说出真心话
我不想别人看穿我的倔强
我真的好想要回家
再坚强的人也需要一个靠山
而我的在那里?
Friday, February 20, 2009
Start from Monday... First lesson... econs lect test on NIS... and I wrote so happily and donno why... I suddenly felt a need to relook at the question... At one look... I knew I wrote out of point... but only 10mins to end of paper... so don care... continue writing... DIE! Most likely going to fail or just scrap pass bahx... And guess wad... I did well for my market failure case study can... Ms chew still give me M&Ns... haha... actually i like it when teachers give me rewards... cause... got that type of 被肯定 de feel... But I think this time she will be damn 失望 can... haiz...
Then tues got Chem SPA trail trail... yah... and you know wad... my crystal is damn pathetic... experiment fail.... real SPA = DIE! I feel so sad can... haiz... I am in love Chem so much but it dosen't like me... :( Anyway... I am starting to feel that I am not a science type of person... I am more towards the Arts... I feel... I love Literature... but because I know I can't do well... so I just give it up... haha... I am gradually falling in love with Econs too... Maybe it's because of the teacher??? I have no idea... I think I chose science because I think I can do better cause everyone who knows me knows that my language suxs and my vocab is damn limited... haha... I like Science too lahx... Especially Chem :)
Wed... Worst test of all... Bio test... I studied like some shit for that test and in the end... I am quite sure I am getting a single digit back... if I get double digit... It's a miracle and if I pass, I might as well jump off the building... Know why? Cause out of 4 structured qns... I blanked 2... and one is total blank... Yup... so I am half expecting Ms Goh to call up my parents... :X
Thurs... Good thing maths test went off well... and this is the first time I finish+ Checking a maths test 20 mins before the end of the paper... So I was like damn scared I missed out a qn or wad and I keep double check... cause the whole LT is like still doing... scribbling... then I look around... look beside... all still doing... Then... you know... don have the an quan gan... but I admit that the test is very easy... yah... I think I am going to see quite a no of full maths coming from our class again... Seriously, I think S01 is super PRO in maths... This makes me think of Promos when the whole class got A and other classes have people failing and ungraded.... lol...
Today there is Drama Fest in our school... at 4... 3 more mins... haha... Haiz... decide not to go... Veron and Seiyu not going... but I wanna watch the Drama!!! Damn sad... I thought they going can... haiz... Now do you agree I am more of a art person? Haha... I am starting to think is it because of JJ Lin? Cause he is very art person and he influences... yah... anyway... I am so sad I couldn't go for the drama fest :(

Look at this and if you see something... you will understand how I am feeling now...
Friday, February 06, 2009
Just to put on the facade of your true emotions...
OMG~ Our J1s are total muggers! I have hell no idea why they are at JJ when they mug... and this year our COP dropped... Haiz... 14 already very lousy ler nia... now drop until 15... haiz.... Oh yah... I am talking about the J1s... First week of school and our J1s are hogging my dining table studying... freaking scary can... I don remember myself studying the first week I came in can... I think I still playing and in orientation mood... haha...We came out with the conclusion that school was too boring for them that they start studying... haha... Anyway... Quite a few JVS ppl and I am being recognised... so malu can... hiaz...
Lol... I need someone to talk to now... any self-claimed counselers who chance upon my blog? Can you leave me a tag? haha...
我们之间不知道发生了什么事
不知何时我们之间没了话题
不知何时你已经不需要我的依靠了
是因为我对你没有利用价值了吗?
还是。。。
因为我不值得你花时间在我身上?
Sunday, January 25, 2009
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!!!
no new year resolutions this time cause I am having problems with the previous one... haha
Firstly, A Happy Birthday to E-goh! Have a Eventful Eighteen :)
Friday I was cheated to school cause the stupid VP told us that there was lessons and I was dumb enough to bring all my stuff... haha... lol... but the fun part was that we celebrated Ms Zhang's BD! She is so damn funny lahx... the water melon cake was pretty cute too... haha... took class pic but without darshana again... :( we gave her a cookbook and she was like... I can cook... haha.. Ms Chew was there too... whee! JieHeng, AikSong and Ted joined us too :) A reunion! And Ms Zhang was very pretty that day... after school sure to pa tuo lolx... haha...
But too bad we didn't manage to win the class deco... i think the judges have hell no idea what the crap we wrote... haha! Show you the pic :)

The story wrote:
Once upon a time
There were 27 childern with their MaMa
MaMa loves Chemistry
And will use Sugar Spice and Everything NICE
and 'POOF!'
change them into CH4 molecules
Unfortunately, 3 methane molecules flew away (Miss them)
Leaving 24 children...
Then... 24 children cloned out MaMa2
On the contrary, MaMa 2 loves Econs
She used ceteris paribus assumption
to change them into gold coins (keeping other factors constant)
Then they live happily ever after...
to be continued...
love 08S01...
lol... this is lame...
Oh ya! and I went to watch the wedding game yesterday... there were two scene that was damn funny lah! but I downa be spoiler here... I laughed like for another 2 mins after that scene passed lahx... And I saw a chinchilla! Haha... Ms Goh will go mad.... :X
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Think of me from Phantom of the opera :) Although not sang by JJ, but it's still nice and it makes me wonder how he hit that Ahahaahah part... I tried and my voice broke :(
Today I think I going to flunk that maths test... 3 out of 7 qn donno how to do... haha... lol... how to pass... somemore veron say the vectors all basic qns lehx... Die liaox... Haha... hmm... I am feeling a widening gap... I hope history dosen't repeat itself... just the other way round... haiz.. Time to PIA!!!
GO! BREAK! GO! BREAK! GO! BREAK! GO BREAK! BREAK GO!
CNY coming :) Everyone!
Saturday, January 17, 2009
I can't believe I just slept 3 hours just now... hmm... I wonder how I am going to sleep later... entertain me? Today's trip to NYP was great I would say but I went for typically the wrong thing... I was shecduled for radiography but crashed occupational instead... Judith too... haha... we crashed together... :) cause there activity looks great... But in the end we did like painting... you know the primary sch you cut the fruits and dip it in paint and then pa on the paper??? Yah... and some meditation I would say... haha... wanted to go physiotherapy one... but I saw there programme wrote, PT fitness drill... and I was 0_0 dowan go liaox... in the end found out it was just some agiligty drills... then wanted to jump over... but too late :( but occupational therapy is similar to physio... or to be true... I donno what's the difference.... the people there is very entertaining... this is like one in 100 lecture that I would laugh I suppose... haha...
If I am offered to scholarship in physiotherapy... I will go for it... I am sure of that... but if I am not offered... I am sorry... I am closing my doors for polytechnic education after A's... it's very very weird...and without scholarship who is going to pay for my overseas trip for a one yr degree? And one of the lecturers also said it's better to get sponsership...
Some notes to make here... School days = Emo days for me... So if you guys see me down in school... it's nothing in particular... just... I donno... yah... I just came to a conclusion that it's school days... and I am pretty sure some of you could see the difference of me during the hols and in school lahx... cause I felt the difference too... And maybe I am an XXX chromosome... who fails to show the femine side but the emotional side... who knows? OMG~ I am mutated...
Currently... sort of pissed off with one particular section of CDC... I really want to shout all the colourful words out this time... it's getting on my nerves... I really try to be just normal with it... but I can't... it's my resume... I counting on a scholarship through uni or rather poly... So please... stop doing this to me... I am really getting pissed... My hours gone wrong again!!! and WHAT THE FUCK.... It's fucking moving backwards!!!
Talking to my bro online now... it seems pretty weird... cause he is just 10 steps away... hmmm... I think I am a Shuang Main ren... or someone suffering from some mental disoorder... god...
Saturday, January 03, 2009
It's the new year! And I am going to be drown in A-levels! Hmm... Must be optimistic... yah... Count down was.... (5 crows flew pass) We met at 7 (Well.. Sort of I suggested the time) it's like damn early lahx... Ate BK and that stupid veron give me false hope... I thought she going count down with us... sobs.... Then go boonlay and shock dio... WanRong was like wearing so formal lahx... collared tee... kkz... and LiXuan talked and laugh alot... his teeth very cute >.<
I am happy today... so shall upload some photos from Korea :)
My very salty dinner on the plane... haha... :)
That's where our hostel is... The pics... later... :)
This is the first place we went to... MyeongDong... I think it's spelled like that... The street in the morning... wee :)
Hmm...Eating ice-cream in cold weather? It's pretty cool :) Cause it won't melt! You can take your time to eat... but my cone gave way instead :( Mine is the brown and white one (Choco & Vanilla) and actually I bit off the top lerx... you could look carefully to see it.. :)
OMG~ Who's this terrorist???
I had champange grape in Korea... Super Nice :))))
Our room... AKA Bangla room... see the clothes hanging around???
Let's compare the teacher's brush strokes (left) and mine (Right) haha... it's one heaven and one hell... haha... and the words are all written wrongly... wee :)
HanYoung school :) I went for exchange there... heheh...
Well... I shall stop here :) More pics nixt time when I am happy :)
Anyonghekahsaeyo :) = Goodbye :)
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Ask if I regretted going into JC, I would say yes. Junior College is just not right for me... O-levels result was plain luck... But I do understand why I chose JC over poly then... Several reasons... A lost bet, teacher's encouragement and also... the most important of all... I am afraid that I chose the wrong course... The one that wasn't meant to be...
But if you ask if I regretted going to JJ, I would say no. I know people will be shocked, but yes, I did not regret. JJ is great I would say. Although academic wise we are not there, but life is made better in JJ than other JC, I can bet on that. The activities planned, the chance they give to each student... were great. I was happy that I didn't appeal for AC then although there is like almost 0% I would get in anyway....
Reflections of 2008. JC life sucks big time, promos sux but ironically I got a bursary... Life is simply, eat sleep study eat sleep study... Next year? Or rather tomorrow? study study STUDY... and I think after A's all my notes has became kiam cai...
2009 resolutions? Shall start with the more difficult one...
- World Peace. Hope that next year I won't open the papers and see people dying due to terrorism attacks in middle east and India.
- Health: Scandals are no longer present. No more tainted milk, chocolate and what ever you can thing of.
- Financial Crisis: World-wide fall in stocks crashed many hopes and dreams. Next year we will make a good turn.
- Education: Hope I pass A-levels with flying colours and cope well with J2.
- Friends: Maintain the friendship I have with 7! I don't want history to repeat itself.
- Family & Friends: Stay happy and cheerful forever.
- Someone: To be more sensitive to it's surroundings (Not to say the person is a him or her... so just call the person it.)
- Myself: What goes around comes around.
Hope these things do come true :) Although point one is barely achievable :)
范逸臣-無樂不作.Mp3 -
That's all folks...
Say goodbye to 2008~
Sunday, December 21, 2008
8A Ann Siang Road
A.R.K House
22nd December 2008
3pm-5pm...

For people who are wondering why I am going around asking where the hell is Ann Siang Road... This is the reason... The launch of Smudge... The colour of freedom... You know... I am so darn tempted to buy this shirt... But the cost... hmm... 69.90... Haiz... I don't print money you see...
Okie... I watched Twilight last thursday... OMG~ Twilight owns me! I think that's the best movie I watched this year... I suppose... Hmm... The dashed to buy the book after the movie... but too bad... I couldn't get the original version :( so I took the movie version instead... the girls are saying that Edward is nice-looking but I feels like something about his face features is very wrong and indeed he look really like a vampire... haha... I think I like the dad Carlisle more :D I like the character Alice though after a reading marathon for 4 days and my parents saying that I am mad... hmm... The way she takes things peacefully... I suppose and her powers to see the future... But I must admit that Edward leaves me a very good impression in both the book and movie and I could really visualize his looks... well... sort of made biased by the guy who acted Edward... haha... But bella gives me the impression of a very weak girl which dosen't really tally with her character of dating a vampire... anyway... don't want to be a spoiler here but I think people who pass by here had read the book lahx... haha... I am wanting for more... I think I am swarming down orchard soon to get the other 3 books at one go... I don't want to make anymore trip to that mega town... :(
Anyway... before the movie, I was with Veron at Fareast and I finally dare to walk into the shop... it's really damn scary lahx... so dark and ulu... But I went in anyway and saw this... I think a vest... (Well... what do you call the sleevless jacket???) that I swore I saw derrick wearing to yu bai but it's red... erm... I thought the vest was cool... but the price was cooler... hmm... 115 bucks for god sake! I don;t own a bank! Anyway, the shop assistant was friendly and gave us the name card... went to check out the website and found a few nice clothes... Don't even bother to buy cause they are either sold out (no restocks) or too expensive... yah...
Tee=69, Jacket= 115~155, Caps= 69, Belts= 40 plus... yah... unless you own the bank or print money... you are not really going to get all these... haha..
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This two are similar shirts but just different colours... Sorry... Recently my world of colours are dull... I am madly in love with black... So you will see alot of blacks... hmm...
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I don't think it's very clear here.. but thats a hoodie (is that what you call a jacket with hoods?) And the prints are playing cards... Rather interesting...
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This is the vest I was talking about... but the one I saw was red in colour... pretty cool... I know it dosen't look nice here... but it look nice there in the shop :)))

This is the couple jeans... I like it because of the two leos at the back pocket... Super Kawaii desuka!
Hmm... come to think of it... i think this is the first time I finish a 400 near 500 pages book in 4 days... yah lahx.... you know my pace of reading... and my attention span... haha...
Friday, December 19, 2008
Tuesday, December 16, 2008
Now no one can say that I am still 16...
Yippee...
But stupid veron was saying two more months and she is 18...
and go watch M18 show dowan jio me... :(
Went East Coast park today to cycle.... Whee~ Months since I cycle we went to Changi Safra... but without the guys cause Lixuan was having problem with his blades and blade can't pass a rocky road to SAFRA so the guys went mac and the girl sat at the rock around SAFRA watching the sea... Haha... we sat there from high tide to low tide sia... talking about mountains, volcanos, typoon, hurricane and all your geo stuff... I can't imagine a volcano erupting in the sea and out of the sudden you see smoke -_-''' haha... Had mac for dinner and lunch... OMG... Actually wanted to eat Kao yu... but since the guys had mega mcspicy for tea-break I doubt they want a dinner... lol...
Anyway... THANKS Alfred, HuiMin, Seiyu, WanRong, LiXuan and Veron for the birthday gift! Although you guys gave me three random thing... eh... not really lahx... but at first I thought it was Sixology.... Haha... The shecdule book... Hmm... Actually I already had one... I bought from Korea... About the same... But that one is Zoo land and this one is fairy tale... haha... but anyway, I will use it next year :) Zoo Land can wait... And the pen... actually I had one too...but not so many colours... Shoelace... hmm... am I suppose to tie it to my shoe? I abit she bu de lehx... later dirty... Haha... and I have no idea what a shoelace have to do with a shecdule book and pen... hmm... But anyway, THANK YOU for your presents and today! (even though the birthday song was...)
2008:
Veron's BD- We haven't met each other...
WanRong's BD- We are still not close...
Alfred's BD- We went to Suntec for dinner @ Secret Recipe. And we shopped down the whole orchard to buy him a shirt.
SeiYu's BD- We had a gross movie at Cathay and we almost got Lixuan's house burnt down on baking cookies... haha... JK...
LiXuan's BD- We shopped Marina for a basketball... and I felt sorry for not being there during his BD...
HuiMin's BD- We tear down the whole of Giant IMM for BBQ stuff and drag our way to West coast and BBQed in the rain... We toured the country to get her a cap and a pencil case.
Beiyii's BD- We went to ECP and cycled in a single file... They shopped JP (I suppose) and got me a book, pen and shoelace.
Oue evolution of Birthdays... I wonder what's going to happen next year :)