Argh! I just missed the opportunity to earn a 1.5 times pay just because I forgot tml is FRIDAY!!! I keep thinking that tml is SAT and I am going sentosa tml... ZZzzzz.... Thanks lah... There goes my pay...
Anyway... It's new year's eve... I shall blog about happy events instead of angry ones... haha... this year... I am counting down at home... that's pretty pathetic... but somehow... as I grow older... festive seasons dosen't mean as much as before... In the past... if someone forgets my birthday... I might be quite sad... and I remember it's very silly of me one year that my family could not get a cake for my birthday and I cried... -_-''' Now... even if anyone forgets my birthday... I find it ok... no cake? Fine... haha... Same goes for chinese new year... in the past new year always means new clothes and pretty dress... but now... the rxn would be... New Year? Huh... have to go shopping again... haiz... Same goes for new year... in the past i use to love count down... but now... 3, 2, 1! Happy new year.... *handshake* *a hug* say goodbye... yah...
回顾这一段完美的人生（2009):
今年不是我风光的一年
走过大大小小的路
经历大大小小的挫折
至今有些还无法平复
当然的
今年也因为不风光
所以也让我看到了自己的软弱
自己不为人知的一面
我做了一个自己在从前都觉得自己不会是的那种人
2009 给了我一上了一个宝贵的人生课
让我感觉在今年以前 我都活在自己的世界里
自己那完美的世界里
2009 让我犯了人类的七大罪名
Extravagance （奢华）
Greed (贪污）
Acedia （忽略）
Despair （不满）
Warth (愤怒）
Envy （嫉妒）
Pride （自尊）
以前我不在乎奢华享受
只想安安分分的过日子
虽然觉得我拥有的不多
但不觉得缺了什么
但现在不一样了
我想要的我会想办法得到
明明不缺什么
但想要更多
名牌货 看上眼了
冒牌货 歧视了
可能是因为长大了吧
贪污 我可能改善了吧
我没有以前那样贪污的念头
嗯 这是好事
也应该是我今年唯一的好事
我今年忽略的人实在太多了
明知道被忽略的感觉是什么
但还是无法不经意的忽略了别人
现在关系僵了
话也无从说起
那句我一直想说的道歉也说不出口了
我忽略了家人的关心感受
我忽略了朋友对我的好意
今年我不满的事情实在太多了
说个两天也说不完吧
我不满家人对我的不了解
但现在我知道他们才是最了解我的人
我不满朋友对我的忽略
但现在的我知道她们并没有想要这么做
她们并不是没有敞开胸怀的接受我
而是我自己没有敞开胸怀的接受她们
今年令我愤怒的事情也很多
我愤怒自己不重用
愤怒自己的愚蠢 自己的自私
我愤怒家人对我没有信心
愤怒他们这样的贬低我
我不相信人没有嫉妒心
以前的我 有嫉妒心 但是良性的嫉妒
今年的我 也有嫉妒心 但是恶性的
我今年的嫉妒心真的让我看清楚我邪恶的那一面
那样恐怖的我 我是第一次看见
这嫉妒让我觉得我很坏 很邪恶
我不想再面对着样的我了
它让我觉得以前的我根本就在演戏
让我觉得真正的我不是善良 好相处
而是邪恶有动机 随时会在你背后捅你一刀的那种人
我真的无法相信我既然会是这一种人
每个人都有自尊 我当然也有
我今年因该没犯这样的罪吧
有也不记得了
所以2009
我虽然痛恨这一年
因为它带给我的痛苦很难忍受
但我也要感谢2009
它让我看清我的世界不是只有我一个
我的世界不是完美无缺
它让我看清我并不单纯
让我上了宝贵的课
不要再见了2009
也谢谢你给我18年一帆风顺的人生起一个波浪 让我在踏入社会之前感受到低潮 挫折 无助 的时候
GOODBYE 2009!!
WELCOME 2010!!
我想和吴慧敏 卢家慧 梁诗韵 曾庆文 胡立轩做永远的好朋友！我2010年唯一的愿望！
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Thursday, December 24, 2009
I am BACK from Thailand! Haha... It wasn't as fun as i expected it to be... but overall... it was ok... Pics... I am debating again whether i should put it on facebook or blogger... I tried on blogger and the freaking com... disconnected.... so... I didn't manage to post some of the pics here... You guys would be shocked how clear the water is man... haha... i shall post it another day then... then i tell you my journey to thailand... haha...
Anyway... I had a pleasant surprise on departure day (17/12)... Make a guess who I saw in Changi Airport on departure? I saw an artiste... I hope it's JJ.... but too bad... he wasn't.... haha... But i do somehow... like them... is a them... 2 person to be specific... haha.... Anyway... I don't think anyone will care who i saw lahx... But I am just happy that this is the first time I saw an international artiste in the airport... Haha... Oh yah... I haven't say who I saw... I saw 2 members of Fahrenheit... Arron Yan and Jiro Wang (I suppose it's Jiro cause my subconcious tells me it's calvin).... Yup... No idea why they are in Singapore... but they are leaving for Taiwan... It's purely coincidental that i saw them... and it's my mum who saw two suspicious looking character and ask me if it's them... lol... if not i think i will just walk pass them without noticing... Then my mum suggested to take photo with them... actually I want... but I don dare... cause it's like so damn 丢脸 lahx... I also donno why i will feel embarassed... Haha... then I told my sis when we came back and she ask... even if you really wanna take pic with them... do you think they will accept? Coming to think of it... Well... maybe not... haha...
So this is my pleasant surprise i had on departure day.... Haha... my trip to thailand.... next post together with pics bah.... :)
Then after the trip... I went back to work... announced the end of my training... which means that now I am only working night shift 6-9 and it's not everyday... So i am looking for another job... which has flexible working hours or normal working hours from 8-5.... Went to job central... applied for an admin job... the person called... I was so tempted to take up the job cause it's for the govt and armed forces (ppl who is close enough to me will know that I somehow... in one way or another admires armed forces... and sometimes goes abit over) and the place not very far away.... I was about to say yes... when the person say the working hour is from 9-6... and I was 晴天霹雳！AHHHHH!!! Then I told him I got another job which starts from 6... then he ask if i am willing to give up the job for this job... and I told him no... of course not... I signed contract with Q&M lah... Then when I hung up... I almost want to call back and negotiate with him if I can work from 8-5 instead... haiz... but I didn't.... anyway... the pay is not the pay that everyone will accept... but to me... it's not the pay that matters... I really want that job!!! haiz... So i decided that I shall only start looking for work in Jan... let me catch my breath and pack my table... for the last week of dec...
Oh yah! Before I forgot.... THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED MY A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! AND THANK YOU... HUIMIN, SIYUN, VERONICA, ALFRED AND LIXUAN FOR THE WONDERFUL TUESDAY AT ECP AND CLARKE QUAY! LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS! AND THANK YOU FOR THE WINNIE THE POOH! I LOVEEEE IT LOADS!
OH.... and btw... if Veron or Seiyu happens to stop by my blog...
VERON: may i know where the hell is your tagboard for your blog?? And can you change a blogskin? your blog is very dull... haha!
Seiyu: Do you still want the nitendo? You going this St. James this sat? Cause I going Malaysia next tues... and I think I am going to buy... want me help you buy? empty nitendo... RM 200 plus if I am not wrong...
Anyway... I had a pleasant surprise on departure day (17/12)... Make a guess who I saw in Changi Airport on departure? I saw an artiste... I hope it's JJ.... but too bad... he wasn't.... haha... But i do somehow... like them... is a them... 2 person to be specific... haha.... Anyway... I don't think anyone will care who i saw lahx... But I am just happy that this is the first time I saw an international artiste in the airport... Haha... Oh yah... I haven't say who I saw... I saw 2 members of Fahrenheit... Arron Yan and Jiro Wang (I suppose it's Jiro cause my subconcious tells me it's calvin).... Yup... No idea why they are in Singapore... but they are leaving for Taiwan... It's purely coincidental that i saw them... and it's my mum who saw two suspicious looking character and ask me if it's them... lol... if not i think i will just walk pass them without noticing... Then my mum suggested to take photo with them... actually I want... but I don dare... cause it's like so damn 丢脸 lahx... I also donno why i will feel embarassed... Haha... then I told my sis when we came back and she ask... even if you really wanna take pic with them... do you think they will accept? Coming to think of it... Well... maybe not... haha...
So this is my pleasant surprise i had on departure day.... Haha... my trip to thailand.... next post together with pics bah.... :)
Then after the trip... I went back to work... announced the end of my training... which means that now I am only working night shift 6-9 and it's not everyday... So i am looking for another job... which has flexible working hours or normal working hours from 8-5.... Went to job central... applied for an admin job... the person called... I was so tempted to take up the job cause it's for the govt and armed forces (ppl who is close enough to me will know that I somehow... in one way or another admires armed forces... and sometimes goes abit over) and the place not very far away.... I was about to say yes... when the person say the working hour is from 9-6... and I was 晴天霹雳！AHHHHH!!! Then I told him I got another job which starts from 6... then he ask if i am willing to give up the job for this job... and I told him no... of course not... I signed contract with Q&M lah... Then when I hung up... I almost want to call back and negotiate with him if I can work from 8-5 instead... haiz... but I didn't.... anyway... the pay is not the pay that everyone will accept... but to me... it's not the pay that matters... I really want that job!!! haiz... So i decided that I shall only start looking for work in Jan... let me catch my breath and pack my table... for the last week of dec...
Oh yah! Before I forgot.... THANKS TO ALL WHO WISHED MY A HAPPY BIRTHDAY! AND THANK YOU... HUIMIN, SIYUN, VERONICA, ALFRED AND LIXUAN FOR THE WONDERFUL TUESDAY AT ECP AND CLARKE QUAY! LOVE YOU GUYS LOADS! AND THANK YOU FOR THE WINNIE THE POOH! I LOVEEEE IT LOADS!
OH.... and btw... if Veron or Seiyu happens to stop by my blog...
VERON: may i know where the hell is your tagboard for your blog?? And can you change a blogskin? your blog is very dull... haha!
Seiyu: Do you still want the nitendo? You going this St. James this sat? Cause I going Malaysia next tues... and I think I am going to buy... want me help you buy? empty nitendo... RM 200 plus if I am not wrong...
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Today... I was suppose to go for the YAH birthday bash... but I didn't turn up... hiaz... feel quite guilty now... instead of going there... I actually stayed at home and watch my Black and White AKA 痞子英雄. Recomended show. Nice... Don't know why i wanna watch it in the first place... nobody that i like... but after watching is think Mark Zhao is DAMN COOL!!! haha... for a newbie... he is very good... if there's a movie coming up... i wanna watch... haha...
And... I log on to facebook to find that i am being tagged for prom photos!!! 晴天霹雳! Don mind anyway... now i wondering if i wanna post the pics on facebook... or should i post it here??? Haha... post some of my fav photos here bah... I should be posting the rest on facebook... omt... so many pics to upload man...haha...
The dog is damn kawaii... haha... it licks you like nobody's busniess... haha... More pics in facebook... going to be up like dono when.. after i come back from my hols? I still got kusu island and marina barrage haven upload... haiz...
Btw... JJ Lin's Album is coming out on 18th Dec!!!! Wootx.. Saw the mv... AHHHHHHH!! kkz... i am going mad... this time... by hook or by crook... i am going to buy... the last album i was waiting for a gai ban... and then... HE NEVER COME OUT WITH ANY GAI BAN!!! kkz... Shall not complain... kudos... Watching SEA games while blogging....
记得支持JJ 的【100天】！强力推荐【第几个100天】 :)
Tuesday, December 08, 2009
Actually I am damn lazy to blog... but i wanna blog about prom yesterday...WAHAHAHAHA...
Well... Prom was ok... I didn't really take as much pictures as i thought i did... cause I sort of smile until muscle cramp lah... and blinded by alot of flashlights... Anyway... Yesterday veron was all over the place... and my biggest regret... NO INDIVIDUAL PHOTOS WITH MISS GOH AND MISS ZHANG AND MISS CHEW!!!! SOBS SOBS X100 Haiz... and the clique photo is abit de blur lah... and without wanrong... that guy... got girlfriend dowan friends liao... haahaa... you should see how the two of them enter the place man... and we went to take photos with them... and me and veron looks like we are taking a wedding photo... ya... Anyway... I also ran around lahx... but not as much as veron...
Then the post-prom activity... total unglam. We wanted to go blacony bar... then it closed down lerx... so we went to orchard tower instead... Oh... I help the guys carry their coat man! this is the first time i help a guy carry coat... haha... quite cool actually... kkz... i think i am mad... In the end we wanted to go st. james but never open... then we want to go supper club (i suppose it's spelt like that) full... then we walk from orchard ion all the way to somewhere further down dobyghaut barefooted... cause we took off the freaking heels... And I think i damn noob... cause my one not even heels... haha... but cause the back of the shoes is giving me blisters... so i decided to take it off... haha... So we walk... and then wanted to walk to clarke quay... but wanna die liao... so stop by kopitiam and stone there until 2 plus and junwen suggested to drink my the river... I can't imagine myself drunk and sleeping by the river in prom attire... kkz...very unlikely it will happen anyway... ya... so I decided to go home... and so me alf and veron went home while lixuan shiva and huimin went to drink by the river... haiz... pathetic post prom activity... just not our day... monday... pubs either don open or close by 2... haha...
Went k-box at jurong SAFRA today... inside is totally diff from the k-box i went to in the past man... the 'remote control' is touch screen one seh... and the tv is LCD one leh... donno wad to say lah... haha... you can go check out yourself... but warning... no student price there... haha
Oh... Prom pics I will post... but another day... anyone who dowan their faces up on my blog... can spam my tagboard or just tell me personally... haha
Well... Prom was ok... I didn't really take as much pictures as i thought i did... cause I sort of smile until muscle cramp lah... and blinded by alot of flashlights... Anyway... Yesterday veron was all over the place... and my biggest regret... NO INDIVIDUAL PHOTOS WITH MISS GOH AND MISS ZHANG AND MISS CHEW!!!! SOBS SOBS X100 Haiz... and the clique photo is abit de blur lah... and without wanrong... that guy... got girlfriend dowan friends liao... haahaa... you should see how the two of them enter the place man... and we went to take photos with them... and me and veron looks like we are taking a wedding photo... ya... Anyway... I also ran around lahx... but not as much as veron...
Then the post-prom activity... total unglam. We wanted to go blacony bar... then it closed down lerx... so we went to orchard tower instead... Oh... I help the guys carry their coat man! this is the first time i help a guy carry coat... haha... quite cool actually... kkz... i think i am mad... In the end we wanted to go st. james but never open... then we want to go supper club (i suppose it's spelt like that) full... then we walk from orchard ion all the way to somewhere further down dobyghaut barefooted... cause we took off the freaking heels... And I think i damn noob... cause my one not even heels... haha... but cause the back of the shoes is giving me blisters... so i decided to take it off... haha... So we walk... and then wanted to walk to clarke quay... but wanna die liao... so stop by kopitiam and stone there until 2 plus and junwen suggested to drink my the river... I can't imagine myself drunk and sleeping by the river in prom attire... kkz...very unlikely it will happen anyway... ya... so I decided to go home... and so me alf and veron went home while lixuan shiva and huimin went to drink by the river... haiz... pathetic post prom activity... just not our day... monday... pubs either don open or close by 2... haha...
Went k-box at jurong SAFRA today... inside is totally diff from the k-box i went to in the past man... the 'remote control' is touch screen one seh... and the tv is LCD one leh... donno wad to say lah... haha... you can go check out yourself... but warning... no student price there... haha
Oh... Prom pics I will post... but another day... anyone who dowan their faces up on my blog... can spam my tagboard or just tell me personally... haha
Saturday, December 05, 2009
A's is finally over! But problems have not yet end...
One day ago I am worrying that i wouldn't be able to get a job.
One day later... I am sandwiched in the middle of two jobs which both I am unwilling to give up and would be force to give up the later one if there cannot be an agreement...
Is this life?
Why do we have to always make choices?
Anyway... I PLAYED the whole day of com today! DAMN SHUANG can... haha... you can see how long I have deprived myself from games... Oh... And I signed up for a facebook account... haha... add me if you want... Easy to find... haha....
Thurs went for new moon and sorry to say... but I almost slept in the theather... Not that the show is not nice... but it's just that after you have read the book... you seems to know what's going to happen next and it dosen't tempt you anymore... haiz... unlike twilight... but comparing the two... I prefer twilight... No blames anyway... as new moon the book itself is pretty boring... haha... And Jacob is OH MY TAIN the macho and cool MAN! I was like 0.o!!! And funniest thing happened in the cinema... There's one scene the robert patterson took off his clothes... and one girl in the theathre scream ,Eww so ugly.... OMG... At first i thought it was Seiyu cause it sounds like... but it's not lahx... anyway... that scene is really ugly... Edward is really ugly...
Prom's just two days away... I haven't bought my acessories!!!! Anyway... I might as well just go without any acessories... Doing Mani and maybe pedicure tomorrow... what colour should I paint my nails man! Haiz... Prom is irritating... I spend near to 300 buck already... haiz... Why on earth am I spending so much money for an event that I solely just wanted to go there and take pictures???
One day ago I am worrying that i wouldn't be able to get a job.
One day later... I am sandwiched in the middle of two jobs which both I am unwilling to give up and would be force to give up the later one if there cannot be an agreement...
Is this life?
Why do we have to always make choices?
Anyway... I PLAYED the whole day of com today! DAMN SHUANG can... haha... you can see how long I have deprived myself from games... Oh... And I signed up for a facebook account... haha... add me if you want... Easy to find... haha....
Thurs went for new moon and sorry to say... but I almost slept in the theather... Not that the show is not nice... but it's just that after you have read the book... you seems to know what's going to happen next and it dosen't tempt you anymore... haiz... unlike twilight... but comparing the two... I prefer twilight... No blames anyway... as new moon the book itself is pretty boring... haha... And Jacob is OH MY TAIN the macho and cool MAN! I was like 0.o!!! And funniest thing happened in the cinema... There's one scene the robert patterson took off his clothes... and one girl in the theathre scream ,Eww so ugly.... OMG... At first i thought it was Seiyu cause it sounds like... but it's not lahx... anyway... that scene is really ugly... Edward is really ugly...
Prom's just two days away... I haven't bought my acessories!!!! Anyway... I might as well just go without any acessories... Doing Mani and maybe pedicure tomorrow... what colour should I paint my nails man! Haiz... Prom is irritating... I spend near to 300 buck already... haiz... Why on earth am I spending so much money for an event that I solely just wanted to go there and take pictures???
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
I only have one word for my A-levels... That is... 惨!!!!
Haiz... Today's econs paper was a total sucks...
So much for me pia-ing macro policy...
YOu know what the toot came out?
NID and NIS!!! Circular flow of income!!! (超冷门的!)
Then the micro was worse... You can't even choose a question that you fully knows what it want man! Hiaz...
The globalization questi0n was... fine... i bet the easiest of all... but I suddenly can't remember the points!! ZZzzz... Lost motivation for studying econs man... Haizzzzz.....
Well... Not my motive for blogging... 不想提起伤心事... Now, i think I have problem clearing J2 man... Even maths which I have the most confidence in was a total failure... and I think it's super dumb to fail maths for a national exam... cause singaporeans are suppose to be good in maths... cambridge standard... Welll... Anyway... Anyone interested in looking at how 荒谬and 创新 cambridge is this year... You can get the maths, GP econs and chem papers from me... ZZzzzz....
Ok.. to my motive of blogging... Cause I was telling Huimin that after A-levels I think I will feel empty and 失去方向 cause i have been mugging for so long that I forgot how living life is like... Then she told that she did a to-do list after As to keep her in track... So I shall do it too... Cause I have alot of unfufilled wishes... Opp cost for studying...
TO DO LIST:
- Thailand trip -> Puhket
- Volunteer under SPCA
- Try out as a physiotherapist or a occupational therapist
- Work (That's of course)
- International voluntary work
- K-box (I can't remember when was the last time I went)
- Learn Dancing (Particularly Hip-hop)
- Bake
- Cook
- Slim down ****
- Finish my unfinished work
- 和老朋友叙旧
- 保留现有的友情
- Taiwan
- Sports (Netball especially)
- Go Sentosa! (I am devoid of the sun for damn long)
- Shopping Spree (这很难得!)
That's all i remember... for now.. I still feel i forgot something very important... Haha...
我会变得更勇敢
我不会再轻易掉泪
我不会再轻视自己的生命
我会改变 等全新的我东山再起吧!
Haiz... Today's econs paper was a total sucks...
So much for me pia-ing macro policy...
YOu know what the toot came out?
NID and NIS!!! Circular flow of income!!! (超冷门的!)
Then the micro was worse... You can't even choose a question that you fully knows what it want man! Hiaz...
The globalization questi0n was... fine... i bet the easiest of all... but I suddenly can't remember the points!! ZZzzz... Lost motivation for studying econs man... Haizzzzz.....
Well... Not my motive for blogging... 不想提起伤心事... Now, i think I have problem clearing J2 man... Even maths which I have the most confidence in was a total failure... and I think it's super dumb to fail maths for a national exam... cause singaporeans are suppose to be good in maths... cambridge standard... Welll... Anyway... Anyone interested in looking at how 荒谬and 创新 cambridge is this year... You can get the maths, GP econs and chem papers from me... ZZzzzz....
Ok.. to my motive of blogging... Cause I was telling Huimin that after A-levels I think I will feel empty and 失去方向 cause i have been mugging for so long that I forgot how living life is like... Then she told that she did a to-do list after As to keep her in track... So I shall do it too... Cause I have alot of unfufilled wishes... Opp cost for studying...
TO DO LIST:
- Thailand trip -> Puhket
- Volunteer under SPCA
- Try out as a physiotherapist or a occupational therapist
- Work (That's of course)
- International voluntary work
- K-box (I can't remember when was the last time I went)
- Learn Dancing (Particularly Hip-hop)
- Bake
- Cook
- Slim down ****
- Finish my unfinished work
- 和老朋友叙旧
- 保留现有的友情
- Taiwan
- Sports (Netball especially)
- Go Sentosa! (I am devoid of the sun for damn long)
- Shopping Spree (这很难得!)
That's all i remember... for now.. I still feel i forgot something very important... Haha...
我会变得更勇敢
我不会再轻易掉泪
我不会再轻视自己的生命
我会改变 等全新的我东山再起吧!
Saturday, October 10, 2009
I had sudden realization that doing maths can also shape a character...
I was doing vectors for the past 1 hour and I only did 3 question...
Wanna know why?
Cause I keep having mistakes...
First... I copy wrong number...
next... I forgot to square...
Then... see question wongly...
ZZZzzz.... Vectors is getting on my nerves...
Damn irritated now...
Hmm... Maths is after of a test of patience...
I wonder how long more do i need to take to finish that freaking TYS...
I still wanna do my complex and differentiation one leh!
Oh... I was complaining about buying another SWATCH and I couldn't find the ones I like right? And I was saying that there was a SWATCH showcase in Beijing not long ago... Here are some designs that I find it pretty nice... Copyrights and credits goes to JJ Lin's Official Website :)
So it started off with this... Blank...
Then... The artist came to draw and design on the watches... and while they were doing...
This is SUPER cool...
And this... IS SO NICE!!! I LOVE IT!!!! Hope they do produce this watch... :))))
Yup... Abit kiddy... But I think is damn nice... YES man... HOHOH.... Again... Credits goes to JJ Lin's Official website... :) Can make a visit if you wan to...
Webbie: http://www.jjfusion.com/
Monday, September 07, 2009
虽然迟了一点但今天的我发现这里没有我的容身之地。不管走到那里都感觉是多余的。为何我会有这种想法呢？连我自己也不晓得。所以我也不盼望朋友会知道。
曾经很想问你们这几句简单却对我来说充满意义话：
如果我消失了
你们会在多久之后发现呢？
一小时？ 两小时？还是突然想起我时才发现我以不在了？
答案。。。我从没想也不想知道。
如果我累了，脱队了
你们会责怪我吗？
答案。。。我想我知道。
如果你们想出去玩
但你们知道我最近心情不好
可能会破坏你们的美好时光
你们会叫我吗？
答案。。。 我想知道。
你们不必多说我也知道你们并不会多看我一眼
我是一个在你们没人约没人管的时候想起的一个朋友吧
就像一个你小时候很喜欢的一个洋娃娃
曾经喜欢的不得了
后来没兴趣了就随手丢到一边去
回过头突然想起洋娃娃的存在
再去拥抱它。
我想。。。我在你们的心目中因该是这样的洋娃娃吧。。。
今年的生日
有谁会记得？
不要让我想那女孩一样
许一个那么不开心的愿望。。。
最后我当今的心情就如这句话吧。。。
『是否我沉默了，你才能听到我的心声
是否我停止了， 你才能看到我的眼泪
是否我心碎了，你才会摸到我的心痛
是否我消失了，你才会知道我的存在』
完毕。
曾经很想问你们这几句简单却对我来说充满意义话：
如果我消失了
你们会在多久之后发现呢？
一小时？ 两小时？还是突然想起我时才发现我以不在了？
答案。。。我从没想也不想知道。
如果我累了，脱队了
你们会责怪我吗？
答案。。。我想我知道。
如果你们想出去玩
但你们知道我最近心情不好
可能会破坏你们的美好时光
你们会叫我吗？
答案。。。 我想知道。
你们不必多说我也知道你们并不会多看我一眼
我是一个在你们没人约没人管的时候想起的一个朋友吧
就像一个你小时候很喜欢的一个洋娃娃
曾经喜欢的不得了
后来没兴趣了就随手丢到一边去
回过头突然想起洋娃娃的存在
再去拥抱它。
我想。。。我在你们的心目中因该是这样的洋娃娃吧。。。
今年的生日
有谁会记得？
不要让我想那女孩一样
许一个那么不开心的愿望。。。
最后我当今的心情就如这句话吧。。。
『是否我沉默了，你才能听到我的心声
是否我停止了， 你才能看到我的眼泪
是否我心碎了，你才会摸到我的心痛
是否我消失了，你才会知道我的存在』
完毕。
Saturday, September 05, 2009
Results sux...
So I went retail therapy today...
Well... Pretty weird for me to go retail therapy...
Haha...
Anyway, I finally bought my shoe... and I think I wanna buy another one >.<
Haiz... Addiction is fatal...
BBQ on monday... Whheeee...
Should I massage them to go mountain climbing?
I should.... Maybe I should not...
Haiz... 明天再说...
How many more tomorrows do I have?
Many thinks that immunity is good...
Now I think immunity is not good at all...
I am immune to failure...
Plunged for maths and I am not feeling as sad as I thought I would be...
I should be sad...
I should be unhappy...
I should cry...
I should....
Why do I have to tell myself that I should be sad? Isn't this suppose to be a natural feeling?
Haiz... 人生....
Living is getting harder and harder as the days go by...
So I went retail therapy today...
Well... Pretty weird for me to go retail therapy...
Haha...
Anyway, I finally bought my shoe... and I think I wanna buy another one >.<
Haiz... Addiction is fatal...
BBQ on monday... Whheeee...
Should I massage them to go mountain climbing?
I should.... Maybe I should not...
Haiz... 明天再说...
How many more tomorrows do I have?
Many thinks that immunity is good...
Now I think immunity is not good at all...
I am immune to failure...
Plunged for maths and I am not feeling as sad as I thought I would be...
I should be sad...
I should be unhappy...
I should cry...
I should....
Why do I have to tell myself that I should be sad? Isn't this suppose to be a natural feeling?
Haiz... 人生....
Living is getting harder and harder as the days go by...
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Prelim finally over... Yippeeeeeee!
Ok... It's not like I put in my heart and soul for this prelim --> Cause have been mugging for so long until I think prelim period I fatigue liao... LOL...
Anyway... The end of prelims also means that there is not much time left from now the 09-11-09...Haiz...
Who was the one who told me A-level is just A LITTLE BIT stressful than o level?!!!!
I have have a hell hard time for A's than O's can.... It's not A LITTLE BIT... It's ALOT can... So lesson learnt... NEver listen to what others say... Believe in yourself....
Why earth did I choose this path!!! I should have stayed to my will back then... 我真是一个不定心的人啊! 算了。。。 下次就死死坚持我的理念和我相信对我自己最好的。。。
Anyway... Recently.... I seem to have a self realization... I am not that kind hearted as I thought I am (OMG~ I am so dowan face) and my 心胸也没有很宽阔 like some people think... I think I am a very petty person... I think Veron seems to know that... Haha... I get angry very easily... especially during this period of time... and when I get angry... I don't scold I don't scream... but I will have a black face... and keep very quiet... cause I am afraid I will scold and scream when I open my mouth... LOL... Hmm... sometimes I want to hide my anger... because sometimes... you are just angry with yourself... it has totally nothing to do with anybody... but the people around you seems to be your victim... and I feel very selfish and bad to pull friends down... 人家的好心情就因为我的黑脸而变成坏心情... This dosen't seem to be the way I want it... So people... next time you see my black face... just don care.. OK? I will be better after awhile... Can self recuperate one... Hahaa... So I don't think I am a kind of person who is able to help... I can be a good listener but never a good advisor... And sometimes... Your story may make be very emotional... and when everything bottles up... The next person who add that last ingredient will be my victim... Sometimes it's actually not the person fault... the person just so happen to push the button... So I am really sorry for that last person... yup...
Ok... I am blabbering rubbish... as you can see... no sentence structure one... The moral of the story is... I have this sudden self realization that physiotherapy dosen't seem to be a right job for a person like me... what if one day I blast at my patient... I will be like OMG!!! And I am pretty a pessimist...
Maybe I will change for the better... but currently... I am opening myself up to some other courses... Physiotherapy although still on the top of my list... It dosen't mean it can't be replaced... :)
原本答应自己要保持一段距离
所以在离开时才不会觉得特别的痛苦
但我却让你们一步一步的接近
这样-如果你们真的离开了我
我也不知道我会不会痛苦得无法自拔
我不想被捅一刀有一刀
完毕 :)
Ok... It's not like I put in my heart and soul for this prelim --> Cause have been mugging for so long until I think prelim period I fatigue liao... LOL...
Anyway... The end of prelims also means that there is not much time left from now the 09-11-09...Haiz...
Who was the one who told me A-level is just A LITTLE BIT stressful than o level?!!!!
I have have a hell hard time for A's than O's can.... It's not A LITTLE BIT... It's ALOT can... So lesson learnt... NEver listen to what others say... Believe in yourself....
Why earth did I choose this path!!! I should have stayed to my will back then... 我真是一个不定心的人啊! 算了。。。 下次就死死坚持我的理念和我相信对我自己最好的。。。
Anyway... Recently.... I seem to have a self realization... I am not that kind hearted as I thought I am (OMG~ I am so dowan face) and my 心胸也没有很宽阔 like some people think... I think I am a very petty person... I think Veron seems to know that... Haha... I get angry very easily... especially during this period of time... and when I get angry... I don't scold I don't scream... but I will have a black face... and keep very quiet... cause I am afraid I will scold and scream when I open my mouth... LOL... Hmm... sometimes I want to hide my anger... because sometimes... you are just angry with yourself... it has totally nothing to do with anybody... but the people around you seems to be your victim... and I feel very selfish and bad to pull friends down... 人家的好心情就因为我的黑脸而变成坏心情... This dosen't seem to be the way I want it... So people... next time you see my black face... just don care.. OK? I will be better after awhile... Can self recuperate one... Hahaa... So I don't think I am a kind of person who is able to help... I can be a good listener but never a good advisor... And sometimes... Your story may make be very emotional... and when everything bottles up... The next person who add that last ingredient will be my victim... Sometimes it's actually not the person fault... the person just so happen to push the button... So I am really sorry for that last person... yup...
Ok... I am blabbering rubbish... as you can see... no sentence structure one... The moral of the story is... I have this sudden self realization that physiotherapy dosen't seem to be a right job for a person like me... what if one day I blast at my patient... I will be like OMG!!! And I am pretty a pessimist...
Maybe I will change for the better... but currently... I am opening myself up to some other courses... Physiotherapy although still on the top of my list... It dosen't mean it can't be replaced... :)
原本答应自己要保持一段距离
所以在离开时才不会觉得特别的痛苦
但我却让你们一步一步的接近
这样-如果你们真的离开了我
我也不知道我会不会痛苦得无法自拔
我不想被捅一刀有一刀
完毕 :)
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Is there something wrong with blogger or is it just my coms?
Both my laptop and the CPU is having problem with blogger..
This page is damn weird... LOL...
Hetic week is finally over...
Imagine yourself having 3 content-based paper for one day...
It's a total OMG!
And the stupid thing that happened yesterday...
There was one question on defining enthalpy change of formation under standard conditions.
And my answer ended with ceteris paribus.... OMG...
I think I went mad... I almost laughed out lah...
If I really did I think the people and teachers will look at me like I am mad...
Haha...
Anyway, This prelim is very weird for me...
Hmm... Donno how to put it into word...
Just feeling too slack for a prelim...
Haiz...
Is this good or bad??
Both my laptop and the CPU is having problem with blogger..
This page is damn weird... LOL...
Hetic week is finally over...
Imagine yourself having 3 content-based paper for one day...
It's a total OMG!
And the stupid thing that happened yesterday...
There was one question on defining enthalpy change of formation under standard conditions.
And my answer ended with ceteris paribus.... OMG...
I think I went mad... I almost laughed out lah...
If I really did I think the people and teachers will look at me like I am mad...
Haha...
Anyway, This prelim is very weird for me...
Hmm... Donno how to put it into word...
Just feeling too slack for a prelim...
Haiz...
Is this good or bad??
Saturday, August 01, 2009
As the time nears, everyone inevitably gets stressed up and become sensitive to even the tiniest thing
But this is the very time we test how this friendship holds.
Many believes that friends in High school and university will be your friends for life.
Or at least for a longer period of time compared to those you made friends with in Sec and pri school but I seem to have some doubts to that...
I don't know how many agrees to this...
But it does matter to me...
101 Days... See me shine :)
But this is the very time we test how this friendship holds.
Many believes that friends in High school and university will be your friends for life.
Or at least for a longer period of time compared to those you made friends with in Sec and pri school but I seem to have some doubts to that...
I don't know how many agrees to this...
But it does matter to me...
101 Days... See me shine :)
Friday, July 10, 2009
My prophecy came true... I totally flunked my Chem paper like some shit... yah... So do I expect to flunk my bio worse than what I expected because ms goh said it was very easy to mark... you know why? Cause all she need to do is to strike out the whole page and put zero... or put crosses because we didn't even answer the question... I think this time we really made her very angry that she gave up on us... Anyway, she was saying that she wants all As for S01... and said that we are brilliant... but I seriously think that she didn't count me (the lost sheep) into the brilliant S01 class... yah... I am hell sure I can't ace my bio lahx (although I want to Ace it alot)...
Well... Even though I expected my bio the fail... I think abit too highly of myself... I thought I will do well in the MCQ... and in the end? I failed... I think I am the sole failure in the class lahx... haiz.... and she asked me again... did you study? Yes... I studied... but for the whole common test... I am so crushed up that my mind is not thinking at all... Not processing anything... Hiaz.... I flunk even the MCQ and I can say good game to paper 2 liao lolx... Bye...
I hope that I fail the chem paper because of time management.... Because I really left almost 20 marks blank... yah... but some how... I don't really think so... I shall try the paper again during the weekend... Haiz... I flunk chem... My favourite subject... Somehow... people don't always do well in their favourite subject... yah... somehow... I like chem but I can't get pass the C grade. Then veron likes bio and she is also not doing well in it. Then huimin likes maths.... Although she is doing well... but I think she is not very satisfied with her maths results either... haiz... why does things go this way? What you like, you don't do well... What you don really like... You are doing pretty well.... I don't like maths... but I think I am doing pretty well for it... But I like chem and I flunk like no busniess.... What is this man...
Oh yah... and all the teachers said that we are blind... Haha... first day of school... First lesson... Ms Zhang was like... Your chem common test huh.... Hiaz.... then the typical haiz face... jia lat.... Then she commented that our class is blind... you all don't read the question.... And today she was checking my paper... she was like... You people need to go for reading lessons... I was like... Hahaha.... oh... and she said my section A was ok... And section B was horrendous.... haiz... no time... brain died.... yah.... Back to the blind part... Then we went for maths... Mdm goh was like, the question said to write in exact form and you all write in decimal points... You all are blind.... The second one liaox.... Then went for bio.... and ms goh.... totally disspointed with our class that she even said... don't care about the 交代 part... I will answer to it... and said that S1 gone crazy for this common test... really sad.... and she said that everyone in our class is blind... haiz... 3rd teacher.... then go for GP.... Ms chew was going through the common test paper 1... and she was talking about the culture question and said that we are BLIND to ignore the word ever... haha.... 4th teacher... and guess how many teachers I have in total? 5.... so only left with econs chew who haven say that we are blind... and i think she won't so bad one lahx... So are we really blind? I don't know... maybe I am.... selectively blind...
Anyway... I was lucky that I passed GP... Yes... I passed GP when half the class failed... Somehow... I think it's luck... my paper 2 AQ.... the teacher was like commenting on my weak LOA and I still manage to pass the AQ... I mean 4 marks lah... then yanting and veron one was like... good LOA and arguement... then 3 marks... I was like ???? why???? Maybe the teacher see I failing so badly liao then let me pass.... who knows? Then paper 1... veron have like good arguments and examples.... and seiyu just had uninspiring examples and points... and they both get only 25... and me... not answering part of the question... weak LOA.... then still can get 27... h0ow? I also donno.... I think it's pure luck that I passed my GP this time... Maybe I should continue to belief in luck now... haha....
One day... Maybe I would become so immune to failure that it will not become a motivation anymore.... And I seriously hope... this is not going to come any soon... and please don't come soon... can come after A-levels? It's better to be worry and cry because you fail instead of having the 'fail ah? nevermind lah... always fail one... never pass before...' attitude... Somehow... I think I am starting to develop this immunity... can someone come and 刺激 me?
Well... Even though I expected my bio the fail... I think abit too highly of myself... I thought I will do well in the MCQ... and in the end? I failed... I think I am the sole failure in the class lahx... haiz.... and she asked me again... did you study? Yes... I studied... but for the whole common test... I am so crushed up that my mind is not thinking at all... Not processing anything... Hiaz.... I flunk even the MCQ and I can say good game to paper 2 liao lolx... Bye...
I hope that I fail the chem paper because of time management.... Because I really left almost 20 marks blank... yah... but some how... I don't really think so... I shall try the paper again during the weekend... Haiz... I flunk chem... My favourite subject... Somehow... people don't always do well in their favourite subject... yah... somehow... I like chem but I can't get pass the C grade. Then veron likes bio and she is also not doing well in it. Then huimin likes maths.... Although she is doing well... but I think she is not very satisfied with her maths results either... haiz... why does things go this way? What you like, you don't do well... What you don really like... You are doing pretty well.... I don't like maths... but I think I am doing pretty well for it... But I like chem and I flunk like no busniess.... What is this man...
Oh yah... and all the teachers said that we are blind... Haha... first day of school... First lesson... Ms Zhang was like... Your chem common test huh.... Hiaz.... then the typical haiz face... jia lat.... Then she commented that our class is blind... you all don't read the question.... And today she was checking my paper... she was like... You people need to go for reading lessons... I was like... Hahaha.... oh... and she said my section A was ok... And section B was horrendous.... haiz... no time... brain died.... yah.... Back to the blind part... Then we went for maths... Mdm goh was like, the question said to write in exact form and you all write in decimal points... You all are blind.... The second one liaox.... Then went for bio.... and ms goh.... totally disspointed with our class that she even said... don't care about the 交代 part... I will answer to it... and said that S1 gone crazy for this common test... really sad.... and she said that everyone in our class is blind... haiz... 3rd teacher.... then go for GP.... Ms chew was going through the common test paper 1... and she was talking about the culture question and said that we are BLIND to ignore the word ever... haha.... 4th teacher... and guess how many teachers I have in total? 5.... so only left with econs chew who haven say that we are blind... and i think she won't so bad one lahx... So are we really blind? I don't know... maybe I am.... selectively blind...
Anyway... I was lucky that I passed GP... Yes... I passed GP when half the class failed... Somehow... I think it's luck... my paper 2 AQ.... the teacher was like commenting on my weak LOA and I still manage to pass the AQ... I mean 4 marks lah... then yanting and veron one was like... good LOA and arguement... then 3 marks... I was like ???? why???? Maybe the teacher see I failing so badly liao then let me pass.... who knows? Then paper 1... veron have like good arguments and examples.... and seiyu just had uninspiring examples and points... and they both get only 25... and me... not answering part of the question... weak LOA.... then still can get 27... h0ow? I also donno.... I think it's pure luck that I passed my GP this time... Maybe I should continue to belief in luck now... haha....
One day... Maybe I would become so immune to failure that it will not become a motivation anymore.... And I seriously hope... this is not going to come any soon... and please don't come soon... can come after A-levels? It's better to be worry and cry because you fail instead of having the 'fail ah? nevermind lah... always fail one... never pass before...' attitude... Somehow... I think I am starting to develop this immunity... can someone come and 刺激 me?
Saturday, July 04, 2009
Maybe the comment was just a voice of thoughts...
Maybe it was unintentional...
Maybe it serve as a hard knock for me...
But that comment made me deep in thoughts for the whole night...
Today morning... the moment I open my eyes...
The thought came back...
It never left me...
till now...
Since I made that decision...
I shall not regret....
At least that's what I can trying to convince myself now...
Today I went to watch TRANSFORMERS!!! WHOO!! The movie is so damn nice! Why did anyone even critic it? oK... I am taking an extreme view... But I don really like the last part cause I can't really differentiate between the autobots and the decepticons (is it spelt like that? I doubt so...)... Ok... I am noob... and the four of us is damn weird... no one watch transformers 1 and went to watch transformers 2... then I was sort of lost in the first 10mins of the show trying to remember which are the good robots and which are the bad... haha... But I like the twins(The red and green one) and bumble bee is also very cute... haha... I like the autobots lahx... they were really great... And michael bay even added humour in... I was like laughing all the way lah... the main lead also very funny... haha... and megan fox is really hot... Leo is funny too... His dorm mate... haha... Now I know why transformers is such a blockbuster.... I wouldn't wanna miss transformers 3... WHOOO!
Anyway... HM asked me today... "Why do you want to be a physiotherapist?" And I told her.... I don't know how to put that feeling into words... In the first place... It's ironic and ridiculous that an introvert like me would want to work as a physiotherapist which is considered under social work... It start out during this adam khoo workshop where the trainer told us to draw out our life path... What we wanna do in the future... And then I was fliping through the book and saw physiotherapy.... Then I was thinking... physiotherapy is such a cool job.... It's offered in Singapore? And so for the sake of writing a life path... I wrote physiotherapy... Then I thought it's just writing for the sake of writing... But somehow... this passion grew... I wanted more and more to be a physiotherapist... I want to help... The satisfaction of your patients walking out your clinic... they came in in a wheelchair.... then months later... they walk out... the sense of appreciation they have for you... the sense of satisfaction you have for yourself... isn't it great? Well... it may just be what i think.... Maybe patient wouldn't thank you... I thought it just a impluse act... something that I will soon not care about... But now I am very sure... yes... I want to be a physiotherapist... i really want to be... And I really hope this is not an impluse act... I remember... in primary school.... I wanted to be a marine biologist... In sec 2, I want to be a nutritionist... in sec 3... I want to be a navy... and sec 4 a physiotherapist... every year... my ambition changed... but this time... it stayed... and it grew... I am really happy for myself... Ok... this took me quite sometime to type out... my 'feelings'... I told you it can't be put into words... so this is the best I can do...
Anyway... yesterday I went swimming at CDANDS... It has been years since I went there... and I am like so damn noob... I can't even find the changing room... -_-''' kkz... anyway... It feels really good to swim.... if there is nothing much to do this coming weekend... I think I am going to go for another swim... Anyone care to go with me? Haha... Better not... you will vomit our what you ate 2 days before... haha... :)
Maybe it was unintentional...
Maybe it serve as a hard knock for me...
But that comment made me deep in thoughts for the whole night...
Today morning... the moment I open my eyes...
The thought came back...
It never left me...
till now...
Since I made that decision...
I shall not regret....
At least that's what I can trying to convince myself now...
Today I went to watch TRANSFORMERS!!! WHOO!! The movie is so damn nice! Why did anyone even critic it? oK... I am taking an extreme view... But I don really like the last part cause I can't really differentiate between the autobots and the decepticons (is it spelt like that? I doubt so...)... Ok... I am noob... and the four of us is damn weird... no one watch transformers 1 and went to watch transformers 2... then I was sort of lost in the first 10mins of the show trying to remember which are the good robots and which are the bad... haha... But I like the twins(The red and green one) and bumble bee is also very cute... haha... I like the autobots lahx... they were really great... And michael bay even added humour in... I was like laughing all the way lah... the main lead also very funny... haha... and megan fox is really hot... Leo is funny too... His dorm mate... haha... Now I know why transformers is such a blockbuster.... I wouldn't wanna miss transformers 3... WHOOO!
Anyway... HM asked me today... "Why do you want to be a physiotherapist?" And I told her.... I don't know how to put that feeling into words... In the first place... It's ironic and ridiculous that an introvert like me would want to work as a physiotherapist which is considered under social work... It start out during this adam khoo workshop where the trainer told us to draw out our life path... What we wanna do in the future... And then I was fliping through the book and saw physiotherapy.... Then I was thinking... physiotherapy is such a cool job.... It's offered in Singapore? And so for the sake of writing a life path... I wrote physiotherapy... Then I thought it's just writing for the sake of writing... But somehow... this passion grew... I wanted more and more to be a physiotherapist... I want to help... The satisfaction of your patients walking out your clinic... they came in in a wheelchair.... then months later... they walk out... the sense of appreciation they have for you... the sense of satisfaction you have for yourself... isn't it great? Well... it may just be what i think.... Maybe patient wouldn't thank you... I thought it just a impluse act... something that I will soon not care about... But now I am very sure... yes... I want to be a physiotherapist... i really want to be... And I really hope this is not an impluse act... I remember... in primary school.... I wanted to be a marine biologist... In sec 2, I want to be a nutritionist... in sec 3... I want to be a navy... and sec 4 a physiotherapist... every year... my ambition changed... but this time... it stayed... and it grew... I am really happy for myself... Ok... this took me quite sometime to type out... my 'feelings'... I told you it can't be put into words... so this is the best I can do...
Anyway... yesterday I went swimming at CDANDS... It has been years since I went there... and I am like so damn noob... I can't even find the changing room... -_-''' kkz... anyway... It feels really good to swim.... if there is nothing much to do this coming weekend... I think I am going to go for another swim... Anyone care to go with me? Haha... Better not... you will vomit our what you ate 2 days before... haha... :)
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Common test is finally over... And you know how I feel? I felt like I finished As... and if that's really the case... I am going to flunk my As with flying colurs... Analysis?
Maths paper- Hmm... It's relatively ok but higher standard than previous tests. Btw... I like sitting in the very front of the row... I think it helps me concentrate better... or maybe it's because it's first paper and I had a slacky sunday that made me concentrate? and think better? Who knows...
Chem paper- TOTAL goner... I 太对不起 MS zhang lerx... 40 mark question... 20 mark never do... 10 marks of crap... Then paper 1... 'you still have 15min' guess wad question I am at? question 18... How many question in total? 40. How much time I used to do the 18 question? 45mins. Yup... So it's going to be pretty a miracle if I can even get an S grade for Chem...
Econs paper- It's do-able... but my mind is not thinking that day... essay on microeconomy part a if you minus away my graph... the essay is only half a page long...hhaa... half a page for 10 marks? You wait a million years... Then macro... I write and write and write until the last 10mins... I found out that I am not concentration on the right policy... -_-''' total shame... My econs is going to drop from A to S liaox... 天堂到地狱...
Bio paper- I didn't start out with any hope of passing that damn paper... But MCQ turn out alright... Maybe 平常心 is better... Cause I think I wanted to do well so much for econs that I tend to think alot and stress myself up alot... But paper 2 turn out a disaster for me... haha... I didn't finish the paper... hmm... as expected... And I started out with essay and halfway through the structured qns... I found a similar question... so I am wondering if I wrote my essay out of point? Lol... this is stupid...
So... if you think I can pass my CT... please tell me... Cause I am very sure this time I am going to 垫底 in S01 liao... Ranking point drop from 72 to 40 something bah... lolx...
Then CT do until like that this girl still wanna go for PSC scholarship talk... really... think too much lahx...haha...
Oh yah... I did say I felt like As is over... cause for some reason or another... I am super high... super happy.... I can't stop smiling... --> omg... she went mad from overdose of studying... Why I feel like that? Can some physchologist come tell me? Overstress? Lack of sleep? Fatigue??? Denial?
Oh... and through this common test... I finally felt what is stress... the stress that is totally out of my control... the stress that I have totally no control of... thoughts that I didn't have in the past came... Mood swings are more and more often... and I am starting to live in denial... denying that I am not taking my As this year... lol... symptoms of depression? haha...
I WANT WATCH TRANSFORMERS!!!
Btw... How long with the michael Jackson thing last? another week I suppose... He is really a great person although I have no particular feelings for him... but I saw his videos on youtube... 1 one... COOL.... slick moonwalk and he really pops like a freaking robot.... Now I see why JJ and many other artiste and musicans see him as a enternal idol and stand by his side even with those scandals... and I was reading the papers yesterday and there is this 'headline' -
麦克杰迅-- 月球漫步一小步 流行文化一大步....
I think it makes sense.... Go Michael Jackson!
放下- 也许会快乐些
放弃- 也许会解脱些
人生道路没人能替你走
自己的未来 自己掌握
相信无限...
..::No one can stop you unless you stop yourself, No one will push you unless you push yourself. The choice is yours::..
Maths paper- Hmm... It's relatively ok but higher standard than previous tests. Btw... I like sitting in the very front of the row... I think it helps me concentrate better... or maybe it's because it's first paper and I had a slacky sunday that made me concentrate? and think better? Who knows...
Chem paper- TOTAL goner... I 太对不起 MS zhang lerx... 40 mark question... 20 mark never do... 10 marks of crap... Then paper 1... 'you still have 15min' guess wad question I am at? question 18... How many question in total? 40. How much time I used to do the 18 question? 45mins. Yup... So it's going to be pretty a miracle if I can even get an S grade for Chem...
Econs paper- It's do-able... but my mind is not thinking that day... essay on microeconomy part a if you minus away my graph... the essay is only half a page long...hhaa... half a page for 10 marks? You wait a million years... Then macro... I write and write and write until the last 10mins... I found out that I am not concentration on the right policy... -_-''' total shame... My econs is going to drop from A to S liaox... 天堂到地狱...
Bio paper- I didn't start out with any hope of passing that damn paper... But MCQ turn out alright... Maybe 平常心 is better... Cause I think I wanted to do well so much for econs that I tend to think alot and stress myself up alot... But paper 2 turn out a disaster for me... haha... I didn't finish the paper... hmm... as expected... And I started out with essay and halfway through the structured qns... I found a similar question... so I am wondering if I wrote my essay out of point? Lol... this is stupid...
So... if you think I can pass my CT... please tell me... Cause I am very sure this time I am going to 垫底 in S01 liao... Ranking point drop from 72 to 40 something bah... lolx...
Then CT do until like that this girl still wanna go for PSC scholarship talk... really... think too much lahx...haha...
Oh yah... I did say I felt like As is over... cause for some reason or another... I am super high... super happy.... I can't stop smiling... --> omg... she went mad from overdose of studying... Why I feel like that? Can some physchologist come tell me? Overstress? Lack of sleep? Fatigue??? Denial?
Oh... and through this common test... I finally felt what is stress... the stress that is totally out of my control... the stress that I have totally no control of... thoughts that I didn't have in the past came... Mood swings are more and more often... and I am starting to live in denial... denying that I am not taking my As this year... lol... symptoms of depression? haha...
I WANT WATCH TRANSFORMERS!!!
Btw... How long with the michael Jackson thing last? another week I suppose... He is really a great person although I have no particular feelings for him... but I saw his videos on youtube... 1 one... COOL.... slick moonwalk and he really pops like a freaking robot.... Now I see why JJ and many other artiste and musicans see him as a enternal idol and stand by his side even with those scandals... and I was reading the papers yesterday and there is this 'headline' -
麦克杰迅-- 月球漫步一小步 流行文化一大步....
I think it makes sense.... Go Michael Jackson!
放下- 也许会快乐些
放弃- 也许会解脱些
人生道路没人能替你走
自己的未来 自己掌握
相信无限...
..::No one can stop you unless you stop yourself, No one will push you unless you push yourself. The choice is yours::..
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
Sometimes, studying becomes so boring that you go into a state of stoning.
No matter how much you want to study (more of because you know if you don't study now, it's going to be too late.), nothing seems to go in.
Well... I think I am at this state for today...
Actually I was planning on finishing energetics and equilibrium... But I ended up finishing only equilbrium and have been staring at chen energetics since 8 but nothing went in... So it's equals to never study at all...
Looking at my schedule makes people stress... I am running behind shecdule for bio and chem (and so this is my two weakest subject, thanks lah). I was then planning of studying bio on thurs but it seems pretty impossible because of the Annual Retreat which i am very unwilling to miss. Tml still need to do the ambassador thing. --> I don't mind being a JJ ambassador... but you timing is just too perfect that it came when my whole life is in chaos and whirlpool... Too bad... you can't get that much support from me afterall... I do have my piorities.
Distractions are fatal at this time... So I might as well get rid of my distraction now... well... not really a distracton... it's more of an addiction.... Haiz... Look at how time flies when you are studying (yup... Ironically) that now you yourself is wondering if you could finish in time to sit PREPARED for the common test... For me... now, looking at the current situation, I can firmly telll you my answer... NO. I will not be prepared... I may have finished the notes but not the tutorials...
Again, I am falling short of teacher's expectation(Wait... Do they even have expectation of me? Or the expectation of the class? Who knows...) I am really very sorry about it... How many more sorrys do I have to say... honestly speaking... I have no idea...
Hiaz... Beiyii is blabbering nonsense in this post... I think she has gone mad from overdose of studying... Screwed.
No matter how much you want to study (more of because you know if you don't study now, it's going to be too late.), nothing seems to go in.
Well... I think I am at this state for today...
Actually I was planning on finishing energetics and equilibrium... But I ended up finishing only equilbrium and have been staring at chen energetics since 8 but nothing went in... So it's equals to never study at all...
Looking at my schedule makes people stress... I am running behind shecdule for bio and chem (and so this is my two weakest subject, thanks lah). I was then planning of studying bio on thurs but it seems pretty impossible because of the Annual Retreat which i am very unwilling to miss. Tml still need to do the ambassador thing. --> I don't mind being a JJ ambassador... but you timing is just too perfect that it came when my whole life is in chaos and whirlpool... Too bad... you can't get that much support from me afterall... I do have my piorities.
Distractions are fatal at this time... So I might as well get rid of my distraction now... well... not really a distracton... it's more of an addiction.... Haiz... Look at how time flies when you are studying (yup... Ironically) that now you yourself is wondering if you could finish in time to sit PREPARED for the common test... For me... now, looking at the current situation, I can firmly telll you my answer... NO. I will not be prepared... I may have finished the notes but not the tutorials...
Again, I am falling short of teacher's expectation(Wait... Do they even have expectation of me? Or the expectation of the class? Who knows...) I am really very sorry about it... How many more sorrys do I have to say... honestly speaking... I have no idea...
Hiaz... Beiyii is blabbering nonsense in this post... I think she has gone mad from overdose of studying... Screwed.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Ok.... I was you tubing after blogger... and this is wad I found...
*Screams* NEW MOON poster!!! and look at the hell date! A-levels!!! Hope and pray that it wouldn't close shop so early then... And in my opinion lahx... Edward's ugly in the poster... Jacob changed alot... maybe it's because he chopped his hair... haha...
Oh... and if you are as excited as I am... the 'trailer' is also out on youtube... You friend here is lazy to embedd it... so I shall leave you guys the link... Whee.... Twilight Saga rox!
PS: all fake trailers... Official trialer coming out in August... :) But they look damn real!
Part1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOQ2qv_isBA&feature=related
Part2:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCGcuE20heE&feature=related
Trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cZJCrt_NDk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ng8XyRb1DT8
OK... I decided to stop... cause... There is alot... Zzzz.... weren't they great? Cool man!
Cheers to twilight~
*Screams* NEW MOON poster!!! and look at the hell date! A-levels!!! Hope and pray that it wouldn't close shop so early then... And in my opinion lahx... Edward's ugly in the poster... Jacob changed alot... maybe it's because he chopped his hair... haha...
Oh... and if you are as excited as I am... the 'trailer' is also out on youtube... You friend here is lazy to embedd it... so I shall leave you guys the link... Whee.... Twilight Saga rox!
PS: all fake trailers... Official trialer coming out in August... :) But they look damn real!
Part1:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VOQ2qv_isBA&feature=related
Part2:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FCGcuE20heE&feature=related
Trailer:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5cZJCrt_NDk&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ng8XyRb1DT8
OK... I decided to stop... cause... There is alot... Zzzz.... weren't they great? Cool man!
Cheers to twilight~
Talentime was great ^.^
But I felt abit like... hmm I am paying 4bucks to watch what i watched during the audition... but it's worth it... cause Crew 3042 rock the house man! They are damn cool! especially the locking part... haha... and huimin's comment was... gold with honours... haha... Then the english vocals YuNeng and Jayne is nice... powerhouse! Cool man! Too bad never bring camera... haiz...
What's worth more is we saw ms chew's little dylan!! So cute!!! I wanna take picture with himm... sobs... but they going off in a rush... he give us a pan kiss... wootz!!! Then the hubby dosen't look like someone who will debate with her... OMG!!! So cute!!! haha...
Holidays soon... but say goodbye... mass lessons for the first 2 weeks... goner... and my sis going China for 2 months... sobs... I am going to be in a cave for 2 months... waaaahhhh.... I dowan... anyone... ask me out? lol... zzz...
But I felt abit like... hmm I am paying 4bucks to watch what i watched during the audition... but it's worth it... cause Crew 3042 rock the house man! They are damn cool! especially the locking part... haha... and huimin's comment was... gold with honours... haha... Then the english vocals YuNeng and Jayne is nice... powerhouse! Cool man! Too bad never bring camera... haiz...
What's worth more is we saw ms chew's little dylan!! So cute!!! I wanna take picture with himm... sobs... but they going off in a rush... he give us a pan kiss... wootz!!! Then the hubby dosen't look like someone who will debate with her... OMG!!! So cute!!! haha...
Holidays soon... but say goodbye... mass lessons for the first 2 weeks... goner... and my sis going China for 2 months... sobs... I am going to be in a cave for 2 months... waaaahhhh.... I dowan... anyone... ask me out? lol... zzz...
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Ok... Random post in the middle of the week... Anyway... You might see an emotional side... who knows...
Main reason... I added another fail to the bio records... thank you... thank you... and I am failing wonderfully... 11/40... Convert to 100% you tell me... 20 plus... total U grade... --> Goner in bio... Hiaz... Who knows how much I want to give up on Bio... The very subject that no matter how much effort, time and concentration I spent on it, I still cannot clear it or just managed to pass at borderline... I hate it...
If you say my studying method is wrong... I shouldn't be scoring for some subject and failing miseribaly for other subject... cause I study the subject in the very same way and method... I understand that not all subjects are studied the same way... but I know science subjects could be studied in the same method... it's not like I am scoring for chem... but if I redo my tutorials and do my tys, the A comes by easily... but for bio... the genetic retest... no one has any idea how much time I put in... I redo my tutorial, did tys questions (which I have no problem with) and what results did I get? 18/30... Just pass... What is this.... the for the test I got back today... I spent 1 week studying... 1 WEEKK!!!
So conclusion... My fate with Bio has ended after Sec 4.... I really have to thank god(if I believe in one) that I didn't give up on bio... and I suppose that I won't give it up now that I have walked 3/4 of my way to A-levels...
Hmm... enough of emo talks and complains... I actually wanted to put a youtube vedio here... but I am too lazy to scale that damn vedio down... so I just forget it... haha... the vedio is about iphones... Ok... iphone... So? This iphone is different!!! It's super cool... Strictly speaking... it's not iphone... it's itable... yah... 50-inch screen iphone... so it's called an itable actually... OMG~ it functions like a iphone with a bigger and better screen... I was like looking at the person play the warcraft, wahseh... the computor is noob... itable is pro... so damn fast... one touch, you flipped you invertory, another touch... you killed you ememies... one slide and you see the whole view of the battle ground... compared to the com... lagg, irritating mouse and stuff and the next thing you want is to smash that stupid computor... Then you can edit picture like a normal com... and draw and your drawing can talk to you... maybe seiyu should try it.... haha... ok... that itable operates just like an iphone... it's damn cool... AHhh.... i want.... but I think it will cost me a house... --> exgarate.... hohoh....
如果死亡可以得到解放
如果死亡可以解决一切烦恼
我愿意与死亡签约换取我心灵的解脱
但我很清楚的知道
这是不可能的事
也许这是我现在还活着的理由...
I will face all challenges with perserverance and determination...
I will never give up...
Main reason... I added another fail to the bio records... thank you... thank you... and I am failing wonderfully... 11/40... Convert to 100% you tell me... 20 plus... total U grade... --> Goner in bio... Hiaz... Who knows how much I want to give up on Bio... The very subject that no matter how much effort, time and concentration I spent on it, I still cannot clear it or just managed to pass at borderline... I hate it...
If you say my studying method is wrong... I shouldn't be scoring for some subject and failing miseribaly for other subject... cause I study the subject in the very same way and method... I understand that not all subjects are studied the same way... but I know science subjects could be studied in the same method... it's not like I am scoring for chem... but if I redo my tutorials and do my tys, the A comes by easily... but for bio... the genetic retest... no one has any idea how much time I put in... I redo my tutorial, did tys questions (which I have no problem with) and what results did I get? 18/30... Just pass... What is this.... the for the test I got back today... I spent 1 week studying... 1 WEEKK!!!
So conclusion... My fate with Bio has ended after Sec 4.... I really have to thank god(if I believe in one) that I didn't give up on bio... and I suppose that I won't give it up now that I have walked 3/4 of my way to A-levels...
Hmm... enough of emo talks and complains... I actually wanted to put a youtube vedio here... but I am too lazy to scale that damn vedio down... so I just forget it... haha... the vedio is about iphones... Ok... iphone... So? This iphone is different!!! It's super cool... Strictly speaking... it's not iphone... it's itable... yah... 50-inch screen iphone... so it's called an itable actually... OMG~ it functions like a iphone with a bigger and better screen... I was like looking at the person play the warcraft, wahseh... the computor is noob... itable is pro... so damn fast... one touch, you flipped you invertory, another touch... you killed you ememies... one slide and you see the whole view of the battle ground... compared to the com... lagg, irritating mouse and stuff and the next thing you want is to smash that stupid computor... Then you can edit picture like a normal com... and draw and your drawing can talk to you... maybe seiyu should try it.... haha... ok... that itable operates just like an iphone... it's damn cool... AHhh.... i want.... but I think it will cost me a house... --> exgarate.... hohoh....
如果死亡可以解决一切烦恼
我愿意与死亡签约换取我心灵的解脱
但我很清楚的知道
这是不可能的事
也许这是我现在还活着的理由...
I will face all challenges with perserverance and determination...
I will never give up...
Saturday, May 16, 2009
I will make this a short one....
Two things that I hate the most about parent meeting... :(
1. Parents reprimanding their child in front of the teacher...
2. Teachers asking question that I have no answers to and saying that cannot say donno...
But I was satisfied with my results to be honest... who wouldn"t be happy with a ranking point of 71? but too bad... GP got S... cannot get into university also...dotx... And my results are of total extremes... AADE... yup.... The two ends of the spectrum... Haiz... But I am sad about chemistry... When you love a subject you would want to do well... but the thing is you are not performing...
Ms Zhang said to me... you know where you weakness is... but why are you not doing anything to tackle it? Let me tell you the answer... Ihave bad time management... The time I set aside to study for each test is only sufficient for me to finish the notes and read the tutorial... I don have the time to redo the tutorials... you see... and it is not that I set aside only 3 hrs to study... the truth is I set aside the whole day... but because I have very short attention span... I tend to space out very often and time flies now adays... so in the end... after building my sandcastles in the air... I have only sufficient time to READ my tutorial... Do you think I don want to boost my chemistry marks? Do you think I want to stay at the borderline wondering when I will fail the test? I don you see... But I cannot help it... spacing out every hour... feeling very restless...
Btw.. I think I sound pretty rude yesterday to my teachers... :X I don mean it... I really don... Lol... its not like the teacher will read this...
Oh yah... and ms goh has all along been thinking that I am not studying for her bio test... OMG~ I feel so... Zzzz.... I STUDIED like some shit can! To tell you honestly... I spend the most time on bio! I really do! I know wheres my weakness... I know I have to spend time on bio... and I am doing it... I am giving every subject an equal chance... I don"t focus on maths and econs... I give every subject equal time... equal attention... I am not bias towards any subject... hmm... maybe bias against GP but for my H2 subjects... I am not!
Maybe I am to a science type of student after all... And ms gohs was like saying my progress report look very weird... haha...
Btw... can someone answer me... Do I look very stress???
Oh yah! Before I forget... I saw jonathan on ST today... He won some ACS guy in squash 4-1... yah... haha...
If crying would help...
I am willing to tear till I am dried...
Two things that I hate the most about parent meeting... :(
1. Parents reprimanding their child in front of the teacher...
2. Teachers asking question that I have no answers to and saying that cannot say donno...
But I was satisfied with my results to be honest... who wouldn"t be happy with a ranking point of 71? but too bad... GP got S... cannot get into university also...dotx... And my results are of total extremes... AADE... yup.... The two ends of the spectrum... Haiz... But I am sad about chemistry... When you love a subject you would want to do well... but the thing is you are not performing...
Ms Zhang said to me... you know where you weakness is... but why are you not doing anything to tackle it? Let me tell you the answer... Ihave bad time management... The time I set aside to study for each test is only sufficient for me to finish the notes and read the tutorial... I don have the time to redo the tutorials... you see... and it is not that I set aside only 3 hrs to study... the truth is I set aside the whole day... but because I have very short attention span... I tend to space out very often and time flies now adays... so in the end... after building my sandcastles in the air... I have only sufficient time to READ my tutorial... Do you think I don want to boost my chemistry marks? Do you think I want to stay at the borderline wondering when I will fail the test? I don you see... But I cannot help it... spacing out every hour... feeling very restless...
Btw.. I think I sound pretty rude yesterday to my teachers... :X I don mean it... I really don... Lol... its not like the teacher will read this...
Oh yah... and ms goh has all along been thinking that I am not studying for her bio test... OMG~ I feel so... Zzzz.... I STUDIED like some shit can! To tell you honestly... I spend the most time on bio! I really do! I know wheres my weakness... I know I have to spend time on bio... and I am doing it... I am giving every subject an equal chance... I don"t focus on maths and econs... I give every subject equal time... equal attention... I am not bias towards any subject... hmm... maybe bias against GP but for my H2 subjects... I am not!
Maybe I am to a science type of student after all... And ms gohs was like saying my progress report look very weird... haha...
Btw... can someone answer me... Do I look very stress???
Oh yah! Before I forget... I saw jonathan on ST today... He won some ACS guy in squash 4-1... yah... haha...
If crying would help...
I am willing to tear till I am dried...
Saturday, May 02, 2009
I am real dead this time... Anyone here has an extra thermometer to lend me??? OMG! I am going to die... I surf the whole JP and market and there is no single freaking thermometer!!! OMG! 完了! 完了! Anyway I bought it from e-bay and the hell knows when I am going to get it... Hope I could get it by tml :(
Anyway... Ms Chew was talking about Paranoid VS complacency... I am not complacent but I really couldn't find and buy a freaking thermometer!!! And I think now.. being paranoid is better than being complacent... as she said...
Btw... I went for Gp consultation the other day.... she scolded me likes siao... haha... not really lahx... then somehow... my tap turn on and no matter how much I wanna stop I just can't.... Because at that time... I am really really very very scared! Very scared that I will flunk my GP again... fail another GP test... I am really afraid... and I donno why...
Stress? Who knows...
Anyway... Ms Chew was talking about Paranoid VS complacency... I am not complacent but I really couldn't find and buy a freaking thermometer!!! And I think now.. being paranoid is better than being complacent... as she said...
Btw... I went for Gp consultation the other day.... she scolded me likes siao... haha... not really lahx... then somehow... my tap turn on and no matter how much I wanna stop I just can't.... Because at that time... I am really really very very scared! Very scared that I will flunk my GP again... fail another GP test... I am really afraid... and I donno why...
Stress? Who knows...
Friday, April 24, 2009
Monday HM told me about the president command performance last sunday I was like OMG! I never watch... But I watched it today! :) Show you :)
Nice? Wonderful? Perfect? Well... it's pretty obvious that he is quite tensed at the front... His killa abit... yah... lol....
Oh... Now I am quite hooked up with badminton... haha... I like badminton! Hoho... Ok... I don't have the feeling to blog... wanna watch you tube :)
Thursday, April 09, 2009
Quote for the day:
Always expect the unexpected....
Today was the day I dread anyway... release of PW grades!!! Omg! I was like having butterflies in my stomach early in the morning can... But my grades turn out fine! I am so damn happy... I didn't expect it! Me and veron was like... die liao.... sure CMI one... haiz... But it turn out fine!! The report for us was great! And I seriously think that my GPF really helped me alot... cause my op... looking at the comments... I sort of screwed it up... But GPF comments were great... I it feels like the marker really liked my idea... full of praises... maybe that's how i got my grade :) Btw... we did on forensic science and we thought our WR was total crap can... but it turn out fine too :) thank too me lahx... i typed it... hehe.... OMG~ 在抢功劳 liao... haha... everyone has a part to play lahx... but I started out with the skeleton :) and I made the flyer which they commented about :))) Haha... So happy....
But overall JJ (the school) didn't do very well... sadded... But our class did well... compared to the other classes... I am seeing classes with only 1A and our class is not bad lerx...
Then bio pract we were talking to Ms Goh about scuba diving! She was like keep saying and saying and make me wanna dive somemore.... Zzzz.... and she saw DOLPHINS!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!! and loads of them!!! I want to see!!!! then also have turtle... but that's like very deep in the sea... so for a person who can't swim... like me... too bad... you can't go... haiz... I want go scuba dive!!! But I am going snorkel again this december!! Wheeee! I am going to have much more fun than 2yrs ago!!! Wheeeee~ Although I don get to see dolphins but pathetic shoals of fish... I am contented... haha... :)
Today was the day I dread anyway... release of PW grades!!! Omg! I was like having butterflies in my stomach early in the morning can... But my grades turn out fine! I am so damn happy... I didn't expect it! Me and veron was like... die liao.... sure CMI one... haiz... But it turn out fine!! The report for us was great! And I seriously think that my GPF really helped me alot... cause my op... looking at the comments... I sort of screwed it up... But GPF comments were great... I it feels like the marker really liked my idea... full of praises... maybe that's how i got my grade :) Btw... we did on forensic science and we thought our WR was total crap can... but it turn out fine too :) thank too me lahx... i typed it... hehe.... OMG~ 在抢功劳 liao... haha... everyone has a part to play lahx... but I started out with the skeleton :) and I made the flyer which they commented about :))) Haha... So happy....
But overall JJ (the school) didn't do very well... sadded... But our class did well... compared to the other classes... I am seeing classes with only 1A and our class is not bad lerx...
Then bio pract we were talking to Ms Goh about scuba diving! She was like keep saying and saying and make me wanna dive somemore.... Zzzz.... and she saw DOLPHINS!!! OMG!!! OMG!!!! and loads of them!!! I want to see!!!! then also have turtle... but that's like very deep in the sea... so for a person who can't swim... like me... too bad... you can't go... haiz... I want go scuba dive!!! But I am going snorkel again this december!! Wheeee! I am going to have much more fun than 2yrs ago!!! Wheeeee~ Although I don get to see dolphins but pathetic shoals of fish... I am contented... haha... :)
Friday, April 03, 2009
As you know.... I love to watch you-tube... and guess what I found tonight? wahaha....
JJ 09 Sg Concert 许怀良老师 + 林氏家族!
This is ultimate coolness can! Uniquely for Singapore... I didn't know JJ's family can play instruments! and he got Kawaii scene with his mum! Wootz... Damn cute! haha... But one bad thing.... lousy quality and got 杂音 very irritating... screaming throughout can... haha... and 许环良is like the emcee!! It's like once in a blue moon you see him hosting can... lol... Ultimate coolness... JJ Lin rox!
Enough of my JJ fantasy... Back to reality... has been waking up at 5.30 for the past 3 days... cause I studying Bio... haha... then huimin was like saying she never see me study in school... cause I mug like shit at home.... lolx... actually I intended to study in school one... but school got alot of distractions... haha... But actually honestly speaking... I am thinkning of waking up 5.30 every morning... do some revision before I go to school... somehow... I didn't really feel that tired... yup... so maybe I will try it for next week and see how... and I think my parent will be thinking that I am mad... haha... lol... Anyways... late I am planning my revision shecdule... cause I going to die liao... haha...
Then today... I wanted to donate blood! Then I qeue for like an hour and they REJECTED me!!! I am totally sian diao lahx... irritated.... It started off with Me, HuiMin, Sheryl and Veron... then I got rejected thanks to my rashes... lol... I shouldn't have ask the doctor can... she was like wanting to measure my Bp already... then I went like...
Me: I have a question
Doc Nod her head.
Me: If I got rashes can donate? *show her my rashes*
Doc: *got that OMG face* the other hand?
Me: *show the other hand*
Doc: *shake her head* I think better not.
Me: But it's sweat rashes!
Doc: To be safer, better not. Because they have to poke the needle in the region where you have rashes. *take out an I donno wad and started flipping and show me* You see. Rashes 14 days cannot donate...
Then I sian diao lolx... que for so damn long and got rejected thanks to my stupid question... wondering if she would find out if I never ask? haha... but last yr I got rashes the doctor also let me donate lehx... sadded... Then Sheryl got rejected cause they cannot find her vien... then huimin got rejected because the vien is too small... lol... So only left of little veron and she donate!!! Wootz! Life saver! Haha...
That's all... going to plan my shecdule and do the econs thingy...
Ultimate Fatigue...
JJ 09 Sg Concert 许怀良老师 + 林氏家族!
This is ultimate coolness can! Uniquely for Singapore... I didn't know JJ's family can play instruments! and he got Kawaii scene with his mum! Wootz... Damn cute! haha... But one bad thing.... lousy quality and got 杂音 very irritating... screaming throughout can... haha... and 许环良is like the emcee!! It's like once in a blue moon you see him hosting can... lol... Ultimate coolness... JJ Lin rox!
Enough of my JJ fantasy... Back to reality... has been waking up at 5.30 for the past 3 days... cause I studying Bio... haha... then huimin was like saying she never see me study in school... cause I mug like shit at home.... lolx... actually I intended to study in school one... but school got alot of distractions... haha... But actually honestly speaking... I am thinkning of waking up 5.30 every morning... do some revision before I go to school... somehow... I didn't really feel that tired... yup... so maybe I will try it for next week and see how... and I think my parent will be thinking that I am mad... haha... lol... Anyways... late I am planning my revision shecdule... cause I going to die liao... haha...
Then today... I wanted to donate blood! Then I qeue for like an hour and they REJECTED me!!! I am totally sian diao lahx... irritated.... It started off with Me, HuiMin, Sheryl and Veron... then I got rejected thanks to my rashes... lol... I shouldn't have ask the doctor can... she was like wanting to measure my Bp already... then I went like...
Me: I have a question
Doc Nod her head.
Me: If I got rashes can donate? *show her my rashes*
Doc: *got that OMG face* the other hand?
Me: *show the other hand*
Doc: *shake her head* I think better not.
Me: But it's sweat rashes!
Doc: To be safer, better not. Because they have to poke the needle in the region where you have rashes. *take out an I donno wad and started flipping and show me* You see. Rashes 14 days cannot donate...
Then I sian diao lolx... que for so damn long and got rejected thanks to my stupid question... wondering if she would find out if I never ask? haha... but last yr I got rashes the doctor also let me donate lehx... sadded... Then Sheryl got rejected cause they cannot find her vien... then huimin got rejected because the vien is too small... lol... So only left of little veron and she donate!!! Wootz! Life saver! Haha...
That's all... going to plan my shecdule and do the econs thingy...
Ultimate Fatigue...
Friday, March 27, 2009
First week after the school hols... One word... TIRED!!! I am now like some walking corpse... haha... But the thing is I sleep at least 8hrs! lol.... anyway... I died for the first week... haiz...
Today went to the telematch... I didn't regret! Although I did when we had training... but today I didn't... it was fun! But honestly... the shirt sux.... Anyway... we didn't win... got last instead... haha... Cause at the starting, we already lagging behind thanks to the junior benjamin.... he last min got heart problem... diaoz... he should have like said it earlier... so they made JinHwee do the strecher and that damn maniquinn is like 90KG can... and the other teams got all guys lahx... hiaz... then JinHwee is suppose to do the fire extinguisher then in the end a J1 do... and then she wasn't well trained enough so we lagged behind at the very start... then the stretcher also cause no coordination and we have to go slower because of JinHwee, so we lag somemore... hiaz.... then by the time is Devi and my turn... when we started running, the other 3 teams are already on their way back... lolx.... diaoz... but we got sportmanship... so we ended the competetion lahx.... Then the other teams also not very good... 2nd or 3rd... so in the end the 4th div lost....
The international event is damn cool! First one I didn't see cause we preparing for our event... then second was the spiderman... abseling and then got this tunnel thing is like got one officer got stuck in the tunnel and ppl started pulling his leg... haha... and the most ridiculous thing is... they cut a car! and it look brand new!!! just to save a MANEQUINN!!! OMG! waste moolah can....
Then local events the first one was ours.... second was this climb to somewhere and save the victim... then 4th div was actually leading but in the end 3rd div caught up... sadded and you know wad! a motorcycle can got zigzag very smoothly and so cool.... this is normal... but an AMBULANCE doing the same thing???? It's MUCH MORE cooler!!!
See... that's why I didn't regret... it's a wonderful experience... I don mind going again... but this time not because I wanna pon bio... haha... But I felt abit bad about pulling the 4th div down in the point.... cause we got 4th... haiz... too bad... but I must say... my IPP is fast can... haha... but running CMI... hoho... :)
then moday had my 2.4... I almost died... anyway... I ran slower than before... retaking :) then 5 station I was sad that my standing broad jump was lousy... I think i retaking most of the stations... haha.... :)
Today went to the telematch... I didn't regret! Although I did when we had training... but today I didn't... it was fun! But honestly... the shirt sux.... Anyway... we didn't win... got last instead... haha... Cause at the starting, we already lagging behind thanks to the junior benjamin.... he last min got heart problem... diaoz... he should have like said it earlier... so they made JinHwee do the strecher and that damn maniquinn is like 90KG can... and the other teams got all guys lahx... hiaz... then JinHwee is suppose to do the fire extinguisher then in the end a J1 do... and then she wasn't well trained enough so we lagged behind at the very start... then the stretcher also cause no coordination and we have to go slower because of JinHwee, so we lag somemore... hiaz.... then by the time is Devi and my turn... when we started running, the other 3 teams are already on their way back... lolx.... diaoz... but we got sportmanship... so we ended the competetion lahx.... Then the other teams also not very good... 2nd or 3rd... so in the end the 4th div lost....
The international event is damn cool! First one I didn't see cause we preparing for our event... then second was the spiderman... abseling and then got this tunnel thing is like got one officer got stuck in the tunnel and ppl started pulling his leg... haha... and the most ridiculous thing is... they cut a car! and it look brand new!!! just to save a MANEQUINN!!! OMG! waste moolah can....
Then local events the first one was ours.... second was this climb to somewhere and save the victim... then 4th div was actually leading but in the end 3rd div caught up... sadded and you know wad! a motorcycle can got zigzag very smoothly and so cool.... this is normal... but an AMBULANCE doing the same thing???? It's MUCH MORE cooler!!!
See... that's why I didn't regret... it's a wonderful experience... I don mind going again... but this time not because I wanna pon bio... haha... But I felt abit bad about pulling the 4th div down in the point.... cause we got 4th... haiz... too bad... but I must say... my IPP is fast can... haha... but running CMI... hoho... :)
then moday had my 2.4... I almost died... anyway... I ran slower than before... retaking :) then 5 station I was sad that my standing broad jump was lousy... I think i retaking most of the stations... haha.... :)
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
OMG~ 也太快了吧！My march hols is half gone! Sobs X100... It's already wednesday... Anyway, my decision to study like crazy during the march hols 泡汤了... Cause I think I damn stupid... Went to download audition on sunday and have been playing everyday... OMG~ No need to study lerx... I wanna 找回我对online gaming 的热诚.... hhaa... But I got self discipline one lolx... I only play for 2 hours a day.. expect for sunday lahx... I played the whole day after I download... haha... I slacked the whole sat and sun...
Talking about sat... I got duty and thought I was going to mug with the J1s... so I bought like bio and maths there... and guess wad? I did nothing... nothing at all... haha... cause no J1s to motivate me to mug... So I did the props for the ah long skit and then chit chat with Peifang... OMG~ I finally found someone to talk to about my KO3! people in my class also don watch you tube as much as I do :( haha... I also donno what they do when the go online... Game???
Anyways... Off to study bio... I got only 13/35 for my genetics test! 加油吧！And I am not going to play audi today... I hope... haiz... I am dumb...
Quotes for the day:)
Still moving under gunfire...
Talking about sat... I got duty and thought I was going to mug with the J1s... so I bought like bio and maths there... and guess wad? I did nothing... nothing at all... haha... cause no J1s to motivate me to mug... So I did the props for the ah long skit and then chit chat with Peifang... OMG~ I finally found someone to talk to about my KO3! people in my class also don watch you tube as much as I do :( haha... I also donno what they do when the go online... Game???
Anyways... Off to study bio... I got only 13/35 for my genetics test! 加油吧！And I am not going to play audi today... I hope... haiz... I am dumb...
Quotes for the day:)
Still moving under gunfire...
-JJ Lin~
Friday, March 13, 2009
I was cordialy invited... Haha... But I didn't go... two reasons... No one to go with me... and you will have no idea how ulu that place is.... The nearest MRT is China town and I couldn't even see it in the map! Yup... That's why I didn't go...
Today's sport day was damn tiring... I cheered... haha... abit no voice lerx... cause yesterday went K! OMG~ I zao sia like no one's busniess yesterday lahx... I think veron's ear 受尽折磨了... haha... Then she say I got a lao qiang... haha... That's my 各人特色... lol.... she also got a qiang when she sing... nice though... and I very 羡慕 she can hit the high pitch lahx... cause my 假音很烂... haha... and then saw JinXian and Fion... they went K too... so qiao right... and that two jumped on the chair like gila lahx... couldn't imagine Fion being high? See she in K-box... haha... Planning another one in june with the korean gang... whee... hope it turns out fine and I won't zao sia again... haha...
Okie... I deviated from my sports day... Yups... I cheered for Owens... though I am not very rooted to it... haha... Cheered for the fartlek guys... got syafiq and ted! Ted is like so damn cute can... he is like a teddy bear running lolx... haha... cute!!! I am in love with Ted! I fell in love with ted... Aik Song went to rono and JieHeng went to Banni... but he is still with owen! Jia Yous!
Then wed was e-learning... I swear I won't want another home learning... I sat in front of this com for like th whole morning doing hw! and wed I don even have maths and I have to do a maths quiz... good thing the maths quiz is easy... haha...
Tml have duty from 8-6.... sianed... Have to tolerate the J1s... I think they would be there... hiaz... This year J1s sucks big time... not only they mug... even during sports day... damp my mood sia... and when we cleared the litter they acted they couldn't see... Felt like screaming at them do you understand english? Which part of please pick up the litter do you not understand... 09S27! irritating... rah!
It's the hols! But not for me... sobs.... got alot to catch up... especially in Bio... I got another U added to my bio record... congrats.... :)
Friday, March 06, 2009
To say that I am happy...
I am not...
To say that I am sad...
I am not...
Maybe it's because chinese is not impt?
I have no idea...
Anyway... I sort of expected it... :)
So... No harm done...
If you think I am sad... :)
Saturday I went for kiddoletics... It's pretty fun if not for the damn lousy organisation and communication.. The kids were great and hyper too :) I don't mind going for another one though! But I doubt any one would wanna go :(
Sunday stay at home to pia homework... took a little break off and watch KO3... Damn lame can... haha.... One coin... hit one glass bottle... the chain effect to a metal can... then to a rock... and hit the guy... HAHAHA! Tml going to watch 2nd ep :)
Monday... usual school day... sianed... Nothing change... if anything changed... it changed for the worse... Tues... Same routine.... Wed went to NPP for the skit... I sort of got 'kicked' out of the performance though... cuase too many ppl lerx... so I am doing the props instead... Felt quite... angry is not the word... haha... maybe sad bahx... So I thinking if I wanna go for the event that day... since I am not needed... Thurs I have two test... GP TCA which I screwed up most likely... and Bio SPA... I think I screwed it up... So veron... now you know why I am so reluctant to talk about it... :) Sad...
Today... Friday... Release of A level results... Our school top student got straight As! Congrats! Although I donno who that person is... and second in the school guess who? Jacky's Bro! Damn cool! Haha... Then the teacher went on their routine talks about starting revision now... Hello... Is not I dowan to start... it's I didn't have time... If I could even finish studying a test... it would be pretty a miracle :) so who has the time to study J1 work? And you know... I think I got Veron's sleeping genes... I sleep alot now adays and still wake up tired... Is this an illness? But I will do it during the march hols! I am really going to start studying...
Aims for A-Levels:
GP: B
Maths: A
Chem: A
Econs: A
Bio: B
Bio B because I sort of losing hope in it... :( not that I want... but no matter how much I study... I can score... I said I love econs and Chem... so I WANT an A and Maths... Expected A.
That's all from me...
6 more days... To SMUDGE~
I am not...
To say that I am sad...
I am not...
Maybe it's because chinese is not impt?
I have no idea...
Anyway... I sort of expected it... :)
So... No harm done...
If you think I am sad... :)
Saturday I went for kiddoletics... It's pretty fun if not for the damn lousy organisation and communication.. The kids were great and hyper too :) I don't mind going for another one though! But I doubt any one would wanna go :(
Sunday stay at home to pia homework... took a little break off and watch KO3... Damn lame can... haha.... One coin... hit one glass bottle... the chain effect to a metal can... then to a rock... and hit the guy... HAHAHA! Tml going to watch 2nd ep :)
Monday... usual school day... sianed... Nothing change... if anything changed... it changed for the worse... Tues... Same routine.... Wed went to NPP for the skit... I sort of got 'kicked' out of the performance though... cuase too many ppl lerx... so I am doing the props instead... Felt quite... angry is not the word... haha... maybe sad bahx... So I thinking if I wanna go for the event that day... since I am not needed... Thurs I have two test... GP TCA which I screwed up most likely... and Bio SPA... I think I screwed it up... So veron... now you know why I am so reluctant to talk about it... :) Sad...
Today... Friday... Release of A level results... Our school top student got straight As! Congrats! Although I donno who that person is... and second in the school guess who? Jacky's Bro! Damn cool! Haha... Then the teacher went on their routine talks about starting revision now... Hello... Is not I dowan to start... it's I didn't have time... If I could even finish studying a test... it would be pretty a miracle :) so who has the time to study J1 work? And you know... I think I got Veron's sleeping genes... I sleep alot now adays and still wake up tired... Is this an illness? But I will do it during the march hols! I am really going to start studying...
Aims for A-Levels:
GP: B
Maths: A
Chem: A
Econs: A
Bio: B
Bio B because I sort of losing hope in it... :( not that I want... but no matter how much I study... I can score... I said I love econs and Chem... so I WANT an A and Maths... Expected A.
That's all from me...
6 more days... To SMUDGE~
Friday, February 27, 2009
OMG~ I saw sihui at ms tan house on tues... damn happi can.... very long never see her lerx... and we chatted in mr tan hse like we are at kopitiam like that... haha... she is stressed... so am I... haha... Thanks to her... I am not as regretting that i got into JC... it's that different kind of stress lahx... But all of us have to Jia You... haha... And she said to play netball and go out after my A's... whee!!! Hope we still stay in touch then... hahah... Anyway.. After A's I got alot of plans... yah... I know it's only feb... but I am already flying t two countries after my A's... and if we are still friends... maybe overseas with 7!... So I am touring the world after A's.... excited man... wootz...
Having kiddoletics tml and movies... Suspect X... blog about it next week then... haha...
为什么一定要长大
为什么世界变得好复杂
我不想独自面对眼泪流下
我只想紧紧抱着他
有时候我喜欢和朋友一起分享冒险的游戏
有时候我宁可到海边去淋雨
只是我找不到我自己
我的心其实在逃避
每天被困在幻想和现实之间
我想回家
为什么一定要长大
为什么都不说出真心话
我不想别人看穿我的倔强
我真的好想要回家
再坚强的人也需要一个靠山
而我的在那里？
Having kiddoletics tml and movies... Suspect X... blog about it next week then... haha...
为什么一定要长大
为什么世界变得好复杂
我不想独自面对眼泪流下
我只想紧紧抱着他
有时候我喜欢和朋友一起分享冒险的游戏
有时候我宁可到海边去淋雨
只是我找不到我自己
我的心其实在逃避
每天被困在幻想和现实之间
我想回家
为什么一定要长大
为什么都不说出真心话
我不想别人看穿我的倔强
我真的好想要回家
再坚强的人也需要一个靠山
而我的在那里？
Friday, February 20, 2009
It's finally friday! Yippee~ But I have a busy weekend ahead... haha... this week had mass test... dying soon man... :X
Start from Monday... First lesson... econs lect test on NIS... and I wrote so happily and donno why... I suddenly felt a need to relook at the question... At one look... I knew I wrote out of point... but only 10mins to end of paper... so don care... continue writing... DIE! Most likely going to fail or just scrap pass bahx... And guess wad... I did well for my market failure case study can... Ms chew still give me M&Ns... haha... actually i like it when teachers give me rewards... cause... got that type of 被肯定 de feel... But I think this time she will be damn 失望 can... haiz...
Then tues got Chem SPA trail trail... yah... and you know wad... my crystal is damn pathetic... experiment fail.... real SPA = DIE! I feel so sad can... haiz... I am in love Chem so much but it dosen't like me... :( Anyway... I am starting to feel that I am not a science type of person... I am more towards the Arts... I feel... I love Literature... but because I know I can't do well... so I just give it up... haha... I am gradually falling in love with Econs too... Maybe it's because of the teacher??? I have no idea... I think I chose science because I think I can do better cause everyone who knows me knows that my language suxs and my vocab is damn limited... haha... I like Science too lahx... Especially Chem :)
Wed... Worst test of all... Bio test... I studied like some shit for that test and in the end... I am quite sure I am getting a single digit back... if I get double digit... It's a miracle and if I pass, I might as well jump off the building... Know why? Cause out of 4 structured qns... I blanked 2... and one is total blank... Yup... so I am half expecting Ms Goh to call up my parents... :X
Thurs... Good thing maths test went off well... and this is the first time I finish+ Checking a maths test 20 mins before the end of the paper... So I was like damn scared I missed out a qn or wad and I keep double check... cause the whole LT is like still doing... scribbling... then I look around... look beside... all still doing... Then... you know... don have the an quan gan... but I admit that the test is very easy... yah... I think I am going to see quite a no of full maths coming from our class again... Seriously, I think S01 is super PRO in maths... This makes me think of Promos when the whole class got A and other classes have people failing and ungraded.... lol...
Today there is Drama Fest in our school... at 4... 3 more mins... haha... Haiz... decide not to go... Veron and Seiyu not going... but I wanna watch the Drama!!! Damn sad... I thought they going can... haiz... Now do you agree I am more of a art person? Haha... I am starting to think is it because of JJ Lin? Cause he is very art person and he influences... yah... anyway... I am so sad I couldn't go for the drama fest :(
Look at this and if you see something... you will understand how I am feeling now...
Start from Monday... First lesson... econs lect test on NIS... and I wrote so happily and donno why... I suddenly felt a need to relook at the question... At one look... I knew I wrote out of point... but only 10mins to end of paper... so don care... continue writing... DIE! Most likely going to fail or just scrap pass bahx... And guess wad... I did well for my market failure case study can... Ms chew still give me M&Ns... haha... actually i like it when teachers give me rewards... cause... got that type of 被肯定 de feel... But I think this time she will be damn 失望 can... haiz...
Then tues got Chem SPA trail trail... yah... and you know wad... my crystal is damn pathetic... experiment fail.... real SPA = DIE! I feel so sad can... haiz... I am in love Chem so much but it dosen't like me... :( Anyway... I am starting to feel that I am not a science type of person... I am more towards the Arts... I feel... I love Literature... but because I know I can't do well... so I just give it up... haha... I am gradually falling in love with Econs too... Maybe it's because of the teacher??? I have no idea... I think I chose science because I think I can do better cause everyone who knows me knows that my language suxs and my vocab is damn limited... haha... I like Science too lahx... Especially Chem :)
Wed... Worst test of all... Bio test... I studied like some shit for that test and in the end... I am quite sure I am getting a single digit back... if I get double digit... It's a miracle and if I pass, I might as well jump off the building... Know why? Cause out of 4 structured qns... I blanked 2... and one is total blank... Yup... so I am half expecting Ms Goh to call up my parents... :X
Thurs... Good thing maths test went off well... and this is the first time I finish+ Checking a maths test 20 mins before the end of the paper... So I was like damn scared I missed out a qn or wad and I keep double check... cause the whole LT is like still doing... scribbling... then I look around... look beside... all still doing... Then... you know... don have the an quan gan... but I admit that the test is very easy... yah... I think I am going to see quite a no of full maths coming from our class again... Seriously, I think S01 is super PRO in maths... This makes me think of Promos when the whole class got A and other classes have people failing and ungraded.... lol...
Today there is Drama Fest in our school... at 4... 3 more mins... haha... Haiz... decide not to go... Veron and Seiyu not going... but I wanna watch the Drama!!! Damn sad... I thought they going can... haiz... Now do you agree I am more of a art person? Haha... I am starting to think is it because of JJ Lin? Cause he is very art person and he influences... yah... anyway... I am so sad I couldn't go for the drama fest :(
Look at this and if you see something... you will understand how I am feeling now...
Friday, February 06, 2009
Smile even when it's hard to smile...
Just to put on the facade of your true emotions...
OMG~ Our J1s are total muggers! I have hell no idea why they are at JJ when they mug... and this year our COP dropped... Haiz... 14 already very lousy ler nia... now drop until 15... haiz.... Oh yah... I am talking about the J1s... First week of school and our J1s are hogging my dining table studying... freaking scary can... I don remember myself studying the first week I came in can... I think I still playing and in orientation mood... haha...We came out with the conclusion that school was too boring for them that they start studying... haha... Anyway... Quite a few JVS ppl and I am being recognised... so malu can... hiaz...
Lol... I need someone to talk to now... any self-claimed counselers who chance upon my blog? Can you leave me a tag? haha...
我们之间不知道发生了什么事
不知何时我们之间没了话题
不知何时你已经不需要我的依靠了
是因为我对你没有利用价值了吗？
还是。。。
因为我不值得你花时间在我身上？
Just to put on the facade of your true emotions...
OMG~ Our J1s are total muggers! I have hell no idea why they are at JJ when they mug... and this year our COP dropped... Haiz... 14 already very lousy ler nia... now drop until 15... haiz.... Oh yah... I am talking about the J1s... First week of school and our J1s are hogging my dining table studying... freaking scary can... I don remember myself studying the first week I came in can... I think I still playing and in orientation mood... haha...We came out with the conclusion that school was too boring for them that they start studying... haha... Anyway... Quite a few JVS ppl and I am being recognised... so malu can... hiaz...
Lol... I need someone to talk to now... any self-claimed counselers who chance upon my blog? Can you leave me a tag? haha...
我们之间不知道发生了什么事
不知何时我们之间没了话题
不知何时你已经不需要我的依靠了
是因为我对你没有利用价值了吗？
还是。。。
因为我不值得你花时间在我身上？
Sunday, January 25, 2009
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVE!!!
no new year resolutions this time cause I am having problems with the previous one... haha
Firstly, A Happy Birthday to E-goh! Have a Eventful Eighteen :)
Friday I was cheated to school cause the stupid VP told us that there was lessons and I was dumb enough to bring all my stuff... haha... lol... but the fun part was that we celebrated Ms Zhang's BD! She is so damn funny lahx... the water melon cake was pretty cute too... haha... took class pic but without darshana again... :( we gave her a cookbook and she was like... I can cook... haha.. Ms Chew was there too... whee! JieHeng, AikSong and Ted joined us too :) A reunion! And Ms Zhang was very pretty that day... after school sure to pa tuo lolx... haha...
But too bad we didn't manage to win the class deco... i think the judges have hell no idea what the crap we wrote... haha! Show you the pic :)
The story wrote:
Once upon a time
There were 27 childern with their MaMa
MaMa loves Chemistry
And will use Sugar Spice and Everything NICE
and 'POOF!'
change them into CH4 molecules
Unfortunately, 3 methane molecules flew away (Miss them)
Leaving 24 children...
Then... 24 children cloned out MaMa2
On the contrary, MaMa 2 loves Econs
She used ceteris paribus assumption
to change them into gold coins (keeping other factors constant)
Then they live happily ever after...
to be continued...
love 08S01...
lol... this is lame...
Oh ya! and I went to watch the wedding game yesterday... there were two scene that was damn funny lah! but I downa be spoiler here... I laughed like for another 2 mins after that scene passed lahx... And I saw a chinchilla! Haha... Ms Goh will go mad.... :X
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